poetry

Back At It: Hiatus Over

Hello again, what a long time it has been since my last upload on the blog.

I wasn’t planning to have a hiatus of this length, but it is what it is and I am back with a vengeance.

Truthfully, I have struggled with writer’s block a lot for many months, even years at this point.

Life has been all over the place, so have my emotions. Not being able to convey or express how I’ve been feeling has affected me quite heavily.

I put a lot of pressure on myself in all aspect of life, whether it is my appearance or what my poems are about. The hunger for perfection is insatiable, to put it bluntly.

Creativity has always had a big place in my mind, heart and soul. So to feel like nothing I did was good enough was very taxing on my mental health and it still is, sometimes.

The goal is to take baby steps, and start off small and build my way back up the ladder once more. It might not always be consistent or on point, but it will be authentic to me and my journey of it all.

Just wanted to say a big thank you to anyone who has followed or just discovered my blog on here. Any engagement I receive is wholeheartedly appreciated. It truly means the world and encourages me to continue, even if I’m not feeling my best.

What are my plans for the months ahead?

As of now, I hope to update the blog at least once a week, if not more. It all depends on life’s schedule and God’s plan for me on this path.

I count my blessings every day that I have good health, a wonderful support system and an overall decent life.

That’s not to say that there won’t be challenges along the way, but I will take that on if the occasion arises.

For the time being, I want to remain present and in tune with the universe so a hiatus like the previous one is out of the question.

Balance is key, which an impatient person like me needs to be reminded of on a daily basis.

It is my hope that I can commence further work on my third poetry collection, and make progress with that as it has been four years since A Cryptic Human Entity.

Well, as of tomorrow it will be the 4th anniversary of that second poetry book and I still cannot fathom it.

The theme for the next book is still up for debate. I feel like a lot has changed and evolved since my initial concept for it, that I might do something completely different.

I have a lot that I want to share and heal from on an emotional level, timing is key too.

There’s a chance I might do a mini version of the next collection, and a full, extended edition of the poetry book next year. So excited to finally start this project in a proper way.

Until then, stay tuned for more updates as I go along. After all, we only have the life God gave us, we need to make every second count.

And also, happy belated 7th anniversary to my pride and joy, this little blog of mine, DAYDREAM MADNESS.

It’s also my birthday in 12 days, how exciting! But anyway, hope you all have an amazing rest of your weekend and I’ll speak to you soon.

Happy Sunday and God bless you all!

Yours truly,

Mila. Xo

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Poem: paper-thin apologies

This is a poem I wrote tonight. I wasn’t planning to, neither did I think I was going to write one at all. But I did, and I wanted to post it on the blog. Not the best thing I’ve written, yet not the worst either. Enjoy.

Submerged with all these fears

They look through her like glass

Eyes stained with cruelty and spite

You find your way through the cracks

Of her broken mind

Like the river of tears

That fills her eyes

And runs down her face

Mila. Xo

Three Years: Poetry Book Anniversary

This will be a slightly different entry on the blog, which I’m slightly nervous about. I rarely do this, if ever, but I’ll be sharing the links to both of my little poetry collections at the end of this post, to celebrate the third anniversary of my second writing project, A Cryptic Human Entity.

It’s been a journey, a lot has been going on since then, not necessarily of the creative sense, although, I look forward to the next chapter of my writing’s progression/era.

A Cryptic Human Entity in particular, that collection means a lot to me. It was the first time I’d felt brave enough to show a lot of poems that were darker, many of which I always wanted to make public in some way.

When that project was being created, I was still coming to terms with the passing of my grandmother almost two years prior, there were a lot of suppressed emotions and feelings. I definitely wanted to get out of my comfort zone, no matter how uncomfortable it made me feel.

It was an emotional experience, but so liberating at the same time.

Hard to believe it’s been three years already. I still remember how happy I felt receiving my copies of the finished product in the mail. I’ll never forget that moment.

Said this many times before, but I do understand that I’m not the best at writing, yet I will say that I write for me, first and foremost. If anyone likes it at all, it’ll always be so appreciated.

I’ve spent too long seeking approval from others, and the older I get, the more I am finding confidence and acceptance within myself. I am a work in progress, and so are my thoughts, feelings, emotions and poetry/stories.

As mentioned at the beginning of this post, I’ll leave the links to A Cryptic Human Entity & Lay Your Hands Bare down below, feel free to take a look (or not) and thank you in advance.

https://www.blurb.co.uk/b/8737840-a-cryptic-human-entity
https://www.blurb.co.uk/b/8193531-lay-your-hands-bare

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Happy Sunday!

Mila. Xo

A Little Poem: Peace Of Mind

All these emotions, running through your mind

When all you want is peace

For healing to set your mind free

And love to bring light

All these thoughts, of which you’ve been consumed

When all you wanted was to feel safe

For time to heal your heart

And the sun to shine on you

On The List: Poetry And Sleep

Either I’m getting old or I just really want to sleep early for once. Although, I might end up listening to a podcast episode or two. That and chilled out music can make any evening perfect.

I’ve been exploring book cover ideas for poetry book #3 and I truly believe I have a good idea of what it should look like, so that’s always an interesting development.

Found myself struggling to write much in the last few days, so writing on the blog can help me get out of that creative block, if that makes sense.

Not always, might I add. Having patience can be tough, I’ll get there eventually. It feels like time is passing by so quickly though, it’s scary.

Also, my birthday is in the next few months, like how?

I have no idea if I’ll be able to do anything, might just relax at home on the day. Hard to believe how close I am to the end of my twenties.

As much as getting older is a great thing and should be embraced more, it is slightly bittersweet because we know life doesn’t last forever. Which is why we should appreciate each day, regardless of the struggles we have faced or continue to face.

Mila. Xo

Space To Feel: Sunday Gratitude

I’ve said this many times, but Sunday is the best day of the week.

A day to unwind, complete a few household chores and take a moment to relax. Been sleeping a lot too, the extra rest was so necessary.

Hoping to start writing more from tomorrow onwards, I need to get into a consistent schedule. Working on this third poetry book is going to take some time, a journey that I am looking forward to.

This was on my mind for the longest time, honestly.

Had too many creative hiatuses in the past, and there was a long time where I didn’t write much at all, my inspiration just wasn’t there anymore.

It’s tough when you truly have a lot of love for writing and creativity as an outlet. I honestly can’t believe I’ve had this blog for almost 6 years, that is so mad.

As someone who made a lot of old blogs and didn’t update them for long, wrote on different websites anonymously and was relatively low profile until I started publishing poetry independently in 2017, the fact I stayed with this one is something I’m proud of.

DAYDREAM MADNESS is my pride and joy and I look forward to seeing where this will lead in the future. Anything can happen, the sky is not the limit.

Mila. Xo


Friday Feelings


Creative blocks are no fun, and I’ve had a lot of them in recent years and months. There’s many ideas, concepts yet no clear vision as to what to create or take from any of mine currently.

I’ll try and spend a little time having a look around, taking the occasional moment to reassure myself that it will all come to mind when the timing is right.

Patience doesn’t always put my thoughts at rest, if anything, frustration multiplies with each attempt. It’s all a work in progress, I’m fully aware.

Daily devotionals are definitely one way that I feel better, after reading one of those each day, same with exercise, some meditation and sometimes, even a bit of singing to brighten the atmosphere.

Also, laughter. I’ve started listening to a lot of podcasts recently, comedy and relatable discussions in particular. Many good ones out there, I must admit.

I don’t think there’s anything else I’d like to add this evening, but perhaps tomorrow I might find a new subject to discuss, whether it’s daily thoughts, a poem I’d like to upload or anything else that I feel would be lovely to share.

Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend.

Mila. Xo

Picking Up The Pieces


Despite previous hesitation, I’ve decided to follow my instinct and go with my initial vision for poetry book number three. The book title was chosen all the way back in 2019, if I can remember correctly.

At first, I was planning to change the entire concept, but after today’s strange events and the analysis it triggered, it felt right, more than ever, to bring the first vision of this book to life.

I wanted this next project to be centered around healing, the positive changes that arise during a time of self-restoration and the importance of stepping away from unhealthy situations, people, your own personal insecurities and all of the other issues that we face as individuals.

However, in escaping my own comfort zone and talking about the more heavier, less idealistic scenarios and understanding the emotions that come along with it all, I now can feel a sense of peace in the fact that talking about it is part of my healing process and my way of moving forward.

I’m excited to go on this journey again, it’s been a while.

Knowing where to start is a different story, do I start writing first or constructing a book cover? Only time will tell.

Nonetheless, it feels like the right moment in time to begin, and I can’t wait to see what the final outcome of this will look like in the near future.


Mila. Xo