Escapism In Expression

Been distracting myself all day with chores and exercise, it’s the only thing calming my nerves about tomorrow’s meeting/appointment etc. Not only that, I have an exam on Friday, so I’m praying that my mind doesn’t go blank on the day.

In other news, I do look forward to being out and about in the city, long walks can be very therapeutic. I must admit, being out more is strange, considering how most people have been indoors a lot of the time.

A strange time in life, definitely. What also is hard to believe is that it’s July soon. My perception of time has changed a lot in recent months.

Kind of tired but I want to bleach my roots. Anyway, there’s a chance I might fall asleep shortly. Typical Monday, it feels like. Productivity has been great though.

Hope you all have a great rest of your day!

Mila. Xo

Busy Friday Ahead

Almost midnight here, tomorrow is Friday and I have a lot to get done on that day.

My mind is racing, too many thoughts at once. Not necessarily a bad thing, I suppose I’m a perfectionist when it comes to planning.

There’s a chance I might fall asleep. Luckily, I managed to write a list of what I need to get done tomorrow. Saturday is going to be fun.

Usually I look forward to the weekend, but when I have important things to do, it makes me kind of stressed at times.

Nonetheless, it’s going to be eventful. Life does not have one dull moment, I can tell you that much.

Mila. Xo

Structured Planning

Leaving blog updates to the last minute has become a common theme on here, and not intentionally. Over the next couple of days, I’ll be trying to schedule some posts in advance. I’ve got some stuff I need to plan, family members to see soon and I can’t wait for that.

There’s a lot to be grateful for, honestly. Sunshine has finally calmed down, which is a relief. Got a lot to do tomorrow, there’s a whole list of things.

I’m both tired and full of energy, it’s strange. Anyway, I should leave it at that before the clock strikes midnight. Have a great evening!

Mila. Xo

Stuck For Words

Writing used to be easier than this, the amount of times I’ve had writer’s block in the last few years is not great.

It went from constant inspiration at my fingertips, to barely being able to express myself in words at all.

Self-expression is an escape from the stresses of life, so is journaling, which I should do more of.

Being your own worst critic can be a blessing or a curse, maybe a little bit of both? A reason to do better, but at the same time, too much expectation leads to disappointment.

Hoping for more inspiration in the long run. We’ll see how the week goes.

Happy Monday 🙂

Mila. Xo

Too Much Sunshine

As much as I have missed a bit of sun and fine weather, the current heatwave during the daytime can be a lot. Found it quite difficult to sleep as well, typical me.

Hopefully, it cools down a bit so I can get my energy levels in order, because truthfully, I’ve been more tired than anything else in recent days.

Looking forward to the weekend too, can’t wait. Not been writing much because it’s so warm, although once the weather settles into more manageable temperatures, I’ll perhaps feel inspired once more.

Hope you all have a wonderful evening, take care!

Mila. Xo

Things To Look Forward To

I almost forgot to write today, but thankfully I managed to remind myself in time.

A semi-productive day, with a few tasks to be accomplished yet. Got a lot of revision to do in the next few weeks, train tickets to book and much more.

Despite how unpredictable life has been for the longest time, I’m trying to remain on the optimistic side of things, as difficult as that may be at times.

The one thing I am looking forward to the most, is seeing family members for the first time in almost 18 months.

What I also look forward to is completing more work on this next poetry book of mine. Maybe I’ll complete it this year, or perhaps in the next year or so, we’ll see.

As always, I hope you all have a great day.

Mila. Xo

Monday Thoughts

How some days go by so quickly and others do not, I don’t know.

And how is it June 1st tomorrow?!

Can’t believe the weekend is already over too. I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be busy, so perhaps going to bed soon is a good idea.

Going to be writing more over the next few weeks, I hope. As always, take care and have a great evening.

Mila. Xo

Looking Forward

Starting work on this new project has proven tough, yet I know that timing is key, and so is patience with yourself.

Found myself writing down titles, it’s a start, but not the kind of progress I was hoping for. You just have to take a deep breath, remind yourself that it will happen at the right time.

Close to falling asleep, so I’ll probably leave it at that and write more tomorrow. Have a wonderful evening (or day, depending on your location)

Mila. Xo

Three Years: Poetry Book Anniversary

This will be a slightly different entry on the blog, which I’m slightly nervous about. I rarely do this, if ever, but I’ll be sharing the links to both of my little poetry collections at the end of this post, to celebrate the third anniversary of my second writing project, A Cryptic Human Entity.

It’s been a journey, a lot has been going on since then, not necessarily of the creative sense, although, I look forward to the next chapter of my writing’s progression/era.

A Cryptic Human Entity in particular, that collection means a lot to me. It was the first time I’d felt brave enough to show a lot of poems that were darker, many of which I always wanted to make public in some way.

When that project was being created, I was still coming to terms with the passing of my grandmother almost two years prior, there were a lot of suppressed emotions and feelings. I definitely wanted to get out of my comfort zone, no matter how uncomfortable it made me feel.

It was an emotional experience, but so liberating at the same time.

Hard to believe it’s been three years already. I still remember how happy I felt receiving my copies of the finished product in the mail. I’ll never forget that moment.

Said this many times before, but I do understand that I’m not the best at writing, yet I will say that I write for me, first and foremost. If anyone likes it at all, it’ll always be so appreciated.

I’ve spent too long seeking approval from others, and the older I get, the more I am finding confidence and acceptance within myself. I am a work in progress, and so are my thoughts, feelings, emotions and poetry/stories.

As mentioned at the beginning of this post, I’ll leave the links to A Cryptic Human Entity & Lay Your Hands Bare down below, feel free to take a look (or not) and thank you in advance.

https://www.blurb.co.uk/b/8737840-a-cryptic-human-entity
https://www.blurb.co.uk/b/8193531-lay-your-hands-bare

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Happy Sunday!

Mila. Xo

Nostalgia Hurts

I wasn’t sure if I felt like writing at all today, but I knew I’d feel better if I did. Tried my best to remain busy and productive, which I think I was successful with.

As the title states quite clearly: Nostalgia hurts.

Not always the case, might I add. But for me…it weighed heavy on my shoulders like a ton of bricks today, for a lot of reasons. There’s been a lot of personal development in terms of how I deal with this as it happens.

So, that’s at least one positive way to look at a complicated situation.

That being said, I’ve still felt struck by thoughts going a thousand miles per hour. If anything, it’s a lesson of life. Knowing how to explain this feeling in a structured manner proved difficult regardless.

Right now, I just want to focus on my writing, and enjoy the weekend to the best of my ability. Part of me wants to stay up late, the responsible part of me wants to rest and be up early in the morning.

Always a clash between the two, but I’ll leave it up to my intuition and see where it takes me. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

Mila. Xo