The idea that you need to have your life together at a certain time, a certain age, it can all be too much to think about sometimes. We grow up with these idealistic views of what success looks like, what a perfect world entails.
At the young age of 25, I feel increasingly worried about the future. Have I done enough at this age? Am I the odd one out?
It’s not as easy as people think, becoming an overnight success, finding the perfect job, having a perfect forever home. As a whole, society’s standards are difficult to live up to.
Taught to be ourselves, yet persecuted for our differences, our insecurities used as a weapon, people don’t listen to understand, there’s a lack of equality despite all these supposed regulations put in place, to protect us from discrimination, bullying, sexism, racism and many more.
I understand life is not a straightforward experience for the majority of people, but when does it all become too much? And don’t even get me started on the stigma surrounding mental health and the simple yet complex task of asking for help when necessary.
Fake it ’til you make it, or so I’ve been told about a dozen times or more.
Turning a blind eye to your problems is a temporary fix, ignoring them won’t solve anything. Facing them is equally challenging, but the comfort you feel once you do so is a sense of relief, a burden off your shoulders.
Life will get tougher before it gets better, I’m sure.
I just hope the future is much brighter than it has been in these recent weeks, months, even years. After all, you never know what to expect.
Quite an early write, I say as I write at 9:30pm on this surprisingly wonderful Sunday evening.
Apart from a few things I have to do still, I’ve completed the majority of what I wanted to achieve today, so that’s a good start.
Despite the slight overthinking that lingered from last night, I feel better, and I managed to get my package from the next door neighbor, it was an order from Candy Kittens, to be specific. I don’t really have a sweet tooth anymore, but when/if I do, those are good. Not too sweet/sour, just right.
The reward system my mobile network provider operates has some good moments, free treats are hard to refuse if the price of shipping isn’t too expensive, haha.
Anyway, I feel like I’m rambling and losing my train of thought. I can talk for hours, which some might find hard to believe as I do have my introverted tendencies.
Plus, the heating works and we’re finally out of the minus degree weather.
I don’t really have much to add, except those few feelings and thoughts of mine tonight. I do want to start writing more poetry and other length material, if anyone’s interested in that kind of stuff.
Not the best at it, but who really is? Even the most talented writers have their own imperfections, which is not a bad thing. No one is perfect.
Might talk more about this over the next week or so.
I do believe I might possibly release something this year, but we’ll see. There’s a lot going on in the world, which is quite evident for a lot of us.
Well, I’ll end this post at that. Hope you’re having a good day/night.
As much as I am grateful for life as it is today, I can’t help but wonder about what could have been in another outcome of events. I know, it’s kind of ridiculous at this point.
But sometimes, your mind just wants to know.
When you have to discuss certain parts of your life, I suppose the curious side of you emerges.
I’ve learned a lot about my past over the last few years or so. Suppressing your feelings about it is a temporary solution. Such a complex journey, yet I do believe that I have found closure as a result.
We can’t change our pasts, unfortunately. As tough as that is for someone like me in moments like this, all I can do is acknowledge it, process it to the best of my ability and accept it.
That’s easier said than done, ultimately.
As I get older, I do hope that things start to make a little more sense.
Well, maybe I’ll write a book about it, or perhaps a novel of some kind. That’s something I hope to do in my later years. We’ll see if it happens.
Stay safe, and I hope you all have a wonderful evening.
I was hoping to write this earlier in the day, but had quite a lot to do and that was tiring. As I write this, I can hear the sound of rain on my bedroom window tonight and it definitely has a calming effect on me.
Hopefully I fall asleep shortly, after posting this and completing a few things first. My annual WordPress subscription got renewed today, which means I don’t have to worry about that for another year now. I just have to renew the domain name in April.
As much as I don’t like the price of the subscription, the premium themes are so worth it. The simplicity of my current theme is wonderful, to say the least.
Minor changes might be made soon, but nothing too outrageous.
Tomorrow is going to be a little busy, but it should be fine, as long as I stay on target with what I need to get done. I often try and make lists the night before, it’s very motivating when you need some positive encouragement.
Anyway, before I ramble too much, I’ll leave it at that until the end of tomorrow.
Stay safe, take care of you and others and be kind.
Found it a little difficult knowing what to write, but I want to keep this streak of writing alive for the time being. After all, this is a personal blog.
I’ve been meaning to start work on my next book of poetry, although it’s still a work in progress. A lot is going on, but I’m feeling positive so far.
Focusing on my health is a priority at the moment, as well as other things alongside that. I am determined to stick to my resolutions this year, in a healthy and gradual way. I try not to call it ‘dieting’ as it can trigger unhealthy eating habits.
Being the impatient young woman I am, it can feel like this whole process is taking a long time, yet I do understand that it’s not an overnight change.
Anyway, I hope you’re all having a wonderful weekend.
Halfway through the week and it’s mad how fast time seems to pass by.
Looking forward to a good night’s sleep, after I get some minor study done. It’s been quite a bittersweet day, but all you can do is just keep certain people in your thoughts and hope they’re doing well.
I could go into further detail, but let’s keep it vague and not to mention, private. On a positive note, a sibling of mine has a birthday tomorrow so that’s something to quietly celebrate at home.
January went by quick, am I right? Lockdown and all the restrictions make most days seem identical, but all in all, as long as you’re staying safe and keeping yourselves protected, that’s the main thing at the moment.
Weather seems to be less cold today, which is nice. It’s dark outside by the time it’s 5pm, sometimes earlier than that. Hopefully, we get a bit of sunshine soon.
I’ll try and write tomorrow’s post a bit earlier in the day, if possible.
As always, stay safe and take care of yourself and others.
Felt more calm recently and I appreciate that a lot, to be honest.
I don’t necessarily handle stress all too well, and it shows, despite how much I try and hide it behind a smile or laugh. These days, the amount of gratitude I have in my heart for each day now is crazy. But, of course, in a good way.
Waking up each day, with clarity and peace of mind, that’s something to feel good about. Positivity despite the chaos life might bring, and the obstacles we have to overcome to see the beacon of hope.
Life is not meant to be easy, I know that. I suppose, it’s human of me to sometimes wish it was.
All in all, there’s a lot of blessings to be thankful for, and even difficult moments, the ones that made me a stronger, wiser, better version of me.