Grief Is Complicated

Note: Just so you know, this post is about grief and the complex nature of dealing with loss, I’ve tried to articulate my thoughts in a way that is not upsetting. I could have written more, but perhaps for another day instead.


Reading about heavy subjects definitely makes you sit down and think, noting all the things you should be grateful for. It’s so incredibly sad when you hear about people losing their battle with an illness, that has affected them for many years.

Can’t begin to imagine what it must feel like, seeing a loved one suffer in such a way. Well, in one way, I do feel their pain. Having witnessed the inevitable decline of a beloved relative, it breaks my heart when others have to go through the same.

Grief is complicated, the emptiness it leaves you with. I know passing on to the other side is something that will happen to all of us as life goes forward, but it’s still never easy to fully accept or understand.

When I lost my wonderful grandmother in May 2016, it was a shock to the system. I knew her time on Earth was slowly coming to an end, but I had no idea how that would affect me, how I’d feel or cope.

All I know is, there’s a guardian angel watching over me now.


Mila. Xo

Heavy Minded

Last half of the week has been interesting, emotively speaking.

Those heavy emotions can be a lot to process, hopefully as they subside, it’ll be a reason to create something positive out of the situation.

Just taking a deep breath, reminding yourself that it’s okay, it does help to some extent, depending on the intensity of your thoughts, of course.

Tomorrow is Friday, which is always good to know. I’ve got many things that need to be done, making a change to my hair tomorrow too, I honestly need a change at this point. It’s been nice giving my hair a break from all the dyes, bleaching and more, but sometimes you want a different look.

We’ll see how it goes, I’ve got back-up hair products in case, haha.

Mila. Xo

Melancholy Nights

It’s one of those nights, once again.

Emotions can be complicated, it can also be a difficult thing to talk about when you’re overwhelmed as it is. However, in some ironic way, sometimes that’s the only way I can write. And it’s important to not suppress how you feel either.

I’m currently in the process of writing for the next poetry book, although at this point, when this will be unveiled or released, not too sure.

However, despite feeling less than ideal, I wanted to come on here and just distract myself from my thoughts for a moment. Writing has always been such a good outlet, in many ways.

Anyway, I’ll probably end the post at this for now, until tomorrow.

Take care, stay safe, be kind to yourself and others.

Mila. Xo

Thoughts: Improved Blog Schedule

A more consistent blogging schedule is what I am aiming for, in the long run.

I do find myself struggling at times, whether it’s with blog post ideas, diverse concepts and other various writing related issues. However, not all days are like this, inspiration does occur, although not as often as I would like it to.

Writing more can be a little tricky, if you’ve got creative blocks, or just a lack of inspiration in general.

Self-expression is such a wonderful outlet, it makes me feel better, writing stuff down helps declutter my mind, it keeps my thoughts balanced, for the most part.

Don’t be afraid to talk about your emotions, that’s all I’m saying.

Mila. Xo

Decluttering Is Wonderful

Organizing the house can be so good, especially when you have a break from other things in life.

As much as I love sleep, relaxing and not doing much, I definitely have days where all I do is clean the house, wash the dishes, vacuum all the rooms. Things like that do bring me a lot of joy, it’s also beneficial for my mental health on days where motivating myself is just difficult.

Finding a good balance helps. It’s not always easy, but in time, you can do it.

Each journey of life is different, might I add. As always, I only speak for myself, and sharing my experiences and thoughts is comforting, very therapeutic too. That being said, I’ll end this post here.

Anyway, I hope you all have a great day.

Mila. Xo

Happy Easter

Just wanted to wish everyone a happy and blessed Easter Sunday.

Although it’s not possible to be as close to our loved ones as we would like, I do believe as time progresses and breakthroughs are made, that things will get better and my hope for this has not changed, despite the current unpredictability of life as we know it.

Have a wonderful day/evening!

Mila. Xo

Impulsive Moments & Rational Conclusions

Sometimes, taking a moment to think before we do or say something is the difference between wrong and right choices in life. At times, I can find myself being impulsive, in terms of buying certain things or making a change somehow (hair bleach sessions included)

Almost bleached my hair earlier, funnily enough. Until I styled my hair in a different way, which made me appreciate my brunette, messy curls. Tomorrow is Easter Sunday, so I’m looking forward to that.

Faith is such a big part of my daily life, more so with each day that passes by. Makes me so grateful for the people in my life and the positive changes that have occurred in recent years. And I also believe it keeps me close to my late grandmother. In May, it’ll be the fifth anniversary of her passing and that’s so surreal.

I just hope I make her proud, on this complicated journey of life and experiences.

Mila. Xo

Hello Again, April

It’s April 1st and today is not any different, in my opinion.

The only fun part is the 4 day weekend, but it would have been more entertaining if current circumstances weren’t happening, I’m sure.

Hard to believe my birthday is next month, it doesn’t feel like it at all.

Time went by so quick, I often wonder if it’s just me thinking so or something else. Another month is here, nonetheless. The weather has been wonderful here, so that’s a positive.

Been in such an organizing mood recently, it’s just a shame certain furniture can be so expensive. I’m not picky, but I enjoy various aesthetics, whilst sticking to affordable prices. The more deals and ways to save money, the better.

Since the beginning of 2021, I’ve been so into saving money and tried to better with money as a whole.

That aside, I’m ready for the weekend to begin. Bring it on.

Mila. Xo



Clear Skies And Sunshine

Sunny weather can have such a positive impact on your mood and it’s brilliant. The last couple of days, I’ve never felt better.

Easter is around the corner too, which I’m looking forward to as well.

I’m hoping to focus on the new book project a lot in these next few weeks or so. Connecting with my friends again would be cool, social interaction of any kind is good for the soul. Well, depending on the situation, I suppose.

Cherish your loved ones, live in the moment, be kind to yourself.

That’s what I’d tell my younger self: be brave.

Mila. Xo

Subtle Changes

Over the next few weeks, I’ve got this vision of changes I want to make, when it comes to the blog. Not entirely sure what these will be at the moment, but it’s good to have subtle changes from time to time, right?

I feel like this is long overdue, we’ll see what occurs shortly as I try and figure all of this out. Anyway, going to bed in a bit, my sleep schedule is very off right now and that needs to be fixed.

Might write in more detail at some point this week, I don’t know yet though.

Have a wonderful evening and I’ll be here tomorrow night, take care.

Mila. Xo