Silent Observation

People assume, because you’re quiet, that nothing bothers you and you are simply not heard.

I have written a thousand times over, but still, ever lost in this maze of emotions and scenarios.

What do I want to happen? I simply cannot tell you. What do I seek from my experiences? Just some clarity, and guidance.

Silence is not a weakness, and I will no longer be silenced.

How It Pains Me To Feel Empty, A Poem

You could twist and turn it as much as you’d like, my darling
But the truth is, it wouldn’t change how it all feels on the inside

If one could paint their face happy, it’d be as easy as picking out
colorful pens and a clean, paper surface, or a new book to read

The mind is tragically overloaded, always heavy in thought 
And the heart, it is seemingly forever lost within, seeking a miracle

No amount of quick fixes could possibly alter your brain permanently, unless you’ve found a cure for misery, which I’m sure you haven’t, and a lot of people have tried, but failed


And it’s not a person’s first choice, do you really think their mind cares what advice or wisdom you might add to their list of manuals to read? No, of course it doesn’t

And it’s not because the person in mind doesn’t like seeing the care in front of them

It’s something deeper than just reading between their lines and transparent smiles 
Don’t worry, it pains them just as much as it pains you to see how it all is

How it pains me to feel empty, not knowing what I am worth as a person
Or what incredible things I could achieve if I just had a little bit of faith in myself
And my potential, not just for other people’s sake, but most of all, for my own closure


My heart is grateful, it always was and gratitude will show
As strength becomes a little easier to digest

But until that day comes, please, just be patient with me, I’m only human.

Heart Full Of Gratitude

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As many people know, I like to type as I think. That’s what makes this blog so complex and honest, because most of the posts are literally created within 15 minutes or less.

 

 

Depending on the content and editing, of course.

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It’s Never Too Late For A Change

Having time for your blog is sometimes not possible, and for the most part, it’s completely understandable; You have a life to live, stuff to do, people to see, chores to tick off your list.

 

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Why December Is THE Month Of All Years

There’s something truly magical about this time of year. We have a wonderful excuse to decorate our houses with everything gold, sparkly and shiny. It’s also another reason to spread some happiness and cheer with the people around us. Whether it’s family, close friends or new companions in life, it’s the memories we create that is of importance, not how long we know the person. But anyway, I’m excited for the remainder of 2017. I’ll likely cherish every moment, because I know it’s coming to an end soon, and it’s been quite a vital year for me, in terms of self-growth, independence, inner strength, love, and most of all: Happiness.

It’s been a little quiet on my blog and I’m sorry about that. Haven’t really had the time to post stuff on here, so it’s definitely not intentional. Also, I worked on a keepsake journal for most of October and November, which is in production right now, I’m really pleased about that. It’s not going to be listed for sale, I mainly just wanted to create something that is me and is my own little place to write down thoughts, I also included brand new poetry within this project, motivational pieces, and of course, some inspirational words of wisdom and clarity. It’s the journal for the journey, as I like to say.

 

It’s hard to believe I’ve now self-published two projects of mine. A poetry book and a self-help/care journal. Really proud of my accomplishments this year. My second book/collection of poetry will be out sometime in 2018. And it has a title…

 

A Cryptic Human Entity will be released in mid-2018 and will have approximately 50-75 pages and it’ll be my most personal collection to date. A carefully selected list of poetry with subjects such as lust, intense emotions, desire and passion. It’s still a work in progress as I write, but for this particular project, I really wanted to take my time in creating a preferred choice of depth, as well as a blank canvas for one’s truth to unveil. It is always important to write from the heart and to mean every word, and feel brave enough to open up about our darker, harder-to-reach emotions.

Even now, as I talk about my second book, it’s strange yet I am excited to complete my mission of honest creativity. In the past, I would have never considered doing something quite like this. Wouldn’t even have stuck to a blog like this. So, every little step is a new accomplishment in my eyes. Honestly grateful for all things I have witnessed and achieved in 2017. And I think next year will be even greater than the previous.

 
I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend, my next post will be up either tomorrow or Monday, depending on how inspired I am to write. Let’s hope my writer’s block doesn’t return for a while. xo

 

 

Writer’s Block And Creative Hiatuses

I have been meaning to update my blog for the longest amount of time, but a lot has been going on in life and I suppose a hiatus was necessary. Where does one begin? Got no idea.

Firstly, I’ve been to two concerts in the past month. With my little sister and on my own. Must admit, being alone made me such a nervous wreck, but fighting that fear is what I’m most proud of.

Writing for my book has been put on hold for the most part. I hope to resume writing at the start of December. It’s important not to stress yourself or force the creativity out of you, otherwise it’s not from the heart, but more of a complex situation of mind vs. expectations.

Being a perfectionist doesn’t help me. It just makes me loathe the writer’s block that stops me from being creative. Inspiration will hit, eventually, but when you lack the patience, it feels like eternity.

 

Anyway, I hope to keep my blog more frequently updated from the start of December, since November has been quite a month of events. Hope everyone is having a good Wednesday! Take care.

 

 

Hello, November – Second Book Thoughts

Well, well, well. Hello November, my dear friend. I’ve been anticipating your arrival for a while now and it’s so great to see you again. As much as the previous months have been a journey of self and reflection, I think this month will be my most exciting one yet. Here’s why…

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Writing Session #31

So, the last Writing Session is being written as we speak. It’s been quite a journey in terms of sticking to a writing routine. Proud of myself for not giving up on what could have been, easily, a disaster.

But all that said, I have enjoyed the idea of posting every day, whether it’s meaningful, deeper thoughts or simply, a ramble of the moment. The variation keeps the mind at peace, which is a good thing, I suppose.

WHAT HAS IT TAUGHT ME ABOUT BLOGGING?

A lot, actually. It has made me appreciate my blog a lot more. And also, if anyone noticed, I recently changed themes. This one is more sleek and nicer than the previous. Wanted to make it different and finally, I found it. Nothing quite like a good blog makeover. Personally, I’m quite satisfied.

NEXT ON MY BLOG AGENDA:

 

  • Editing of older posts.
  • Buying a good camera.
  • Regular posts and quotes.

Writing Session #28

Halloween is in three days! I’m usually not excited, but I like the idea of wearing black and having quality time with family. Who doesn’t, really. To think that November is around the corner not only excites me but scares me also. It’s like, where has time gone?

Each day is never short of an adventure or an obstacle to face in person. How we all go about living our lives and discovering different parts of us is and always will be either unpredictable, or the opposite. It all varies, depending on who we are as individuals.

Well…that’s me signing off for today. I’ll be sure to write another post tomorrow and talk a little more. But until then, I wish you a beautiful night and happiness all around you.

Writing Session #27

For the first time in this month, I didn’t exactly write much. But, I wanted to put together a little one for you to read now. Earlier was busier than usual, food was to be prepared, dishes to be cleaned and the house to organize. It takes a lot of energy and time to get everything done right. Very therapeutic, though. As well as being able to see an old friend of mine from school. So, perhaps it was worth it. To skip a writing session and spend time outside of the social media circle for one moment or a few. It’s well, so true…

I’ll be writing and publishing a new writing session for tomorrow, a reflective note to an old self. And, a chance to truly reflect on what I have learned about daily expression as a whole. What I have gained from doing this. As well as, simply putting more thought into what it says about this blog. DAYDREAM MADNESS is my happy place and it’s clarity too.