To be consistently productive is something I truly want to be, but for the past few days, I’ve been feeling quite the opposite. It might have to do with my overthinking, to some extent. However, it does vary depending on what I have to do on that particular day.
I’ve struggled with feeling anxious for a long time, although over the years, I do think that I have kept it under control for the most part. It all ties together with past trauma, life has always been slightly chaotic.
Getting older and finding peace within yourself definitely helps a lot, but there are moments where I do feel overwhelmed. We all have our good days and bad days.
This is something I’m honest about, always have been. Suppressing how you feel is not healthy, sometimes it is the only way to function properly. All of these things are complex, but on a positive note, I genuinely feel like I am in a better mindset, overall. Things are not always easy, but nothing ever is.
Less than a week into January, and I feel pretty good so far.
Fingers crossed that my next online course can happen this week. If someone told me I’d be loving the complexity of mathematics, there’s a chance I would have laughed.
Who’d have thought a customer service course would be such a blessing in disguise. Anyway, I have a lot of revision to do, nonetheless.
December was such a busy month in general, so I’m excited to get back to basics with my routine and hopefully sort out my sleep schedule whilst I’m at it.
I think I’ll spend tomorrow decluttering the house, completing some household chores. Despite lockdown and the unpredictable chaos, this time around it feels different, or perhaps my mindset has improved a lot since last year. Feeling more like myself every day and I am so grateful.