I Passed My Course!

This post is going to be more upbeat and positive than the last few (or perhaps I should say ten?)

Yes, still got a lot of things on my mind currently which has been very challenging and awful for my mental health, but I’m still trying to get through life with gratitude and strength.

So, that being said: I passed my course!

Not entirely surprised, I did have a good feeling about taking the exam, so that was nice.

Excuse the lateness of my recent posts on the blog. A lot is on my mind, so bear with me.

Have a great evening, everyone.

Mila. Xo

Hello Again, May

Happy 1st of May, everyone.

Starting a new month on the weekend is always fun, yet strange in the way that you almost lose track of which day it is.

Nonetheless, I’m trying to appreciate the time I have to destress and get stuff done. Luckily, there’s not much to do, a very positive thing if I must say say so myself.

Plus, it’s a Bank Holiday weekend, so three days instead of two.

This is one of those months where I’m kind of stuck in the middle, emotionally. Many great things to be grateful for, although I miss my late grandmother terribly during this time.

For that reason, the 19th hurts to think about. And my birthday is a week and a day later, so celebrating that feels awkward, but I know my grandmother is in a better place, and she lived a long and unique life, one of the most inspiring women I have ever known to exist, in my eyes.

Grief is hard to navigate, even now, almost five years on.

Our guardian angels are protecting us from above, I know that much by now. And so is the Lord, he works in mysterious ways to guide us and strengthen us.

Have a wonderful Saturday.

Mila. Xo

All Or None

I have a complicated relationship with many things in life, which has been a struggle and a half, sometimes. The mind is a strange part of you.

To say emotions are complex is an understatement, understanding them can take a lifetime. In my own experience, it’s very confusing and there’s mixed signals all over.

As you navigate through life, expectations and comparisons arise, more so than ever, which in itself can be daunting. This definitely lives rent-free in my mind, truth be told.

What also becomes evidently obvious is that, we live in a society that puts a timeframe on all achievements, and you’re the odd one out if things aren’t according to schedule.

In my opinion, planning ahead seems pointless at times. We don’t ever have our lives entirely figured out, and if we do, will that last? Maybe, or not.

The older I get, the more I try to shake off that idealistic image of how things should be, to appreciate the scenery in front of me, and the people I get to share these moments with.

Expectations beyond the realistic is a recipe for disaster, it’s not anywhere near sustainable in the long run. That being said, the opinion of this will vary from person to person, as it should.

Anyway, excuse the deep and emotive post tonight, I honestly didn’t know what to write about in the beginning. However, getting back to basics and talking more about these subjects is something that I am aiming to do on this blog of mine.

When I look back on older posts, I do miss being able to express myself in such an honest way. Of course, there’s boundaries and ways to talk about it all in a constructive and structured manner.

I’ll be talking about more light-hearted topics tomorrow, I just needed to get it off my chest, to be honest.

All in all, I’ll leave it at that and I hope you’re all having a great Wednesday!

Mila. Xo

Melancholy Nights

It’s one of those nights, once again.

Emotions can be complicated, it can also be a difficult thing to talk about when you’re overwhelmed as it is. However, in some ironic way, sometimes that’s the only way I can write. And it’s important to not suppress how you feel either.

I’m currently in the process of writing for the next poetry book, although at this point, when this will be unveiled or released, not too sure.

However, despite feeling less than ideal, I wanted to come on here and just distract myself from my thoughts for a moment. Writing has always been such a good outlet, in many ways.

Anyway, I’ll probably end the post at this for now, until tomorrow.

Take care, stay safe, be kind to yourself and others.

Mila. Xo

Impulsive Moments & Rational Conclusions

Sometimes, taking a moment to think before we do or say something is the difference between wrong and right choices in life. At times, I can find myself being impulsive, in terms of buying certain things or making a change somehow (hair bleach sessions included)

Almost bleached my hair earlier, funnily enough. Until I styled my hair in a different way, which made me appreciate my brunette, messy curls. Tomorrow is Easter Sunday, so I’m looking forward to that.

Faith is such a big part of my daily life, more so with each day that passes by. Makes me so grateful for the people in my life and the positive changes that have occurred in recent years. And I also believe it keeps me close to my late grandmother. In May, it’ll be the fifth anniversary of her passing and that’s so surreal.

I just hope I make her proud, on this complicated journey of life and experiences.

Mila. Xo

Long Weekend

Happy Friday, to all of you. I hope it’s been a good start to your weekend.

Found myself taking naps a lot during the day, I felt like it was needed, and now here I am, making another late night addition to the blog. This has been such a wonderful Friday, a good one indeed.

As it’s Good Friday, I definitely wanted to spend some time reflecting, nurturing my mind and soul with mindful thinking and it’s very beneficial, in a lot of ways.

I feel so blessed to have my family and friends in my life, they are the most important people ever, when things change and we can see each other again, in a more consistent way, things will definitely improve for the better.

Mila. Xo

Journey Of Complex Emotions


A simple note to self: it’s okay to feel emotive.

I’ve found it difficult at times to express how I feel, even through my poetry and such. An outlet of any kind is a blessing, it’s not something I take for granted anymore.

Sometimes, a good cry or laugh is necessary.

Can’t wait to start writing more for book #3, it’s been pushed aside for too long, in my opinion. There’s a lot of comfort in creativity in the form of escapism and peace of mind.

Anyway, I’ll leave the rambling for another moment in time, for now, I’ve got to fall asleep in a timely manner. Hope you’re all safe and well.

Mila. Xo

Nostalgic Feelings


It’s such a strange feeling to miss people that you don’t talk to anymore.

Nostalgia is a bittersweet thing at times, but overall, I appreciate the ones I’ve known, and the people that I have yet to meet in life.

Getting older has taught me a lot about past experiences, and I think that has also changed my perspective on things in the current day.

Tonight’s post might not be as in-depth as the previous one, but maybe the next ones over the week will be a little bit more interesting.

I’m hoping to work on the next book of poetry soon, so fingers crossed.

Anyway, I need to get some rest, if I can sleep at all.

Mila. Xo

Inspired Wednesday


Despite a late start to the day, I completed what I had to do, and that was good enough for me. The cold weather doesn’t really help either, especially in the last week.

I might have been born in a cold place, but I’m not too fond of it.

For the first years of my life, I was born and raised in Scandinavia (Northern Sweden to be exact)

Anyway, I’ve always been proud of my background, and it’s an important part of my identity, who I am. As well as the experiences that have shaped me into the current version of myself.

I think I’m beginning to ramble now, ever so slightly.

Think it’s time to sleep soon, since I stayed awake a bit too late the previous night. Stay safe and stay warm this evening.