I’m honestly so glad the weekend is finally here!
Found my motivation lacking a little today, but apart from that, it’s all good.
Might spend the whole night writing, browsing the web for inspiration as I need some right now. Perhaps it’s a good time to start work on the book currently in progress.
Been putting it off for too long.
My concentration is not as good as it once was, one of those things, I suppose. Anyway, I’m rambling now. This happens quite often, although I try and make any post on here meaningful, as complicated as my mind can be sometimes.
The idea that you need to have your life together at a certain time, a certain age, it can all be too much to think about sometimes. We grow up with these idealistic views of what success looks like, what a perfect world entails.
At the young age of 25, I feel increasingly worried about the future. Have I done enough at this age? Am I the odd one out?
It’s not as easy as people think, becoming an overnight success, finding the perfect job, having a perfect forever home. As a whole, society’s standards are difficult to live up to.
Taught to be ourselves, yet persecuted for our differences, our insecurities used as a weapon, people don’t listen to understand, there’s a lack of equality despite all these supposed regulations put in place, to protect us from discrimination, bullying, sexism, racism and many more.
I understand life is not a straightforward experience for the majority of people, but when does it all become too much? And don’t even get me started on the stigma surrounding mental health and the simple yet complex task of asking for help when necessary.
Fake it ’til you make it, or so I’ve been told about a dozen times or more.
Turning a blind eye to your problems is a temporary fix, ignoring them won’t solve anything. Facing them is equally challenging, but the comfort you feel once you do so is a sense of relief, a burden off your shoulders.
Life will get tougher before it gets better, I’m sure.
I just hope the future is much brighter than it has been in these recent weeks, months, even years. After all, you never know what to expect.
I really want to begin work on poetry book #3.
There’s a lot of ideas and thoughts going through my mind right now, and I trust my intuition when it comes to knowing the perfect time to sit down and create.
Which reminds me, I need to get a big dining table, would make it a lot easier to write, use my laptop and a lot of other things too.
I also have an urge to spruce up my home, interior wise. Been organizing the bedroom a lot in the last couple of days.
Simple changes to the bedding, or the curtains, that’s enough to bring new life into a room. Maybe I should buy some paint whilst I’m at it.
It’s the small details I pay attention to, and those bring me joy in the midst of all other circumstances.
2021 has been strange yet wonderful so far, and I hope the coming months will be more positive than the previous.
Hope you’re all well, stay safe.
Figured I would sit down and get this written up before I go to bed in a while. The day’s not been too bad, a little predictable at times, but that is to be expected.
Anyway, I feel hopeful about the week so far. Routine is pretty much the same each day, although I enjoy the structure of it. Brings some kind of joy to the current circumstances of life.
I do feel incredibly blessed for the ones I know, the people I have gotten to know better over the years, and the ones I have yet to encounter on this journey.
So fortunate for my faith, my continuous sense of hope despite everything that I’ve experienced. And I’m grateful for my guardian angels above, the maternal grandmother I knew and loved very much. And also, the paternal grandmother that I never got to meet.
Some people I prefer not to mention, for other reasons, but I’ll leave it at that. In recent years, I’ve tried my best to forgive and bear no grudges. All it does is weigh your soul down, and it’s not worth the inner sorrow.
If I could tell my younger self one thing, it would be this: trust in God.
Stay safe and well, be kind, and God bless you all.
Feeling hopeful in times like this can be a challenge, you just never know what to expect from life. That’s the unpredictable aspect of our lives.
Of course, things are not always meant to be easy. I’m very aware of that.
Although, at times, you can’t help but wonder if the future is any brighter than the present we’re currently experiencing. From time to time, I find myself thinking about this further, then in the end, settling for a realistic outlook on it all.
There wasn’t a lot that I wanted to say tonight, maybe tomorrow will be a better day for that kind of thing. Stay safe and well, everyone.
Happy Valentine’s Day to all of you!
Quite an early write, I say as I write at 9:30pm on this surprisingly wonderful Sunday evening.
Apart from a few things I have to do still, I’ve completed the majority of what I wanted to achieve today, so that’s a good start.
Despite the slight overthinking that lingered from last night, I feel better, and I managed to get my package from the next door neighbor, it was an order from Candy Kittens, to be specific. I don’t really have a sweet tooth anymore, but when/if I do, those are good. Not too sweet/sour, just right.
The reward system my mobile network provider operates has some good moments, free treats are hard to refuse if the price of shipping isn’t too expensive, haha.
Anyway, I feel like I’m rambling and losing my train of thought. I can talk for hours, which some might find hard to believe as I do have my introverted tendencies.
Plus, the heating works and we’re finally out of the minus degree weather.
I don’t really have much to add, except those few feelings and thoughts of mine tonight. I do want to start writing more poetry and other length material, if anyone’s interested in that kind of stuff.
Not the best at it, but who really is? Even the most talented writers have their own imperfections, which is not a bad thing. No one is perfect.
Might talk more about this over the next week or so.
I do believe I might possibly release something this year, but we’ll see. There’s a lot going on in the world, which is quite evident for a lot of us.
Well, I’ll end this post at that. Hope you’re having a good day/night.
When it comes to fear, or the stresses of certain situations, I often try to analyze and accept what I’m feeling at that particular moment.
Sometimes, it’s not always so easy.
My mind is slightly complex, the same yet different to everyone else’s.
I used to feel shame at getting overwhelmed over some things, it felt like I was the only one at times. (bear in mind, I’ve come a long way and it’s not as bad as it used to be)
To be honest, talking about it shouldn’t have to feel awkward. Everyone has their own struggles and worries, some are just more manageable than others.
And that’s okay, something I often tell myself in notes, diary entries etc.
Life has been a strange and complicated journey, but I’m grateful and blessed in many ways, and I’ve got a good support system.
I’m writing this currently on my phone because I have no energy to use my laptop. Got a few things to do tomorrow, nothing special.
Just hoping that it’ll be okay and I’ll have my peace of mind restored in no time.
This brings us to the end of another blog entry.
I’ll be back tomorrow to share yet another day of thoughts. This is truly a sanctuary for my mind.
God bless you all, and stay safe.
I honestly feel like I’m going to fall asleep soon, but before I even think of doing so, another blog post needs to be uploaded. Focusing on my writing should be more of a priority than it is.
Finally got my heating/hot water issue sorted earlier today, and I’m really thankful because the weather is incredibly cold tonight.
We’ll see if sleep is on the horizon, or whether insomnia will keep me company until the late hours.
I always say I’ll rest early, then I do the exact opposite. On a positive note, I did get up at a reasonable time in the morning, so that was good yet exhausting by the end of the day.
Might have a browse through other blogs/websites to figure out my topics for the weekend onwards. Fingers crossed that my energy levels will be sufficient, as well as my concentration. I feel it’s been lacking recently.
Anyway, I’ll end it at that. Until tomorrow’s post.
Started the day off pretty well, ended it with a malfunctioning boiler.
It’s honestly the last thing you need when the weather is as cold as it is in the UK.
Need to get an early start tomorrow, slightly anxious about it all, but I’m sure I’ll get through this.
Laying in bed, feeling thankful for my warm duvet.
Hope you’re all staying safe and well tonight.
Despite a late start to the day, I completed what I had to do, and that was good enough for me. The cold weather doesn’t really help either, especially in the last week.
I might have been born in a cold place, but I’m not too fond of it.
For the first years of my life, I was born and raised in Scandinavia (Northern Sweden to be exact)
Anyway, I’ve always been proud of my background, and it’s an important part of my identity, who I am. As well as the experiences that have shaped me into the current version of myself.
I think I’m beginning to ramble now, ever so slightly.
Think it’s time to sleep soon, since I stayed awake a bit too late the previous night. Stay safe and stay warm this evening.