There’s a few things I changed my mind on. The first is, the publication date/year of my book.
At first, it felt perfect to have it ready before Christmas, but then, after enough consideration, I decided to ultimately not rush anything and take my time with it all. It’s my most personal project to date, emotively.
So why the need to finish it sooner? I suppose the lack of patience. I mean, there are thousands of pieces written, but this book will be all new material, so that’s going to be exciting.
To compile a set of newly felt and expressed thoughts and emotions, it’s going to be a lot nicer to showcase, rather than dwelling on the previous ghosts in my heart, although, there’s always a special place in my heart for them, always will be.
Certain poetic favorites of mine might still make an appearance, but there’s a chance I’ll shorten them or simply create a new version etc. Not because I don’t like them, but because, when I wrote them, I guess I was quite sad, or mad, perhaps a little too attached to the idea of the person. But that’s not always a bad thing, to be honest. Sometimes we all need an outlet of some sort.
It’s all about letting yourself be open about taboo subjects, intense emotions, cryptic and flawed intentions. Bought myself a couple of new journals to write poetry and other stuff in. Feels like I’m going back to basics in terms of writing. Where not every piece was typed up on a computer. You could simply note down what it was that made you feel alive, or what made you feel sad. A shoulder to cry on, when opening up to a person simply wasn’t an option.
Writing is such an important part of my life now. Couldn’t really see myself without this blog, or any of the other writing sites I have found myself enjoying over the years. I kind of miss anonymously writing about certain topics, but it’s nice to feel comfortable for the first time in my life. I’m sure most people can understand that aspect of this. Well, I hope.
Self-expression is sometimes more than just a hobby. For me, it’s a chance to show people what I am capable of creating, and to also challenge myself. To think outside the box, take chances, take a few risks now and then. What might seem terrible to you could be loved by the next person. It’s all about not letting critics and your own self-critical thoughts take over. Embrace your flaws, know that you can’t produce perfection, but you can keep going until you feel satisfied. Practice and patience are key. As well as self-encouragement, positive thinking. Motivation and inspiration is great for keeping you on track too.
Don’t get lost in the madness of self-loathing. Take care of yourself. Nurture your soul/art. When there’s heartache, write it out. Do you feel lonely? Pick up a pen and let your heart speak. If someone makes your day, or makes you feel happy, write it down, share it with a friend. After all, we only have one life. Why not live in the moment?