Got everyone by 8pm, which is very rare, as I often get quite distracted from too many tasks at one time. Hoping tomorrow will be equally as rewarding.
I honestly want to start work on the new book project, but I have no idea where to begin. It’s been a while since I created the last collection, so I’m currently stuck on what theme I have in mind.
A part of me wants to stick with the original concept, but I feel like I’ve outgrown the subject matter, in a way.
For some reason, the darker things were easier to express on paper, when no one could see any of it. There’s so much I have left to say, about many things in particular. How I word these feelings will be interesting.
It’s all a work in progress, but I do want this year to be creatively productive and I do want to challenge myself. This comfort zone of mine doesn’t help much.
With poetry, or any kind of writing, there’s a lot to consider.
I’ll probably go into more detail in the next few days or so, but in the meantime, I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe.
Before I go to bed soon, I just wanted to quickly make a post.
Finding a lot of comfort in writing on the blog again, and I appreciate it more than words can describe. It took a long time to find my way back here, but now that my writer’s block is finally at bay, and I’m writing on a regular basis, it stops my mind from being too cluttered with thoughts, feelings, opinions etc.
At some point, I’m starting work on this next book, trying not to rush myself with this project. As impatient as I am, getting older definitely teaches you a thing or two.
My birthday is in less than four months time, which is a strange feeling, to say the least. I’m a proud Gemini! Very much complicated, with good intentions at heart.
I’ve got gratitude for days, like the title implies.
Grateful for my family, friends, my faith in the Lord and the positive energy around me. I have no idea what the future holds for me, but you can always wonder.
Having the willpower to stay on track with exercise and eating well seems a lot more difficult during the weekends. I do enjoy working out, aerobic dance is fun, wireless earbuds have been one of the best purchases that I made in 2020.
I did plan to get another hour of exercise in before the end of today, but I already did 30 minutes and that was a good start. Incorporating that into my routine each day is something that I’m still working on, but the gradual weight loss has been very encouraging to witness.
During this lockdown, I’ve really been interested in fitness and overall health in general, which has been an interesting journey by all means.
The end goal has always been to become healthier, in a gradual, healthy way and I honestly do believe it’ll be worth it in the end. Patience is difficult, I am the most impatient person on this planet.
Positive affirmations help too, keeping track of your progress and just knowing that these things take time, there is no transformation overnight.
Remembering to be kind to yourself is important, I know I’ve had my fair share of insecurities. It’s always so wonderful seeing others be body positive, and it reminds me that I’ll get there too, eventually.
Getting older, you feel more comfortable in your skin, and that’s very accurate to some extent. It can be such a complex subject, especially in today’s society.
Regardless, I’m proud of my progress so far, and it’s nice to feel good about yourself. When I reflect back to how teenage me felt, I just wish I could tell her that things will be okay.
Anyway, excuse the long essay on here. Stay safe & well.
January is almost coming to an end, it feels strange acknowledging that fact. Well, that and the fact that I have a lot of math study to do.
After writing this quick post, I’ll try and get some work done and hopefully go to sleep tonight. I wouldn’t recommend staying awake all night, the aftermath can be so awful, haha.
Regardless, the day hasn’t been too bad. I just find it hard to believe that the weekend is just around the corner, yet again. Lockdown makes every day seem either very abrupt or it drags on, every time you look at the clock.
Having a routine does help a lot, it keeps my mind from being cluttered with too many thoughts. I do want to start journaling and keeping track of my feelings and emotions. An offline diary of some kind, honestly.
I have messy handwriting, though. Apparently, that means you’re intelligent or something. But in all fairness, I’m just an intellectual who maybe thinks too much at times, and that ultimately gives me a lot to speak about.
This blog helps me with keeping it all balanced. Which I’m glad for.
Certain things have changed, which I only found out via a brief phone call.
Lack of communication can be incredibly frustrating, but I suppose that’s how it is sometimes. That said, I do still have hope. How much of it I’ll have left as time goes on, only time will tell. For the time being, I remain neutral on the subject.
I doubt I’ll sleep much, so I’ll probably be writing, possibly be checking my emails and completing math work for my online course, take my mind off the stress.
Remaining positive is the main objective, although it can be difficult when your emotions are all over the place. What usually helps me is music, writing on the blog and staying hydrated. (In my case, it’s water)
What I listen to is very much influenced by how I feel, as it is for most people, right? Anyway, I still have a lot to be grateful for, and mindful of.
Remember to take a deep breath, be kind to yourself and others.
This week has been challenging and humbling, to say the least.
If there’s anything I take away from this, it’s that when life gives you lemons, either make lemonade or remain bitter. It can be tough seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, when it seems like things are heading towards one direction, and not the one you were hoping for.
Grateful in this moment for family, friends, and the ability to see beyond the lines, and also read between them when necessary too.