Still hasn’t sunk in that it’s March already, time slips away the more I realize it.
Truth be told, this last few months have been a challenge, there’s not enough words to describe life at the moment, if there is any, I haven’t gotten that far into dear 2016 yet.
As much as I try and maintain positivity, it feels like the negative thoughts always get to me and when I least want them to. If I’m honest, my depression is creeping back into my life and there’s no barrier to prevent how I am feeling, it’s not something that can be controlled or even managed (Pills are not going to help me long-term, so I wouldn’t even try). There are days I feel okay for the sake of you know, being okay and then, there are days where I want to crawl under a rock and remain there for all eternity. Basically.
I appreciate the love and support of my friends, but depression does not care about who loves you or who doesn’t. I’ve only had a few people in my life who understood what I was going through, mostly because they went through it too and I was there for them entirely.
Depression is such a taboo subject, let alone something I am comfortable with discussing because it feels like I am seeking attention, but I’m not and I just want to be able to talk about my struggles instead of having to bottle my emotions up and hide them away.
It’s not healthy to become so numb and so in denial, that you’ve basically turned into a emotionless robot who at times, will destruct because of the emotional pressure upon you.
Learning to accept that I’m depressed and perhaps a whole lot of other things, it takes bravery to tell others and not feel like I am going to be judged and discriminated against.
Because of the stigma and the stereotypes of society, so many are suffering inside because they are too afraid to speak up and ask for help. It’s 2016 and people are still not able to discuss their problems and their issues, all because people do not understand it.
It doesn’t take much to be compassionate towards other people who are struggling, so why make it all so complicated? I wish there was more light on these type of topics because it’s so important as human beings to understand that depression is not something to be ashamed of.
Listen. Don’t make them feel bad for the pain they’re keeping locked inside.