ramblings

Back At It: Hiatus Over

Hello again, what a long time it has been since my last upload on the blog.

I wasn’t planning to have a hiatus of this length, but it is what it is and I am back with a vengeance.

Truthfully, I have struggled with writer’s block a lot for many months, even years at this point.

Life has been all over the place, so have my emotions. Not being able to convey or express how I’ve been feeling has affected me quite heavily.

I put a lot of pressure on myself in all aspect of life, whether it is my appearance or what my poems are about. The hunger for perfection is insatiable, to put it bluntly.

Creativity has always had a big place in my mind, heart and soul. So to feel like nothing I did was good enough was very taxing on my mental health and it still is, sometimes.

The goal is to take baby steps, and start off small and build my way back up the ladder once more. It might not always be consistent or on point, but it will be authentic to me and my journey of it all.

Just wanted to say a big thank you to anyone who has followed or just discovered my blog on here. Any engagement I receive is wholeheartedly appreciated. It truly means the world and encourages me to continue, even if I’m not feeling my best.

What are my plans for the months ahead?

As of now, I hope to update the blog at least once a week, if not more. It all depends on life’s schedule and God’s plan for me on this path.

I count my blessings every day that I have good health, a wonderful support system and an overall decent life.

That’s not to say that there won’t be challenges along the way, but I will take that on if the occasion arises.

For the time being, I want to remain present and in tune with the universe so a hiatus like the previous one is out of the question.

Balance is key, which an impatient person like me needs to be reminded of on a daily basis.

It is my hope that I can commence further work on my third poetry collection, and make progress with that as it has been four years since A Cryptic Human Entity.

Well, as of tomorrow it will be the 4th anniversary of that second poetry book and I still cannot fathom it.

The theme for the next book is still up for debate. I feel like a lot has changed and evolved since my initial concept for it, that I might do something completely different.

I have a lot that I want to share and heal from on an emotional level, timing is key too.

There’s a chance I might do a mini version of the next collection, and a full, extended edition of the poetry book next year. So excited to finally start this project in a proper way.

Until then, stay tuned for more updates as I go along. After all, we only have the life God gave us, we need to make every second count.

And also, happy belated 7th anniversary to my pride and joy, this little blog of mine, DAYDREAM MADNESS.

It’s also my birthday in 12 days, how exciting! But anyway, hope you all have an amazing rest of your weekend and I’ll speak to you soon.

Happy Sunday and God bless you all!

Yours truly,

Mila. Xo

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I Passed My Course!

This post is going to be more upbeat and positive than the last few (or perhaps I should say ten?)

Yes, still got a lot of things on my mind currently which has been very challenging and awful for my mental health, but I’m still trying to get through life with gratitude and strength.

So, that being said: I passed my course!

Not entirely surprised, I did have a good feeling about taking the exam, so that was nice.

Excuse the lateness of my recent posts on the blog. A lot is on my mind, so bear with me.

Have a great evening, everyone.

Mila. Xo

Balancing Life Out

Wasn’t meant to post so late, but I didn’t have a chance to until now.

I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t tired, and I look forward to getting some sleep. But honestly, I’ve got an exam in two days which is making me so nervous.

Anyway, I’ll leave it at that for the time being. Hope you all have a great day!

Mila. Xo

Mindful Weekend

And so, the weekend is about to end once more. Time really does go by in the blink of an eye.

It’s been a productive yet long Sunday, but I have really enjoyed it.

This is a very late post, honestly. I’ll definitely try and write earlier in the day from tomorrow onwards, if possible.

Have a wonderful Sunday and a bright new week ahead!

Mila. Xo

Study Hour

Not an ideal hour to study, but here we are. Gathered enough energy to start the weekend off right.

The next few weeks are going to be busy. Got an exam coming up, hopefully I don’t fail this one. There’s something about retaining information that my mind does not do well.

It’s already past 11pm too, I’m still incredibly exhausted even after sleeping a good amount.

Anyway, I’ll probably just leave it at that for now and if there’s anything else for me to ramble about over the weekend, perhaps I will.

Hope you all had a great Friday, cheers the weekend!

Mila. Xo

Sleepy Nights

It’s been a long yet productive day, felt inspired more than usual which is always much appreciated.

Feeling grateful for life as it is.

I know I’ll sleep peacefully knowing that there’s a new and bright day awaiting me tomorrow.

Hope you’re all well and I’ll be around for another post in the next day or so. Take care!

Mila. Xo

Inspiration In Drafts


Looked at old notes earlier, that I previously wrote and saved to my phone and it’s kind of bittersweet. It’s not very often that I do that, mainly because I end up missing certain people.

Nostalgia is tough sometimes, some memories leave a lasting impression on your mind. Whether that’s good or bad, I don’t know.

Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all. That’s something I was told a while back, and it’s very true, at least for me.

Although, I do wish I had been slightly more mature than I was years ago, maybe it would have changed how things turned out. The “what if” still haunts me to this day.

Earlier tonight, I found myself wanting to reach out to someone in particular, who I haven’t spoken to in about three years, and a part of me has always wanted that person back in my life.

They were one of my closest friends, we had a complicated connection from the start, but I’ve always been curious about how things would be now, if we had remained close, especially since we’re both older and wiser.

Perhaps, in the near future, we’ll be able to reconnect.

Time definitely heals a lot, but not everything, as much as we would like for that to be reality. I feel like I’m starting to lose my train of thought now, so maybe I should leave it at this for the moment.

Need to get some sleep, but I’ll be back with another post tomorrow afternoon or late evening. Tomorrow is Friday, so glad.

Have a wonderful rest of your Thursday.


Mila. Xo

An Early Night

Going to bed straight after this post, but I wanted to write something this evening. It’s been quite a wonderful Sunday, been very productive and that always makes me feel content.

I’ve got to wake up early tomorrow, which isn’t very fun when you’re not a morning person. However, when important plans are on the horizon, I make an effort to sleep better, most of the time.

Anyway, I’ll write something longer tomorrow, in the evening hours probably. Hope you’re all doing well, take care and stay safe.

Mila. Xo

Slow Night For Motivation



Feeling slightly under the weather tonight, but I don’t want to let my strange mood affect my writing. Plus, it might make me feel better to write something.

Might be a good idea to complete a workout as well, boost my energy a little and feel good. Usually, I tend to sleep it off, but this time around, I really wanted to remain productive.

The mind is a complex one, most times. Found it difficult to know what to write or think.

I should take my writing more seriously, the outlet is a blessing to have.

Hard to believe it’s been nearly three years since I published my second book of poetry, A Cryptic Human Entity. I often read through it and I can’t believe that it’s my own.

Being introverted and a keen writer isn’t entirely a great thing. I do try and embrace both, equally. With the unpredictability of the world right now, who could even blame me for feeling this way?

I do need to try and schedule posts ahead of time, or at least plan them better. Perhaps browsing other blogs might help me find some inspiration for my next posts. If anyone has any favorites, please do let me know.

According to my stats today, DAYDREAM MADNESS had over 300+ views today, which is incredible and I thank you with all my heart.

I’m grateful for any engagements I receive as a result of me posting on here, it does really inspire me to keep going. If there’s any particular topics you think might suit the personal feel of this blog, all suggestions would be great.

Now, I’m not the best at this type of thing, I have simply done this for years out of creative drive and passion. Would it be my dream to write full-time?
Absolutely. You do to have to be realistic about it, of course, that’s reality.

The next book I eventually publish/create, I’ll definitely make sure to talk about it and promote it accordingly. I am always learning as a person.

Hope you’re all safe and well, I’ll speak to you shortly.


Mila. Xo

Rainy Days In February



I was hoping to write this earlier in the day, but had quite a lot to do and that was tiring. As I write this, I can hear the sound of rain on my bedroom window tonight and it definitely has a calming effect on me.

Hopefully I fall asleep shortly, after posting this and completing a few things first. My annual WordPress subscription got renewed today, which means I don’t have to worry about that for another year now. I just have to renew the domain name in April.

As much as I don’t like the price of the subscription, the premium themes are so worth it. The simplicity of my current theme is wonderful, to say the least.

Minor changes might be made soon, but nothing too outrageous.

Tomorrow is going to be a little busy, but it should be fine, as long as I stay on target with what I need to get done. I often try and make lists the night before, it’s very motivating when you need some positive encouragement.

Anyway, before I ramble too much, I’ll leave it at that until the end of tomorrow.

Stay safe, take care of you and others and be kind.


Mila. Xo