Anxious Mind

That feeling when you have things to do tomorrow, but your racing mind has other plans. Honestly, this anxiety has been weighing heavy on me.

All I want right now is some clarity, peace of mind and to know some people are okay.

Sundays are usually the best part of the week, but it’s been very bittersweet.

Faith definitely has kept me grounded in times where I’ve struggled the most.

Grateful for the Lord, my family, my friends and more. Have gratitude for all things in life.

Mila. Xo

Hopeful Thinking

Thoughts all over the place, especially in the last week.

Despite the stresses of it all, I’m still trying to be hopeful. Proves difficult when you’re anxious about certain things, I must admit.

Was thinking to write more this weekend, but it doesn’t necessarily feel right.

Any kind of outlet in the written sense is good enough, for the time being.

I’ll be back tomorrow, but I truly hope everyone has a good evening, stay safe and take care.

Mila. Xo

Distractions

It can be difficult to think when you’re worried. All you want is that peace of mind. I wasn’t sure if I was going to update the blog or not, but it’s always been a distraction from the stresses of life.

Yes, it is incredibly late, yet again. Going to try and sleep soon, only because I’ve got somewhere to attend tomorrow afternoon, a few phone calls to make etc.

Over this next weekend, I want to focus on my writing, if that’s possible.

We’ll see how it all goes, hoping you all have a great night.

Mila. Xo

Scared To Fail

We all have our fears, and those moments of being scared to fail. Whether it’s work related, academically or any other challenge we face as life progresses on.

Truth be told, people achieve things at different stages of life, and that’s okay. We don’t all have it figured out at 18, 25, or even in our 30’s.

In the society we currently find ourselves a part of, we’ve been conditioned to believe that success is measured in the superficial, idealistic and materialistic.

Yes, some might be more knowledgeable, confident and perhaps better equipped than others. But it doesn’t mean that other people’s contribution as a whole is not as important.

The idea that we’re only worthy of a decent life if we work more hours than our mind can handle, and we look a certain way, act a certain way. Keeping up appearances might be sustainable in the short-term, but the facade of it all will come crashing down, eventually.

Don’t even get me started on how much I can’t stand the hypocrisy of equality and the lack of it in society. We have a lot of laws in place about treating people fairly, but so much of it is just empty words at this point.

Nothing is ever what it appears to be, I know that much.

Different rules apply for different people, which has been in plain sight for many years. We have a long way to go until we achieve any kind of fairness in the world. There’s a lot to work on, and only time will tell how that goes.

When some people say “reality is stranger than fiction”, it’s safe to say, you’re right. If the world needs more of anything, I can think of quite a few things.

The world needs more compassion, fairness, love, empathy, kindness.

I just hope humanity changes for the better.

Mila. Xo

Ahead Of Time

One last minute entry on the blog before I completely forget to update it.

Sat here on my bed, ticking things off my list. I don’t know why, but my mind goes into overdrive when I know there’s certain places to go, people to see.

This next week is going to be a lot, although I’m sure things will get easier in time.

Yet another weekend too, how fun. Let’s hope this one doesn’t end as soon as it starts.

Happy Friday!

Mila. Xo

Final Week Of Being 25

What began as a great start to this became a slight nightmare.

I personally just want a good night’s sleep so I can feel better. And to think I’m a year older in a week, not very fun to think about.

Too much of a good thing can make it seem inevitable that an unpleasant situation is just a few steps away.

But, have a wonderful evening and I’ll try and be more upbeat tomorrow. Sleep well!

Mila. Xo

Messy Emotions

Hard to believe it’s Friday tomorrow, yet again.

The week just seems to be disappear within the blink of an eye and it’s strange. I do believe the lockdowns have made a difference in how we perceive time too.

Some days go slow, some days seem to end as soon as they happen.

Been quite emotional tonight, messy emotions indeed.

I’ve had a lot of thoughts going through my head, those moments of thinking too much can be a lot for anyone. All you can do is try your best with how you feel.

Having days where you feel less than alright is okay. For the most part, it’s the “in the moment” intensity of those emotions that aren’t fun.

It’s not often I want to go to bed early, but perhaps the extra rest will make me feel better in the morning. Until tomorrow’s post, fellow writers and blog readers. Take care.

Mila. Xo

Complexity Of Being Human

I wanted to dedicate this post to my loved ones, because today’s events have really highlighted the importance of gratitude, appreciating the people we know, the memories we have, the time we spend on this Earth.

So incredibly grateful for my faith too, it really keeps me humble, and it brings comfort to my heart in times of anxiety and stress. Bear in mind, this is my own personal experience with religion, and of course, every person’s life experiences are different, we have our individual paths, journeys, ways of coping and all else.

Felt compelled to get my emotions out tonight, it’s been a long day and heavily emotive. I have a lot to say, not everything leaves the draft section of my mind or the notes on my phone, but sharing my thoughts in moments like these, it makes me feel better.

Over the years, I definitely have tried to become a better version of myself, to learn and grow from the past. Each day is different, there’s good days and bad days, as well as all of those in-between.

Learning how to manage and balance all of this is tricky sometimes, that’s the complexity of being human. So, to conclude this post, feel free to share your own feelings and thoughts, let me know what’s going on in your life and what you’re grateful for. God bless you all.

Mila. Xo

March Is Almost Here (Again)

Another month is ending, how strange is that?

Lockdown is seemingly coming to an end soon, or so I hope, with the uncertainty that has been surrounding us all regarding this.

I’m personally kind of stressed right now, got a lot of stuff to do and sort out on Monday so I’m hoping that all goes well. My mind tends to overthink certain times, which can happen. Just hoping that these feelings will be put to rest once I accomplish what I set my mind to.

Life can be tricky sometimes, but I’m trying to take one day at a time, because thinking too far ahead can be a little too much.

Anyway, I’ll probably go to sleep after this, the peaceful day of Sunday is upon us until that Monday feeling comes again. And it’s March 1st on that day too, double trouble.

Take care of yourself, stay safe, be kind and God bless.


Mila. Xo

Stressful Times


Going to keep this quite short, feeling quite tired and stressed, to be honest with you.

I hope tomorrow will be good, got a lot of stuff to sort out, it can be quite daunting for me. Daily prayers help, too.

Well, that’s all from me, I’ll try and sleep in a while. Take care.

Mila. Xo