Six Months On: Life Update



What can I say? Another hiatus bites the dust, and I am so happy about it. Also, how has it been six months already?!


For the longest time, I didn’t feel motivated or inspired to write and it has been a nightmare, especially since writing has helped me through so many difficult moments in life, and helped me navigate through all the complex emotions we face each day as human beings. A lot has been going on, but my creative mind has just been a complete blank, when it came down to expressing this in words.

I’ve struggled with writer’s block many times before, as well as frequent self-critical thoughts, not thinking any of my work is good enough to put out there. It is a lot. Not sure if it’s imposter syndrome, or my need for perfection taking over and causing havoc.

Either way, I found myself wanting to write today and it is a good feeling. There has been a lot of life changes: I started a new job, my skin is improving, I am becoming physically healthier and less anxious. Whilst I am still a work in progress, I feel like acknowledging these things are my way of having gratitude and instinctly trusting that I am on the right track.

I am not sure how frequently I’ll update the blog, but I definitely want to write more and have some kind of consistency towards the end of 2022 and the beginning of 2023. Might even post a few poems at some point, I would love to further develop my progress with the third poetry collection I am working on.

Looking forward to the weekend, are you?


Mila. Xo

Hello 2022: Happy New Year!

As the title says, 2022 is finally here.

Happy New Year to all of you, WordPressers!

I look forward to a year of consistent uploads, and I am sure you do too.

Made a promise to myself that 2022 would be the year that I focus on writing more, I also want to be more present on social media as well, and I am hoping to make some changes to DAYDREAM MADNESS in terms of layout, change things up a bit, so definitely stay tuned for that over the next few months or so.

Starting work on poetry book #3 is also going to be a priority this year, it has been almost 4 years since my last project was created, so this is long overdue, in my opinion.

I can honestly not believe it has been so long since Lay Your Hands Bare (2017) & A Cryptic Human Entity (2018) were made public for the first time.

With each collection, I want to challenge myself and learn to express my emotions and thoughts in a balanced way, especially the ones that are attached to trauma.

I have a long way to go until the healing process is anywhere near complete, or accomplished in some way, shall we say. I am very grateful for the wisdom and clarity that has been brought into my life in the last few years.

Getting older has taught me so much about myself, as well as other people and their intentions.

And I just wanted to say thank you for the almost 500 followers I’ve managed to get on here since 2015, it truly means the world.

Despite the inconsistencies and hiatuses, you’ve always given me a reason to stick with the blog, regardless of how much or little I might post.

Being an introvert, it can be tricky knowing how to step outside the box for once. It can be awkward a lot of the time, truthfully.

But writing is therapy, it is an outlet for those very difficult thoughts and feelings. I’m not planning to share everything about my life, but I do want to be more open and confident in myself.

Insecurities can get the best of you sometimes, I know that all too well.

So, be kind to yourself and others, take one day at a time and just know that life is a complex journey, but it’ll be okay. You will be okay, no matter how tough it might be right now.


Love,

Mila. Xo


Poem: paper-thin apologies

This is a poem I wrote tonight. I wasn’t planning to, neither did I think I was going to write one at all. But I did, and I wanted to post it on the blog. Not the best thing I’ve written, yet not the worst either. Enjoy.

Submerged with all these fears

They look through her like glass

Eyes stained with cruelty and spite

You find your way through the cracks

Of her broken mind

Like the river of tears

That fills her eyes

And runs down her face

Mila. Xo

Things To Look Forward To

I almost forgot to write today, but thankfully I managed to remind myself in time.

A semi-productive day, with a few tasks to be accomplished yet. Got a lot of revision to do in the next few weeks, train tickets to book and much more.

Despite how unpredictable life has been for the longest time, I’m trying to remain on the optimistic side of things, as difficult as that may be at times.

The one thing I am looking forward to the most, is seeing family members for the first time in almost 18 months.

What I also look forward to is completing more work on this next poetry book of mine. Maybe I’ll complete it this year, or perhaps in the next year or so, we’ll see.

As always, I hope you all have a great day.

Mila. Xo