Over the years, a lot has changed and evolved. But at the same time, it is not entirely different.
Maturity and wisdom has definitely helped shape my current mindset, as well as providing me with the necessary tools to navigate my path, help me understand and come to terms with things that I didn’t have the words for before, or the feelings and emotions that have found their way through this journey of life.
Looking back, being kind to myself was the last thing on the agenda, if at all important. Insecurities were heavily on my mind, they still are at times. Learning how to combat those hasn’t been easy.
Even now, despite being more at peace with myself, there are days where I think too much, or I don’t feel any particular way or it’s harder to articulate, and that’s okay.
So, in the years since I’ve focused on my wellbeing a lot more, and had time to reflect, what have I grown to love or embrace about life or myself? This is an interesting question indeed.
In fact, there’s quite a substantial list. For example, I love having my hair up, which is a small detail to some, but having a rounder face can make it complicated.
Also, another thing I’ve grown to love is short hair, or perhaps shoulder-length hair in particular. Growing up, I truly think I used my hair to hide my face and how round I thought it was. Once, I had a very evident bleach fail, where a lot of it broke off, so I cut off a lot of hair at the sides and dyed it electric blue. At the time, I didn’t appreciate it as much as I should have.
Would I dye my hair blue again? Absolutely.
Another thing I love now, is wearing no make-up. If my face has problems, I try and help/ease them with skincare, following a routine has done wonders, although I am more flexible with that these days.
Getting older has definitely helped me embrace my flaws, and to be grateful for my health and so much more. This will always be a journey, and I just want to be the best version of myself.
This post is longer than I usually write, but in my opinion, that means I’m feeling inspired and motivated, so I’ll take it.
Last half of the week has been interesting, emotively speaking.
Those heavy emotions can be a lot to process, hopefully as they subside, it’ll be a reason to create something positive out of the situation.
Just taking a deep breath, reminding yourself that it’s okay, it does help to some extent, depending on the intensity of your thoughts, of course.
Tomorrow is Friday, which is always good to know. I’ve got many things that need to be done, making a change to my hair tomorrow too, I honestly need a change at this point. It’s been nice giving my hair a break from all the dyes, bleaching and more, but sometimes you want a different look.
We’ll see how it goes, I’ve got back-up hair products in case, haha.
It’s April 1st and today is not any different, in my opinion.
The only fun part is the 4 day weekend, but it would have been more entertaining if current circumstances weren’t happening, I’m sure.
Hard to believe my birthday is next month, it doesn’t feel like it at all.
Time went by so quick, I often wonder if it’s just me thinking so or something else. Another month is here, nonetheless. The weather has been wonderful here, so that’s a positive.
Been in such an organizing mood recently, it’s just a shame certain furniture can be so expensive. I’m not picky, but I enjoy various aesthetics, whilst sticking to affordable prices. The more deals and ways to save money, the better.
Since the beginning of 2021, I’ve been so into saving money and tried to better with money as a whole.
That aside, I’m ready for the weekend to begin. Bring it on.
Being the midnight owl I am, there’s something about writing at night that is so relaxing and it puts my mind at ease. Inspiration strikes at strange times of the day.
Not been particularly inspired to write much this weekend, but I believe the best thing is to just be patient. I have a feeling I’ll be awake for quite some time because I fell asleep in the afternoon, typical me.
Saturday is almost over, unfortunately. It feels like it just started as well.
Tomorrow is laundry day, amongst other things, before the new week begins once more. Can you believe it’s Easter soon? I cannot.
It’s almost midnight here as I write this, how crazy. Got a few things to do before I eventually go to bed, yet I’m wide awake and alert.
A longer ramble than most, perhaps. There’s not many intriguing topics to discuss because of how predictable things have gotten in the last year.
We’ll see what the future has in store, right? Stay kind & aware.
Slightly nervous about tomorrow, although I am trying to remain hopeful despite all these emotions going on. Patience can be a complex thing.
I honestly feel so good today, though. Lovely food, incredibly productive with my household chores and cleaned the entire house (literally)
This might be a small thing to some, but for me, I appreciate all the accomplishments and achievements of the day, no matter how big or small they might be.
Going to bed shortly after posting this, should have studied more than I have, and I just hope that doesn’t impact my progress. For the most part, I’ve worked hard on a lot, which is not always possible due to many reasons and it depends on the day and how I feel.
Part of me wants to return to listening on 7cups (anonymous website/platform where you can reach out to someone etc) and it’s been on my mind quite often in the last few weeks. On the weekend, I’m definitely going to log in and check what’s new on there.
Anyway, enough of me rambling on. Have a wonderful evening!
Found it a little difficult knowing what to write, but I want to keep this streak of writing alive for the time being. After all, this is a personal blog.
I’ve been meaning to start work on my next book of poetry, although it’s still a work in progress. A lot is going on, but I’m feeling positive so far.
Focusing on my health is a priority at the moment, as well as other things alongside that. I am determined to stick to my resolutions this year, in a healthy and gradual way. I try not to call it ‘dieting’ as it can trigger unhealthy eating habits.
Being the impatient young woman I am, it can feel like this whole process is taking a long time, yet I do understand that it’s not an overnight change.
Anyway, I hope you’re all having a wonderful weekend.
Halfway through the week and it’s mad how fast time seems to pass by.
Looking forward to a good night’s sleep, after I get some minor study done. It’s been quite a bittersweet day, but all you can do is just keep certain people in your thoughts and hope they’re doing well.
I could go into further detail, but let’s keep it vague and not to mention, private. On a positive note, a sibling of mine has a birthday tomorrow so that’s something to quietly celebrate at home.
January went by quick, am I right? Lockdown and all the restrictions make most days seem identical, but all in all, as long as you’re staying safe and keeping yourselves protected, that’s the main thing at the moment.
Weather seems to be less cold today, which is nice. It’s dark outside by the time it’s 5pm, sometimes earlier than that. Hopefully, we get a bit of sunshine soon.
I’ll try and write tomorrow’s post a bit earlier in the day, if possible.
As always, stay safe and take care of yourself and others.
Having the willpower to stay on track with exercise and eating well seems a lot more difficult during the weekends. I do enjoy working out, aerobic dance is fun, wireless earbuds have been one of the best purchases that I made in 2020.
I did plan to get another hour of exercise in before the end of today, but I already did 30 minutes and that was a good start. Incorporating that into my routine each day is something that I’m still working on, but the gradual weight loss has been very encouraging to witness.
During this lockdown, I’ve really been interested in fitness and overall health in general, which has been an interesting journey by all means.
The end goal has always been to become healthier, in a gradual, healthy way and I honestly do believe it’ll be worth it in the end. Patience is difficult, I am the most impatient person on this planet.
Positive affirmations help too, keeping track of your progress and just knowing that these things take time, there is no transformation overnight.
Remembering to be kind to yourself is important, I know I’ve had my fair share of insecurities. It’s always so wonderful seeing others be body positive, and it reminds me that I’ll get there too, eventually.
Getting older, you feel more comfortable in your skin, and that’s very accurate to some extent. It can be such a complex subject, especially in today’s society.
Regardless, I’m proud of my progress so far, and it’s nice to feel good about yourself. When I reflect back to how teenage me felt, I just wish I could tell her that things will be okay.
Anyway, excuse the long essay on here. Stay safe & well.
January is almost coming to an end, it feels strange acknowledging that fact. Well, that and the fact that I have a lot of math study to do.
After writing this quick post, I’ll try and get some work done and hopefully go to sleep tonight. I wouldn’t recommend staying awake all night, the aftermath can be so awful, haha.
Regardless, the day hasn’t been too bad. I just find it hard to believe that the weekend is just around the corner, yet again. Lockdown makes every day seem either very abrupt or it drags on, every time you look at the clock.
Having a routine does help a lot, it keeps my mind from being cluttered with too many thoughts. I do want to start journaling and keeping track of my feelings and emotions. An offline diary of some kind, honestly.
I have messy handwriting, though. Apparently, that means you’re intelligent or something. But in all fairness, I’m just an intellectual who maybe thinks too much at times, and that ultimately gives me a lot to speak about.
This blog helps me with keeping it all balanced. Which I’m glad for.