Slightly nervous about tomorrow, although I am trying to remain hopeful despite all these emotions going on. Patience can be a complex thing.
I honestly feel so good today, though. Lovely food, incredibly productive with my household chores and cleaned the entire house (literally)
This might be a small thing to some, but for me, I appreciate all the accomplishments and achievements of the day, no matter how big or small they might be.
Going to bed shortly after posting this, should have studied more than I have, and I just hope that doesn’t impact my progress. For the most part, I’ve worked hard on a lot, which is not always possible due to many reasons and it depends on the day and how I feel.
Part of me wants to return to listening on 7cups (anonymous website/platform where you can reach out to someone etc) and it’s been on my mind quite often in the last few weeks. On the weekend, I’m definitely going to log in and check what’s new on there.
Anyway, enough of me rambling on. Have a wonderful evening!
Got a mock exam on the 19th, so I’m quite nervous to see my progress on this level 2 course. However, I am determined to revise a whole lot and get my mind prepared for this.
No matter how prepared I am, a part of me is always stressed when it comes to things like this. It’ll be fine, I’m sure. One day at a time for the most part, and remembering that as long as you try your best, it will be okay.
Going to bed early tonight, which I say all the time, but I need all the rest I can get right now. Hoping to wake up before 7 in the morning, fingers crossed. I have an online math webinar to pay attention to at 11am tomorrow, so it would be great to have some extra study time.
Anyway, I believe that’s all I really wanted to say on today’s post, more poetry related topics will be posted in the next week or so, so stay tuned for that.
Take care and stay safe and I hope all is well with you.
In the last week or two, I’ve found myself less motivated. It didn’t all happen at once, but it was a gradual process. For the most part, it’s been helpful to try and do a few productive tasks each day, at the very least.
However, it has become increasingly more difficult in recent days, despite my best efforts. I suppose, I was expecting it to occur at some point, I just didn’t want to lose all the progress made since the start of 2021.
The fact that it’s March is surreal. Perhaps lockdown has made time feel differently for many people, or has it just flown by? Who knows, hopefully things will become better as time does go on and so forth.
In a couple of months, it’ll be five years since my grandmother passed away and I just don’t know how to feel about it anymore. How five years can go by just like that is scary. Losing her was one of the hardest things I’ve ever experienced, amongst other things.
Things have definitely changed a lot since then, some things at least, not everything. Life is one of those complicated journeys, but that’s all part of the human experience and how that shapes us as people.
Sometimes, I often have to take a step back, have a moment of reflective thought, give myself a chance to live in the moment, not putting so much emphasis on stressing about the future. It is easier said than done.
Giving yourself that break once in a while is essential, at least in my own experience. Writing also helps me a lot, keeping that open dialogue with yourself and others, depending on how comfortable you are, of course.
I believe I’ll leave it at that for now, trying to figure out possible subjects and topics to discuss in the next coming days. Also, forever wishing I could write stories. Would love to complete a novel in my later years, we’ll see.
Sundays honestly is my favorite day of the week. I don’t know if that makes me feel good about life, or just old? Also, the aftermath of eating junk food over two days was a lot. I actually don’t miss it at all, which is quite a new thing for me.
But, that’s just my thoughts regarding that. It does confirm to me that I feel much better eating meals that I cook from scratch, and it also saves me a lot of money in the long run, so that’s another positive way of encouraging myself to stay on track with my change of lifestyle and overall health journey.
I prefer to not call it a diet, because that can bring out some lingering insecurities of mine. All I can say is, I’m working on it. Moderation is key, so is a balanced lifestyle and understanding the importance of nutrition.
It’ll take time, but the end result will make all of this worth my while.
This past month or so has been a real eye-opener.
It’s February 1st tomorrow, which is really hard to believe, but time doesn’t stand still for anyone. Spent a lot of time reflecting and moving ahead and I look forward to this next month.
Found it a little difficult knowing what to write, but I want to keep this streak of writing alive for the time being. After all, this is a personal blog.
I’ve been meaning to start work on my next book of poetry, although it’s still a work in progress. A lot is going on, but I’m feeling positive so far.
Focusing on my health is a priority at the moment, as well as other things alongside that. I am determined to stick to my resolutions this year, in a healthy and gradual way. I try not to call it ‘dieting’ as it can trigger unhealthy eating habits.
Being the impatient young woman I am, it can feel like this whole process is taking a long time, yet I do understand that it’s not an overnight change.
Anyway, I hope you’re all having a wonderful weekend.
Having the willpower to stay on track with exercise and eating well seems a lot more difficult during the weekends. I do enjoy working out, aerobic dance is fun, wireless earbuds have been one of the best purchases that I made in 2020.
I did plan to get another hour of exercise in before the end of today, but I already did 30 minutes and that was a good start. Incorporating that into my routine each day is something that I’m still working on, but the gradual weight loss has been very encouraging to witness.
During this lockdown, I’ve really been interested in fitness and overall health in general, which has been an interesting journey by all means.
The end goal has always been to become healthier, in a gradual, healthy way and I honestly do believe it’ll be worth it in the end. Patience is difficult, I am the most impatient person on this planet.
Positive affirmations help too, keeping track of your progress and just knowing that these things take time, there is no transformation overnight.
Remembering to be kind to yourself is important, I know I’ve had my fair share of insecurities. It’s always so wonderful seeing others be body positive, and it reminds me that I’ll get there too, eventually.
Getting older, you feel more comfortable in your skin, and that’s very accurate to some extent. It can be such a complex subject, especially in today’s society.
Regardless, I’m proud of my progress so far, and it’s nice to feel good about yourself. When I reflect back to how teenage me felt, I just wish I could tell her that things will be okay.
Anyway, excuse the long essay on here. Stay safe & well.
Productivity continues to thrive and that’s been the highlight of my week.
As far as other things go, I’m not too sure. The next week is going to be a busy one, which should be good for the most part. Feeling positive, enlightened to some extent too.
Just very focused on what I want to achieve, despite the complexity of circumstances surrounding everyday life and beyond. All you can do is try and move forward, no matter what.
Writing every day has been so comforting to me, it really helps a lot if you think a lot like me. My brain never seems to completely at peace with life, but I don’t mind a challenge.
Over the weekend, I do hope to begin writing for the next book. I have a clear idea of what I want the project to express, but it’s all a work in progress. There’s so many ideas I have right now, I need to narrow it down to a few, if at all possible.
We’ll see if I’m feeling inspired enough tomorrow! 🙂