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In less than half an hour, I’ll be turning 26. One of those awkward, in-between milestone numbers.
As much as I don’t make too big of a deal of mine, it is a little fun at times, something to look forward to.
25 has been good, and I’m sure 26 will be just as unpredictable and full of surprises.
Have a wonderful evening, God bless.
This will probably be a short blog entry for the time being, but I’m hoping to get an early start tomorrow morning and write more in depth, as well as get a lot of other things done too.
Can’t believe my birthday is in 16 days, not that I’m counting down, necessarily. Although, it is very strange at times. You’re only as young as you are in this moment, or so I’ve heard over the years.
It would be interesting to know what life would look like in the future, the not knowing part of it all does bother me, until I tend to ask myself this question: Do I really want to know my future?
Yes, and no.
I’m sure a lot of people are possibly curious about this type of thing, right?
It’s natural to think about it as you get older and wiser, life is a journey, after all. And life’s set of scenarios lead us down our own customized path.
Perhaps, it’s not up to us. I keep an open mind and heart when it comes to that, because all I want is peace of mind, above anything else, if I’m being completely blunt.
But to end this post on a positive note, I have learned so much in the last couple of years, and I just hope to keep learning, growing, blossoming into the person I was destined to be at the right time.
Have a great Tuesday and stay well!
Do you ever hear or see something that leaves you in a deep train of thought for the rest of the evening? That’s so me tonight.
I think I’ve managed to navigate my emotions to a happier place, for the time being. How long that will last, who knows, but I appreciate it and try to embrace it.
Emotions can be so complex and hard to navigate, process and understand in a logical way. Truth be told, that has been me many times.
As I’m getting older, the appreciation for my strength during the darkest of times has only increased. It reminds me that life is a journey, and healing of any kind takes a lot of patience.
Wasn’t planning to talk about this, but I felt compelled to.
All I can say is: take your time, it’ll get better.
That’s all for today, stay safe.
Thinking too much can be complicated, especially when all you want is peace of mind.
Despite the wisdom and security of self, that comes with age, there’s still moments of insecurity that linger in the background.
Many thoughts, mainly at night. They come and go, some are less ideal than others.
Going to try and get some revision done before my math exam next week, I’m genuinely nervous, but we’ll see how it goes. All you can do is try your best.
Anyway, I’ll probably go to sleep soon. Happy Saturday.
Over the years, a lot has changed and evolved. But at the same time, it is not entirely different.
Maturity and wisdom has definitely helped shape my current mindset, as well as providing me with the necessary tools to navigate my path, help me understand and come to terms with things that I didn’t have the words for before, or the feelings and emotions that have found their way through this journey of life.
Looking back, being kind to myself was the last thing on the agenda, if at all important. Insecurities were heavily on my mind, they still are at times. Learning how to combat those hasn’t been easy.
Even now, despite being more at peace with myself, there are days where I think too much, or I don’t feel any particular way or it’s harder to articulate, and that’s okay.
So, in the years since I’ve focused on my wellbeing a lot more, and had time to reflect, what have I grown to love or embrace about life or myself?
This is an interesting question indeed.
In fact, there’s quite a substantial list. For example, I love having my hair up, which is a small detail to some, but having a rounder face can make it complicated.
Also, another thing I’ve grown to love is short hair, or perhaps shoulder-length hair in particular. Growing up, I truly think I used my hair to hide my face and how round I thought it was. Once, I had a very evident bleach fail, where a lot of it broke off, so I cut off a lot of hair at the sides and dyed it electric blue. At the time, I didn’t appreciate it as much as I should have.
Would I dye my hair blue again? Absolutely.
Another thing I love now, is wearing no make-up. If my face has problems, I try and help/ease them with skincare, following a routine has done wonders, although I am more flexible with that these days.
Getting older has definitely helped me embrace my flaws, and to be grateful for my health and so much more. This will always be a journey, and I just want to be the best version of myself.
This post is longer than I usually write, but in my opinion, that means I’m feeling inspired and motivated, so I’ll take it.
Have a great weekend, everyone!
The beauty of small things that bring you a little bit of joy, and how precious it is.
It makes you appreciate your life, your hobbies, the sun in the sky and each day of your existence.
Not every day is easy, not every day is hard. Balance is key, for the most part. Over time, strength develops.
I wanted to dedicate this post to my loved ones, because today’s events have really highlighted the importance of gratitude, appreciating the people we know, the memories we have, the time we spend on this Earth.
So incredibly grateful for my faith too, it really keeps me humble, and it brings comfort to my heart in times of anxiety and stress. Bear in mind, this is my own personal experience with religion, and of course, every person’s life experiences are different, we have our individual paths, journeys, ways of coping and all else.
Felt compelled to get my emotions out tonight, it’s been a long day and heavily emotive. I have a lot to say, not everything leaves the draft section of my mind or the notes on my phone, but sharing my thoughts in moments like these, it makes me feel better.
Over the years, I definitely have tried to become a better version of myself, to learn and grow from the past. Each day is different, there’s good days and bad days, as well as all of those in-between.
Learning how to manage and balance all of this is tricky sometimes, that’s the complexity of being human. So, to conclude this post, feel free to share your own feelings and thoughts, let me know what’s going on in your life and what you’re grateful for. God bless you all.
Either I’m getting old or I just really want to sleep early for once. Although, I might end up listening to a podcast episode or two. That and chilled out music can make any evening perfect.
I’ve been exploring book cover ideas for poetry book #3 and I truly believe I have a good idea of what it should look like, so that’s always an interesting development.
Found myself struggling to write much in the last few days, so writing on the blog can help me get out of that creative block, if that makes sense.
Not always, might I add. Having patience can be tough, I’ll get there eventually. It feels like time is passing by so quickly though, it’s scary.
Also, my birthday is in the next few months, like how?
I have no idea if I’ll be able to do anything, might just relax at home on the day. Hard to believe how close I am to the end of my twenties.
As much as getting older is a great thing and should be embraced more, it is slightly bittersweet because we know life doesn’t last forever. Which is why we should appreciate each day, regardless of the struggles we have faced or continue to face.
Looked at old notes earlier, that I previously wrote and saved to my phone and it’s kind of bittersweet. It’s not very often that I do that, mainly because I end up missing certain people.
Nostalgia is tough sometimes, some memories leave a lasting impression on your mind. Whether that’s good or bad, I don’t know.
Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all. That’s something I was told a while back, and it’s very true, at least for me.
Although, I do wish I had been slightly more mature than I was years ago, maybe it would have changed how things turned out. The “what if” still haunts me to this day.
Earlier tonight, I found myself wanting to reach out to someone in particular, who I haven’t spoken to in about three years, and a part of me has always wanted that person back in my life.
They were one of my closest friends, we had a complicated connection from the start, but I’ve always been curious about how things would be now, if we had remained close, especially since we’re both older and wiser.
Perhaps, in the near future, we’ll be able to reconnect.
Time definitely heals a lot, but not everything, as much as we would like for that to be reality. I feel like I’m starting to lose my train of thought now, so maybe I should leave it at this for the moment.
Need to get some sleep, but I’ll be back with another post tomorrow afternoon or late evening. Tomorrow is Friday, so glad.
Have a wonderful rest of your Thursday.