Poem: paper-thin apologies

This is a poem I wrote tonight. I wasn’t planning to, neither did I think I was going to write one at all. But I did, and I wanted to post it on the blog. Not the best thing I’ve written, yet not the worst either. Enjoy.

Submerged with all these fears

They look through her like glass

Eyes stained with cruelty and spite

You find your way through the cracks

Of her broken mind

Like the river of tears

That fills her eyes

And runs down her face

Mila. Xo

Things To Look Forward To

I almost forgot to write today, but thankfully I managed to remind myself in time.

A semi-productive day, with a few tasks to be accomplished yet. Got a lot of revision to do in the next few weeks, train tickets to book and much more.

Despite how unpredictable life has been for the longest time, I’m trying to remain on the optimistic side of things, as difficult as that may be at times.

The one thing I am looking forward to the most, is seeing family members for the first time in almost 18 months.

What I also look forward to is completing more work on this next poetry book of mine. Maybe I’ll complete it this year, or perhaps in the next year or so, we’ll see.

As always, I hope you all have a great day.

Mila. Xo

Looking Forward

Starting work on this new project has proven tough, yet I know that timing is key, and so is patience with yourself.

Found myself writing down titles, it’s a start, but not the kind of progress I was hoping for. You just have to take a deep breath, remind yourself that it will happen at the right time.

Close to falling asleep, so I’ll probably leave it at that and write more tomorrow. Have a wonderful evening (or day, depending on your location)

Mila. Xo

Three Years: Poetry Book Anniversary

This will be a slightly different entry on the blog, which I’m slightly nervous about. I rarely do this, if ever, but I’ll be sharing the links to both of my little poetry collections at the end of this post, to celebrate the third anniversary of my second writing project, A Cryptic Human Entity.

It’s been a journey, a lot has been going on since then, not necessarily of the creative sense, although, I look forward to the next chapter of my writing’s progression/era.

A Cryptic Human Entity in particular, that collection means a lot to me. It was the first time I’d felt brave enough to show a lot of poems that were darker, many of which I always wanted to make public in some way.

When that project was being created, I was still coming to terms with the passing of my grandmother almost two years prior, there were a lot of suppressed emotions and feelings. I definitely wanted to get out of my comfort zone, no matter how uncomfortable it made me feel.

It was an emotional experience, but so liberating at the same time.

Hard to believe it’s been three years already. I still remember how happy I felt receiving my copies of the finished product in the mail. I’ll never forget that moment.

Said this many times before, but I do understand that I’m not the best at writing, yet I will say that I write for me, first and foremost. If anyone likes it at all, it’ll always be so appreciated.

I’ve spent too long seeking approval from others, and the older I get, the more I am finding confidence and acceptance within myself. I am a work in progress, and so are my thoughts, feelings, emotions and poetry/stories.

As mentioned at the beginning of this post, I’ll leave the links to A Cryptic Human Entity & Lay Your Hands Bare down below, feel free to take a look (or not) and thank you in advance.

https://www.blurb.co.uk/b/8737840-a-cryptic-human-entity
https://www.blurb.co.uk/b/8193531-lay-your-hands-bare

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Happy Sunday!

Mila. Xo

A Little Poem: Peace Of Mind

All these emotions, running through your mind

When all you want is peace

For healing to set your mind free

And love to bring light

All these thoughts, of which you’ve been consumed

When all you wanted was to feel safe

For time to heal your heart

And the sun to shine on you

Creative Blocks And Complex Minds

Found myself struggling to write, I know inspiration can/will happen at certain times, sometimes when you least expect it to. It has been challenging for a long time, though.

Self-expression used to be easier, especially in my younger years.

The older I become, the harder it gets, knowing what to say and how to articulate that. Emotions are complex, how it affects your actions, the choices you ultimately make.

Being self-aware is good, to some extent. Although, too much of a good thing can also be bad for you in the long run. It can definitely overwhelm your brain, all these thoughts.

Can’t wait for the weekend, if I’m honest.

Fingers crossed I can write something of use soon, we’ll see.

Mila. Xo

On The List: Poetry And Sleep

Either I’m getting old or I just really want to sleep early for once. Although, I might end up listening to a podcast episode or two. That and chilled out music can make any evening perfect.

I’ve been exploring book cover ideas for poetry book #3 and I truly believe I have a good idea of what it should look like, so that’s always an interesting development.

Found myself struggling to write much in the last few days, so writing on the blog can help me get out of that creative block, if that makes sense.

Not always, might I add. Having patience can be tough, I’ll get there eventually. It feels like time is passing by so quickly though, it’s scary.

Also, my birthday is in the next few months, like how?

I have no idea if I’ll be able to do anything, might just relax at home on the day. Hard to believe how close I am to the end of my twenties.

As much as getting older is a great thing and should be embraced more, it is slightly bittersweet because we know life doesn’t last forever. Which is why we should appreciate each day, regardless of the struggles we have faced or continue to face.

Mila. Xo

Space To Feel: Sunday Gratitude

I’ve said this many times, but Sunday is the best day of the week.

A day to unwind, complete a few household chores and take a moment to relax. Been sleeping a lot too, the extra rest was so necessary.

Hoping to start writing more from tomorrow onwards, I need to get into a consistent schedule. Working on this third poetry book is going to take some time, a journey that I am looking forward to.

This was on my mind for the longest time, honestly.

Had too many creative hiatuses in the past, and there was a long time where I didn’t write much at all, my inspiration just wasn’t there anymore.

It’s tough when you truly have a lot of love for writing and creativity as an outlet. I honestly can’t believe I’ve had this blog for almost 6 years, that is so mad.

As someone who made a lot of old blogs and didn’t update them for long, wrote on different websites anonymously and was relatively low profile until I started publishing poetry independently in 2017, the fact I stayed with this one is something I’m proud of.

DAYDREAM MADNESS is my pride and joy and I look forward to seeing where this will lead in the future. Anything can happen, the sky is not the limit.

Mila. Xo


Cherished Moments

The writing bug seems to show up late into the evening, but I don’t necessarily mind.

Had a surprisingly productive day, cleaning the house is so therapeutic, I have been in organization mode for the longest time. I suppose, decluttering keeps my mind from thinking too much.

Going to continue tomorrow, if motivation remains in tact.

Also, I have a good vision of my next book’s cover, so that’s very exciting to me. For some reason, vivid and blue is what my heart is going for right now. It could change with time, but who knows.

Have a wonderful evening, fellow blog writers and readers.


Mila. Xo

A Tough Exterior


It’s still strange to me that we’re halfway through March already, I feel like 2021 beginning was only a minute ago. Time is weird, or maybe it’s lack of social interaction.

Saturday is almost over, yet again. I wrote down a lot of potential titles of poems, words here and there. Not sure what I’ll make out of that, but I’m not in a rush.

Keeping the blog active has been great, it does help me often in terms of any potential creative blocks etc. Inspiration happens in the most unexpected ways, in my opinion.

Would love to experiment with book cover ideas soon, see if I can come up with some good concepts, layouts. Motivation comes and goes, some days are more productive than others. I struggle to be patient with myself sometimes.

Being keen on self-expression yet being so introverted, is a strange thing to combine and balance out. Hopefully, future me will have it figured out at some point in life.

There is so much to process, learn from and experience still. Who knows what life will look like in 5 years, or even 10 years.

Such a bittersweet, yet rewarding journey in the long run.


Mila. Xo