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State Of Acceptance

Might be a blog post, or a rant, perhaps a poem that sounds out of sync. We’ll see…

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Temporary Distractions

Nostalgia and apathy, contradictory mix of the mind’s emotional response, and lack thereof. Workouts and staying productive takes the edge off to some extent.

I don’t know what’s worse, suppression of this reality or accepting that these thoughts and feelings exist?

Both are equally hard to navigate. If only I could articulate them into words and make art of it all. I always find it easier to write about darker subjects, or so it used to be.

Might look into writing submissions and story competitions, get my creativity in shape, as silly as that may sound. I understand you have to go with the flow, but my impatience can make that very difficult.

On a lighter note, I just realized that tomorrow marks three years since I published my second poetry collection via Blurb, A Cryptic Human Entity.

I can’t believe it, honestly. Three whole years tomorrow.

Will post a link to it on the next post, to commemorate this beautiful, precious moment in time. You can also find it quite easily online.

I do regret the lack of promotion when it first was published, but again, there was a lot going on in life the first months of it being out for the world to see.

That being said, I’ll always be proud of my work, regardless of who buys it or what happens next. For me, just holding the book in my hands was incredible and emotional.

Writing has always been a part of my life, something I hold near and dear to my heart and soul. I’m not the best at it, but I’ve still got a lot of learning and growing to do. My story is still being written as we speak.

It has gotten me through a lot of difficult times, so has this blog of mine too. It’s not just self-expression or art in written form, it’s therapy, a sanctuary.

Mila. Xo





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Slow Night For Motivation



Feeling slightly under the weather tonight, but I don’t want to let my strange mood affect my writing. Plus, it might make me feel better to write something.

Might be a good idea to complete a workout as well, boost my energy a little and feel good. Usually, I tend to sleep it off, but this time around, I really wanted to remain productive.

The mind is a complex one, most times. Found it difficult to know what to write or think.

I should take my writing more seriously, the outlet is a blessing to have.

Hard to believe it’s been nearly three years since I published my second book of poetry, A Cryptic Human Entity. I often read through it and I can’t believe that it’s my own.

Being introverted and a keen writer isn’t entirely a great thing. I do try and embrace both, equally. With the unpredictability of the world right now, who could even blame me for feeling this way?

I do need to try and schedule posts ahead of time, or at least plan them better. Perhaps browsing other blogs might help me find some inspiration for my next posts. If anyone has any favorites, please do let me know.

According to my stats today, DAYDREAM MADNESS had over 300+ views today, which is incredible and I thank you with all my heart.

I’m grateful for any engagements I receive as a result of me posting on here, it does really inspire me to keep going. If there’s any particular topics you think might suit the personal feel of this blog, all suggestions would be great.

Now, I’m not the best at this type of thing, I have simply done this for years out of creative drive and passion. Would it be my dream to write full-time?
Absolutely. You do to have to be realistic about it, of course, that’s reality.

The next book I eventually publish/create, I’ll definitely make sure to talk about it and promote it accordingly. I am always learning as a person.

Hope you’re all safe and well, I’ll speak to you shortly.


Mila. Xo

Does Creativity Sleep? The Answer Is No

Inspiration can strike at any given time or place. Expected and unexpected.

Truth be told, I have often found myself waking up in the middle of a dream or short-lived nap, and suddenly, having this need to express what I have seen or felt during this particular state of mind.

My thoughts are complex, but not always.

Anyway, I’m hoping to sleep at some point in the night, so I wish you all the best, and sleep well (or good morning to the ones just waking up)

Take care,

Mila. Xo

High Expectations And Validation From Within

This has been a constant note to self since 2020 began, almost two weeks ago. You don’t need validation from others to be happy.

It doesn’t mean you’re not going to try and get it from other people, or find peace of mind in it. I often compare it to an abyss, the anxieties and self-doubt that comes from the need of validation is not at all helpful.

So many times, I have felt in need of it, and I still don’t understand why, and sure, there are people who have different qualities and different skills, comparing myself to them will only hold me back from achieving what I know in my heart, that I am capable of. It is easier said than done, but with enough patience and faith, anything is possible. And it will happen, when it is meant to.

Until then, I’ll just have to be patient and kind to myself.

Mediocre Tendencies

Creativity is both a blessing and a curse.

Well, I’m not completely good at writing. I love it with a passion, despite the competitive nature of the craft.

The freedom to openly express your train of thought, it is a wonderful part of the whole process. There are good days, blank days, sometimes you have no direction.

I’m not a perfect writer, nor do I claim to be. It’s complicated, like most hobbies and interests.

Being an introvert and poetic isn’t very helpful either. One day at a time, I’m hoping to appreciate my work more, and to worry less about everything.

Being a self-proclaimed perfectionist is a challenge. You won’t stop until you’re different from everyone else.

Balancing Your Vision With A Dose Of Reality

The introvert is finally in her space of harmony and peace. It’s been a while, I’m not the best multi-tasker out there, but damn, I certainly try my best with it all.

Writing used to be something I focused on completely, so these random and unpredictable weeks of hibernation and writer’s block, they are not my cup of tea. I prefer the strong essence of inspiration!

Hoping to start work on my third book of poetry this year, as well. With the chaos of last year, I barely had the time to promote my last project, which I was incredibly proud to self-publish.

I do wish things had been different, but that’s life at times, I suppose. It is a mess, you just have to get on with the next thing. And to be fair, I am my own worst critic. So, when someone wants to fill me in on their opinion of my work or myself, I already had the tough exterior to begin with.

Not feeling good enough can be the worst, but I’ll talk about that more in depth, at a later date. Until then, take care of you, and remember to write!

Mila, xo

ego’s in the sand

Two blog posts in a short time, never thought it would happen in 2016 but hello.
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bundle of writer’s block

it’s been another two weeks and I haven’t put together enough material for one poem,
let alone all the others. I’ve read plenty of other people’s poetry books and it makes me wonder if I’m articulate enough to get this stuff done myself. Self-doubt is definitely my worst enemy at the moment. The writing part is somewhat manageable but the rest of the journey has proved to have been a little more complex than my naive self once thought it would be, hey, I’m a Gemini, daydream is my middle name, or perhaps it should be now.

I know I repeatedly vent and rant about similar things, but I feel so passionately regarding this, so excuse my frustration as I type this out in record time. hell, I can’t even write a poem this fast, let alone get a sentence down on a piece of paper. it’s so ironic, for sure.

but eventually, there will be a book, or perhaps a series of them, but right now, it’s hard even knowing what to say when my tongue is in knots and my brain is on overdrive. I find that taking a deep breath helps, but then I think once again and lose that bit of sweet luck.

plus, I realized that 52 wonderful people follow my bundled opinions and thoughts so thank you! I never thought I would get past 50, I didn’t think I would get any but wow.

I am always grateful for every view, every comment, every like, every bit of everything
it definitely inspires me to keep this blog up, I thought I was going to give it all up last- year, but thankfully, it’s here to stay. I bid you all a wonderful week, let it be full of love!