I’m feeling quite anxious today, and I have to get up super early tomorrow morning to accomplish some uncomfortable tasks, mainly phone calls that I really don’t want to make, but I have to. It’s not necessarily a big deal, although my overthinking brain says otherwise.
Just want to get this over and done with, I know I’ll feel better once it’s sorted. For the rest of the evening, I’m just trying to unwind and relax, which is easier said than done, in my opinion.
Anyway, to end the post on a slight more positive note, I wanted to express my gratitude to my family and friends, who are the best support system a young woman could have in life.
There’s a chance I might ramble tonight, my emotions have been all over the place, so bear with me. It’s been a rough day, in terms of lacking motivation and not feeling like myself.
One of those days, mother nature does not make things any easier, so there’s that. I managed to get it together later on in the day; did a 30 minute workout, took all my supplements, did my skincare, ate consistently throughout the day, got some new groceries in the morning.
So, all in all, I got through the worst of what I was feeling.
As much as sleeping all day and eating junk was an option, I decided to get on with my daily routine, and stay productive. I’m really glad I did, because I feel a lot better.
Not giving in to temptation is something I’m proud of. In the past, I thought the best way to feel better was to eat junk, distract myself with sleep or binge watch a show or two. All those things are okay to do in moderation, but it doesn’t solve the problem.
I’m trying to teach myself discipline, self-control in terms of food and what I consume on a regular basis. Working on these things is not easy, you don’t change habits overnight, but over time, it becomes easier to manage and keep under control.
You have to dig deep, when it comes to understanding why you do certain things, and the predictable patterns that arise as a result. Once you understand the root cause, that’s when you can properly begin the healing process.
Trauma of any kind is hard to process, and it can take a long time to face it, acknowledge it, be able to speak about it, and also, learn to heal from it and move forward.
Every person’s journey is different, and that’s something I always bear in mind when talking about my own experiences in life, what I’ve been through and how it made me the person I am today.
I think I’ll leave it at that for now, I might elaborate further in future posts on the blog. Excuse the essay tonight, it’s not often I get so invested in what I write, although that is the whole point of DAYDREAM MADNESS.
This is my sanctuary of thought, where I can speak openly and feel a sense of comfort. Writing has always been a powerful outlet for me, it helped me through some dark times, which I’ll be forever grateful for.
Got everyone by 8pm, which is very rare, as I often get quite distracted from too many tasks at one time. Hoping tomorrow will be equally as rewarding.
I honestly want to start work on the new book project, but I have no idea where to begin. It’s been a while since I created the last collection, so I’m currently stuck on what theme I have in mind.
A part of me wants to stick with the original concept, but I feel like I’ve outgrown the subject matter, in a way.
For some reason, the darker things were easier to express on paper, when no one could see any of it. There’s so much I have left to say, about many things in particular. How I word these feelings will be interesting.
It’s all a work in progress, but I do want this year to be creatively productive and I do want to challenge myself. This comfort zone of mine doesn’t help much.
With poetry, or any kind of writing, there’s a lot to consider.
I’ll probably go into more detail in the next few days or so, but in the meantime, I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe.
Felt more calm recently and I appreciate that a lot, to be honest.
I don’t necessarily handle stress all too well, and it shows, despite how much I try and hide it behind a smile or laugh. These days, the amount of gratitude I have in my heart for each day now is crazy. But, of course, in a good way.
Waking up each day, with clarity and peace of mind, that’s something to feel good about. Positivity despite the chaos life might bring, and the obstacles we have to overcome to see the beacon of hope.
Life is not meant to be easy, I know that. I suppose, it’s human of me to sometimes wish it was.
All in all, there’s a lot of blessings to be thankful for, and even difficult moments, the ones that made me a stronger, wiser, better version of me.
Violence is never the answer, and that’s something I truly stand by, in times of great difficulty and turmoil. That being said, there are people with good intentions, and people with bad intentions. Sometimes, it can be hard to distinguish one from the other.
It only shows the true colors of society, humanity as we know it is on thin ice. It’s 2021 and there’s still a lot to accomplish until we can honestly say that change has occurred. Until then, only time will tell what happens next.
At times, I’m glad I often refrain from reading every article out there, all the fear and pain of the world can be a lot to bear on one’s shoulders. Hopefully, as we evolve as human beings, society’s thoughts and views will too.
The toxicity of social media can be very damaging, a limited amount is just enough to go about your daily life. Of course, there are many pros and cons to any platform or website: censorship (we all know there needs to be boundaries but too much is too much), algorithms that are flawed, news that is not always as great as it could be. I could go on, but I’m sure everyone knows what I mean.
I’ve never understood the ones who are submerged in the waters of their online presence. Of course, there are many great things and people that have emerged from the digital world, but there’s also a lot of negativity, unnecessary hatred, bullying, discrimination and lack of equality.
We need more love and kindness in the world. Empathy lacks and so does accountability and gratitude. Tomorrow is never guaranteed, which makes today even more important to appreciate. Better late than never, I say.
I wish all of you nothing but the best and I hope you’re staying safe.
The simplicity of my new blog layout makes it so enjoyable to visit the homepage. I’ve always adored simple designs; the sophisticated, clean look.
For me, it caught my eye from an early age. As I’ve gotten older, it is a constant mission to find new ways to declutter, modify and recycle.
I hope to become better in the near future, doing my part to help the environment. For example, my bedroom is a mess at the moment.
Quite intrigued by interior design, it’s a shame that most things can be so expensive and hard to obtain. Not all things, but the few, particular bits and bobs we find ourselves looking at online, or off.
When people say it can help influence how you feel, they’re not wrong.
From the color of your walls, to the bedding you purchase for your bed, all these things can brighten up your life, at least a little. I’m not particularly keen on magnolia, but it is a warm shade, quite welcoming if I’m honest.
Oh, that’s another of my resolutions for 2021: make the house look more comfy, I also need to take the Christmas tree down, but that’s another story.
There’s a lot of things I’d change, but I’m not in a rush to do so, as of yet.