Scared To Fail

We all have our fears, and those moments of being scared to fail. Whether it’s work related, academically or any other challenge we face as life progresses on.

Truth be told, people achieve things at different stages of life, and that’s okay. We don’t all have it figured out at 18, 25, or even in our 30’s.

In the society we currently find ourselves a part of, we’ve been conditioned to believe that success is measured in the superficial, idealistic and materialistic.

Yes, some might be more knowledgeable, confident and perhaps better equipped than others. But it doesn’t mean that other people’s contribution as a whole is not as important.

The idea that we’re only worthy of a decent life if we work more hours than our mind can handle, and we look a certain way, act a certain way. Keeping up appearances might be sustainable in the short-term, but the facade of it all will come crashing down, eventually.

Don’t even get me started on how much I can’t stand the hypocrisy of equality and the lack of it in society. We have a lot of laws in place about treating people fairly, but so much of it is just empty words at this point.

Nothing is ever what it appears to be, I know that much.

Different rules apply for different people, which has been in plain sight for many years. We have a long way to go until we achieve any kind of fairness in the world. There’s a lot to work on, and only time will tell how that goes.

When some people say “reality is stranger than fiction”, it’s safe to say, you’re right. If the world needs more of anything, I can think of quite a few things.

The world needs more compassion, fairness, love, empathy, kindness.

I just hope humanity changes for the better.

Mila. Xo

Escapism In Expression

Been distracting myself all day with chores and exercise, it’s the only thing calming my nerves about tomorrow’s meeting/appointment etc. Not only that, I have an exam on Friday, so I’m praying that my mind doesn’t go blank on the day.

In other news, I do look forward to being out and about in the city, long walks can be very therapeutic. I must admit, being out more is strange, considering how most people have been indoors a lot of the time.

A strange time in life, definitely. What also is hard to believe is that it’s July soon. My perception of time has changed a lot in recent months.

Kind of tired but I want to bleach my roots. Anyway, there’s a chance I might fall asleep shortly. Typical Monday, it feels like. Productivity has been great though.

Hope you all have a great rest of your day!

Mila. Xo

Bliss Of Peaceful Sundays

Think I finally got the rest I needed today, which is great. We shall see if I go to sleep soon. Got a lot of revision to do, places to go on Tuesday, and an exam on the 25th.

I’m honestly nervous, because my memory has been so terrible in the last few weeks.

Studying definitely needs to be a priority, my brain needs to retain all that information.

All I want now is a creativity boost so I can write a bit more. Would love to work on stories later in life too.

But for now, this will be enough. I adore my blog. Hope you’re all doing okay. Have a great day!

Mila. Xo

Ahead Of Time

One last minute entry on the blog before I completely forget to update it.

Sat here on my bed, ticking things off my list. I don’t know why, but my mind goes into overdrive when I know there’s certain places to go, people to see.

This next week is going to be a lot, although I’m sure things will get easier in time.

Yet another weekend too, how fun. Let’s hope this one doesn’t end as soon as it starts.

Happy Friday!

Mila. Xo

Busy Friday Ahead

Almost midnight here, tomorrow is Friday and I have a lot to get done on that day.

My mind is racing, too many thoughts at once. Not necessarily a bad thing, I suppose I’m a perfectionist when it comes to planning.

There’s a chance I might fall asleep. Luckily, I managed to write a list of what I need to get done tomorrow. Saturday is going to be fun.

Usually I look forward to the weekend, but when I have important things to do, it makes me kind of stressed at times.

Nonetheless, it’s going to be eventful. Life does not have one dull moment, I can tell you that much.

Mila. Xo

Things To Look Forward To

I almost forgot to write today, but thankfully I managed to remind myself in time.

A semi-productive day, with a few tasks to be accomplished yet. Got a lot of revision to do in the next few weeks, train tickets to book and much more.

Despite how unpredictable life has been for the longest time, I’m trying to remain on the optimistic side of things, as difficult as that may be at times.

The one thing I am looking forward to the most, is seeing family members for the first time in almost 18 months.

What I also look forward to is completing more work on this next poetry book of mine. Maybe I’ll complete it this year, or perhaps in the next year or so, we’ll see.

As always, I hope you all have a great day.

Mila. Xo

Intuitive Mindset

Following my intuition has been a learning curb & then some.

I used to listen to my gut instinct often. Over time, I ended up missing the memo on a lot of inconsistencies, whether it related to people or my own habits, inspiration or lack thereof, and motivation some days.

Becoming more in sync with this is on my list of things to improve, as much as one can possibly achieve without making it too big of a deal.

Not entirely sure why I felt like talking about this particular subject. Might go into more detail in a future post or two.

Kind of exhausted right now, apologies if this sounds like a ramble and a half. Enjoy the rest of your Saturday!

Mila. Xo

We Meet Again, Hello June

It’s a new month, once more. To think six months have gone by already, that is strange yet intriguing.

Had plenty of good ideas on what to write, but when you’ve got the flu, you just need to take a step back, focus on your health and rest, so that’s what I’ve been doing for the most part.

My energy levels might be low right now, but my optimism isn’t. That being said, I’m currently writing this as I contemplate what time to sleep, or if I can sleep at all tonight. Congestion is not fun.

But, I’m not letting that get in the way of a lot, although exercise is something that I have been less focused on.

That’s not a bad thing, of course. I try and listen to what my body is telling me.

Hope you’re all having a good day and I’ll speak to you more on the next entry of the blog.

Mila. Xo

Paint Monday Blue

When things don’t quite go to plan, your stress levels can go through the roof if you’re not careful. At least, that’s how it felt for me today.

Monday felt particularly blue, so I definitely made an effort to be kind to myself. It can be easy to get overwhelmed by our thoughts in the moment, experienced that one too many times in my life.

I actually found myself buying a self-help audiobook out of curiosity about how to manage emotions in times of feeling this way. That was certainly helpful, hearing other people’s experiences and what helps them balance it all out.

Easier said than done, as I’m sure a lot of people will say about this too.

If the past year has taught me anything, it’s that looking after yourself and your mental health is so important. When you nurture your mind, your body and your soul, everything else will fall into place, eventually.

Mila. Xo

Kindness, Empathy And Growth

In the last three years, I’ve had so much clarity about many things.

When you see things in a different light, from a perspective you never considered before, it can change you somewhat. It doesn’t happen overnight, but the little details make a big difference.

Hasn’t been an easy journey to take, yet I feel life has only just begun for me. Learning to set boundaries, being kinder to yourself and making decisions based on the data your mind has been collecting all this time. That’s what I want to continue with.

I used to worry so much about people’s opinion of me, tried to be the person they wanted me to be, and ultimately found myself lost in the depths of my insecurities.

Acceptance took a long time, plus you lose a lot of people in the process.

Despite the harsh reality of it all, you just have to face it. Gradually or all at once. It’s uncomfortable, scary, hard to tell which way it’s going to turn out.

We also need more kindness in the world, especially with all the hatred and chaos. Empathy is important, although it depends on the situation and the person, I know.

It all varies, that’s the very obvious thing in all of this. I can’t always find the right words for how I feel, which is okay. We discover new things every day, whether it’s about ourselves or others.

Honestly, I’m still learning and discovering. Where life will take me, and the path I’ll be on the next second, who knows. I don’t even think I’d want to know all the outcomes.

All I know is, I want to be kind, empathetic and I want my self-growth to continue to evolve and strengthen with time. Not sure if this all makes sense, but maybe some of it does.

Just some thoughts I had tonight, and as always, have a good night and I’ll be back tomorrow with another entry on the blog.

Mila. Xo