Over the years, a lot has changed and evolved. But at the same time, it is not entirely different.
Maturity and wisdom has definitely helped shape my current mindset, as well as providing me with the necessary tools to navigate my path, help me understand and come to terms with things that I didn’t have the words for before, or the feelings and emotions that have found their way through this journey of life.
Looking back, being kind to myself was the last thing on the agenda, if at all important. Insecurities were heavily on my mind, they still are at times. Learning how to combat those hasn’t been easy.
Even now, despite being more at peace with myself, there are days where I think too much, or I don’t feel any particular way or it’s harder to articulate, and that’s okay.
So, in the years since I’ve focused on my wellbeing a lot more, and had time to reflect, what have I grown to love or embrace about life or myself? This is an interesting question indeed.
In fact, there’s quite a substantial list. For example, I love having my hair up, which is a small detail to some, but having a rounder face can make it complicated.
Also, another thing I’ve grown to love is short hair, or perhaps shoulder-length hair in particular. Growing up, I truly think I used my hair to hide my face and how round I thought it was. Once, I had a very evident bleach fail, where a lot of it broke off, so I cut off a lot of hair at the sides and dyed it electric blue. At the time, I didn’t appreciate it as much as I should have.
Would I dye my hair blue again? Absolutely.
Another thing I love now, is wearing no make-up. If my face has problems, I try and help/ease them with skincare, following a routine has done wonders, although I am more flexible with that these days.
Getting older has definitely helped me embrace my flaws, and to be grateful for my health and so much more. This will always be a journey, and I just want to be the best version of myself.
This post is longer than I usually write, but in my opinion, that means I’m feeling inspired and motivated, so I’ll take it.
Last half of the week has been interesting, emotively speaking.
Those heavy emotions can be a lot to process, hopefully as they subside, it’ll be a reason to create something positive out of the situation.
Just taking a deep breath, reminding yourself that it’s okay, it does help to some extent, depending on the intensity of your thoughts, of course.
Tomorrow is Friday, which is always good to know. I’ve got many things that need to be done, making a change to my hair tomorrow too, I honestly need a change at this point. It’s been nice giving my hair a break from all the dyes, bleaching and more, but sometimes you want a different look.
We’ll see how it goes, I’ve got back-up hair products in case, haha.
It’s April 1st and today is not any different, in my opinion.
The only fun part is the 4 day weekend, but it would have been more entertaining if current circumstances weren’t happening, I’m sure.
Hard to believe my birthday is next month, it doesn’t feel like it at all.
Time went by so quick, I often wonder if it’s just me thinking so or something else. Another month is here, nonetheless. The weather has been wonderful here, so that’s a positive.
Been in such an organizing mood recently, it’s just a shame certain furniture can be so expensive. I’m not picky, but I enjoy various aesthetics, whilst sticking to affordable prices. The more deals and ways to save money, the better.
Since the beginning of 2021, I’ve been so into saving money and tried to better with money as a whole.
That aside, I’m ready for the weekend to begin. Bring it on.
Being the midnight owl I am, there’s something about writing at night that is so relaxing and it puts my mind at ease. Inspiration strikes at strange times of the day.
Not been particularly inspired to write much this weekend, but I believe the best thing is to just be patient. I have a feeling I’ll be awake for quite some time because I fell asleep in the afternoon, typical me.
Saturday is almost over, unfortunately. It feels like it just started as well.
Tomorrow is laundry day, amongst other things, before the new week begins once more. Can you believe it’s Easter soon? I cannot.
It’s almost midnight here as I write this, how crazy. Got a few things to do before I eventually go to bed, yet I’m wide awake and alert.
A longer ramble than most, perhaps. There’s not many intriguing topics to discuss because of how predictable things have gotten in the last year.
We’ll see what the future has in store, right? Stay kind & aware.
Slightly nervous about tomorrow, although I am trying to remain hopeful despite all these emotions going on. Patience can be a complex thing.
I honestly feel so good today, though. Lovely food, incredibly productive with my household chores and cleaned the entire house (literally)
This might be a small thing to some, but for me, I appreciate all the accomplishments and achievements of the day, no matter how big or small they might be.
Going to bed shortly after posting this, should have studied more than I have, and I just hope that doesn’t impact my progress. For the most part, I’ve worked hard on a lot, which is not always possible due to many reasons and it depends on the day and how I feel.
Part of me wants to return to listening on 7cups (anonymous website/platform where you can reach out to someone etc) and it’s been on my mind quite often in the last few weeks. On the weekend, I’m definitely going to log in and check what’s new on there.
Anyway, enough of me rambling on. Have a wonderful evening!
Found it a little difficult knowing what to write, but I want to keep this streak of writing alive for the time being. After all, this is a personal blog.
I’ve been meaning to start work on my next book of poetry, although it’s still a work in progress. A lot is going on, but I’m feeling positive so far.
Focusing on my health is a priority at the moment, as well as other things alongside that. I am determined to stick to my resolutions this year, in a healthy and gradual way. I try not to call it ‘dieting’ as it can trigger unhealthy eating habits.
Being the impatient young woman I am, it can feel like this whole process is taking a long time, yet I do understand that it’s not an overnight change.
Anyway, I hope you’re all having a wonderful weekend.