If there’s one thing I wish I was good at, it would definitely be drawing.
Often enough, I find myself so taken back at the talent of many gifted artists.
I also wish I could paint beautiful images on canvases too. Being able to express yourself through words is one thing, but creating a visual of your vision is another.
With this next project of mine, I genuinely wanted to take my time, perfect it accordingly to my heart’s content, whilst embracing the beauty of imperfections in the process.
It’s not all aesthetically pleasing, sometimes very far from it. But you can’t always judge a book by its cover, because you never know what magic lies within those pages.
To be honest, I’ve spent enough time being my own worst critic. In this chapter of life, all I want is to feel happy and inspired.
From an early age, I found a sanctuary in writing stuff down, not knowing if I would end up regretting doing so or being thankful that I ultimately did.
It’s not just about being creative, but having a passion for what you’re creating. In recent years, I’ve noticed a decline in motivation, particularly when it comes to writing, and that is very disheartening to witness, first-hand.
From being the young girl who couldn’t stop writing, to barely writing at all, it’s a very gradual yet abrupt shock to the system. The conflicted emotions I have about this come and go. Some days, I’m less critical of my lack of creative drive. Other times, it feels like a part of me is lost and trying to find myself again.
Yes, I update my blog on a daily basis, but sometimes, I don’t even feel like doing that. Not because I don’t like it anymore, and it’s kind of hard to explain as to why it has changed so much.
Things change as you get older, possibly. And truth be told, my old teenage self was slightly less emotionally filtered, more prone to saying too much in a way.
Has that changed as I’ve gotten older? Of course, to some extent. I genuinely try to think before I speak, you need to have some kind of boundary with yourself. Ensuring that what you’re putting out there is appropriate.
Before 2021 comes to an end, it is a goal of mine to begin the process of writing for my third poetry book, at least complete some part of it. I’m not entirely sure when I’ll manage to publish it, that depends on where I am at in my writing journey and what my instinct is telling me.
I’ve said this before too, being an introvert who loves to express herself is contradictory. Getting out of this shell is proving more difficult than I could have imagined.
There’s many factors and obstacles to overcome in my journey to becoming the best version of myself, in more ways than one.
Every journey varies, person to person. We’re all trying to figure things out. It’s just that, for some of us, it will take more time and I have to accept this.
This is a longer post than usual, but when you have inspiration in your heart to talk about something important, why waste the opportunity?
As always, I hope everyone is doing well and having a great day.
However, if not, just know that you are enough.
Been distracting myself all day with chores and exercise, it’s the only thing calming my nerves about tomorrow’s meeting/appointment etc. Not only that, I have an exam on Friday, so I’m praying that my mind doesn’t go blank on the day.
In other news, I do look forward to being out and about in the city, long walks can be very therapeutic. I must admit, being out more is strange, considering how most people have been indoors a lot of the time.
A strange time in life, definitely. What also is hard to believe is that it’s July soon. My perception of time has changed a lot in recent months.
Kind of tired but I want to bleach my roots. Anyway, there’s a chance I might fall asleep shortly. Typical Monday, it feels like. Productivity has been great though.
Hope you all have a great rest of your day!
One of the most productive days I’ve had in a long time. About a week, perhaps.
I do hope to write more, I just need the right time and inspiration to do so.
Forcing creativity does not help the writer’s block. It just makes it worse.
In due time, I’m sure it’ll work itself out, although my patience is wearing a bit thin.
Next few weeks are going to be hectic by the looks of it. Or maybe I just get overwhelmed easily.
We’ll see how it all goes, all you can really do is take it one day at a time.
I’m excited about next Saturday in particular though. Seeing family members again after so long is going to be wonderful.
Hope you’re all having a great Saturday, enjoy the weekend before it ends!
Not an ideal hour to study, but here we are. Gathered enough energy to start the weekend off right.
The next few weeks are going to be busy. Got an exam coming up, hopefully I don’t fail this one. There’s something about retaining information that my mind does not do well.
It’s already past 11pm too, I’m still incredibly exhausted even after sleeping a good amount.
Anyway, I’ll probably just leave it at that for now and if there’s anything else for me to ramble about over the weekend, perhaps I will.
Hope you all had a great Friday, cheers the weekend!
Last weekend before I’m officially a year older, and it’s Gemini season, as the title implies. Feeling quite optimistic, and I do know that I’m writing this at almost midnight, which usually doesn’t happen.
I really want to write this weekend, I just need to find my creative side and the right words for how I’m feeling and have felt in recent months.
This post might be short as I’m tired, but I’m hoping to get into more detail over the next few days or the next week. Until tomorrow’s post (or more, we’ll see) have a great Friday and let this Gemini season begin!
Despite the unfortunate weather, and the mixed emotions of the day, it wasn’t all too unbearable. It’s safe to say that I’ll be asleep sooner rather than later.
Already mid-week again, I don’t necessarily mind it because I get to do Math and take my mind off things (Who even am I anymore? haha)
It’s been a constant mix of apathy and motivation for me today.
Had the motivation to get things done, yet at the same time, there were elements of apathetic moments throughout the day as well.
On the bright side, my new exercise bike has been a great addition to the house. It makes me want to spend more time in the living room for once.
All the other stuff aside, I just wanted to say that it’s important to look after yourself. That’s something I’ve tried to keep a priority, regardless of how my day is going to be.
Not the most interesting post I’ve ever made on this blog, but perhaps tomorrow will inspire me further? Until then, have a great Wednesday.
Found myself in organizational/cleaning mode for most of the day and I’m kind of glad.
I just love those days of productivity and motivation. To think we’re halfway through April is so strange to think about.
Next month is my birthday, and also the 6th anniversary of this beautiful space on the internet. There’s a lot of stuff coming up on the calendar, some good, some less than that.
Although, for the most part, remaining positive is the main objective right now. Things are great though, changing my hair has also been so therapeutic and beneficial.
Think I’ll go to sleep soon, have a wonderful day.
A more consistent blogging schedule is what I am aiming for, in the long run.
I do find myself struggling at times, whether it’s with blog post ideas, diverse concepts and other various writing related issues. However, not all days are like this, inspiration does occur, although not as often as I would like it to.
Writing more can be a little tricky, if you’ve got creative blocks, or just a lack of inspiration in general.
Self-expression is such a wonderful outlet, it makes me feel better, writing stuff down helps declutter my mind, it keeps my thoughts balanced, for the most part.
Don’t be afraid to talk about your emotions, that’s all I’m saying.
Organizing the house can be so good, especially when you have a break from other things in life.
As much as I love sleep, relaxing and not doing much, I definitely have days where all I do is clean the house, wash the dishes, vacuum all the rooms. Things like that do bring me a lot of joy, it’s also beneficial for my mental health on days where motivating myself is just difficult.
Finding a good balance helps. It’s not always easy, but in time, you can do it.
Each journey of life is different, might I add. As always, I only speak for myself, and sharing my experiences and thoughts is comforting, very therapeutic too. That being said, I’ll end this post here.
Anyway, I hope you all have a great day.