It Takes You Home

When I was little, I spent a lot of quality time with my grandmother.

She used to knit, whilst I cut up old pieces of clothing to sew together a little cotton bag for myself, or two.

Looking back on it now, it truly sinks in, the realization that you’re gone.

No longer do I see, the smile that lit up the room. Your loving words of encouragement as I began to blossom, like the butterflies in your garden.

Our moments, I cherish more than I ever knew my heart could. This is the reality of losing you.

Hours That Follow, A Poem Draft From Book #3

There’s something about the midnight hour, I can’t understand how it works, or if it calms my soul enough to heal my battle wounds.

Either way, it builds my core, to the point of nausea. You push yourself to the edge and somehow recover, just to fall back on your word again.

It’s a continuous cycle, the same routine of thought, as time leads you on a journey.

You can either hide in denial, or confront your darkest personality traits in depth.

To cut ties with fear of abandonment, a need for approval; Am I losing touch with reality or am I too aware of my own weaknesses and destructive mindset?

It takes a lot to admit defeat, and admit that you’re a broken individual.

So for the time being, love your fellow entities that surround the halls of your mind. For the present hour, cherish the hours that follow.

Be fearless, love the obstacles that test you. Kill the fear that haunts your path.

Free the mind, cure the anxiety of not knowing what’s going to happen next.

Silent Observation

People assume, because you’re quiet, that nothing bothers you and you are simply not heard.

I have written a thousand times over, but still, ever lost in this maze of emotions and scenarios.

What do I want to happen? I simply cannot tell you. What do I seek from my experiences? Just some clarity, and guidance.

Silence is not a weakness, and I will no longer be silenced.

New Year 2019 – Daily Blog Posts?

Hi everyone, I hope you’ve had an amazing first day of 2019. Just wanted to write a quick post, and I’ll start posting daily on the blog from now on. 2018 was tough, and writing wasn’t fun to do at all previously, so I really wanted to make an effort this time and stick to my word of consistent posts, and have a balanced routine of thoughts, poems, opinions, so forth.

Thank you to the ones who check my blog often, you’re incredible,

to say the least.

I’m excited to see what the year holds for me, personally. Of course, I did a resolutions post about a week and a half ago, which I’ll be trying to focus on.

How was your first day of 2019?

And like I said, I’ll be on here every day from now on. May you all have a wonderful day or night, depending on where you are and such.

Take care, everyone!

Yours Truly,

Mila xo

Living In The Now For A While

So good to finally be updating DAYDREAM MADNESS yet again…

It’s been more quiet than usual on this blog, but it’s only because I have been on antibiotics since Monday. Not going to lie, the side-effects have been awful at times.

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2017: An Experience To Remember

You really do learn a lot over the course of 12 months. Time doesn’t stand still for anyone and that’s just one of those things. Which, of course, is why people should not waste their remaining hours, months, days. It’s all about making good use of your resources etc.

 

There are experiences to remember, challenges to face and obstacles to overcome.

 

Life isn’t meant to be perfect, and the sooner we acknowledge that, the better. We often confuse fake smiles for true, wealth for happiness, and love, as if to calculate our own value and place in this world.

 

Better things will occur, better people will arrive, better memories will happen.


The complexity of life is what makes it a journey, so don’t lose yourself in temporary clouds of mind. We all have moments of doubt, and that’s not a crime to feel.

 

I personally thank everyone who has ever supported me and this blog, my year has been so great and so inspiring because of you.

 

As I enter my third year of blogging soon, I hope to further develop my work, and keep writing to my heart’s content. May the next year be full of light, love and clarity.

 

Note to self: Leave your fears behind. You are capable of wonderful things.

 

Don’t Settle For Less: Understand Your Worth.

Being self-aware is good to an extent. On the bright side, you see through people’s lies with ease, reality doesn’t seem as bad as the promises people break on a daily basis.

It somehow helps you understand the difference between genuine and counterfeit.

Guarding yourself from disappointment and betrayal is one thing, but of course, you can’t always guarantee that it will work like you hoped it would. For the most part, the people you encounter, their words and actions ultimately shape your outlook on many things, for years to come. And that’s just how life goes at times. It’s so inevitable.

No heart can stay guarded forever though, obviously, we all know that by now.

Although, knowing too much is sometimes not that wonderful. It can lead you down a path of trust issues, insecurities within you and self and a lot more. The more you know, the more it inevitably hurts. Knowing that someone you care about really doesn’t feel the same about you.

That’s probably the hardest thing to acknowledge when it comes down to it.

But seriously though, it is! Learning to not accept less than you deserve. To love who you are and what you are to become, before thinking of someone else for once in your life.

Don’t settle for less: understand your worth. Know that there is someone out there who will appreciate you for every ounce of individuality and love within your heart and soul.

Writing Session #18

Today has been a wonderful day. I’ve officially started work on the second book and I am feeling positive about the last few months of the year. 2017 has been good to me, on so many levels. A few bumps and hard times on my path, but that’s all part of life and the journey ahead of you.

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The Broken People Are Still Worthy

People have strong points and weaknesses. It’s not a crime to feel happy or sad and it’s not wrong to feel the emotion that we do.

This is what makes us human, even vulnerable at times. But it should never define you as a person.

Often enough, people like to point out that I don’t have a job, even though there’s a personal reason why, that my anxiety was and still is just another word for “lazy”, and that my depressive tendencies were an excuse to stay locked inside my own thoughts.

But the truth is, some people find a twisted pleasure in my failed attempts of independence. When something goes wrong or I personally feel terrible, it’s their joy in life.

I’m a known introvert, perhaps a social outcast, definitely a loser in some people’s eyes. But, there’s always a reason for my melancholy state of mind. Of course, it’s easier to judge me than display compassion.

All I can say is, a person’s pain is not something to laugh at. We all have different situations and complicated lives.

Listen to your family, cherish the loyal friends in your life, have long talks with the ones you know and love. Don’t abuse trust for a minute of gossip.

Back To Basics: Writing Routines

Back to blogging, finally! I can’t express how glad I am, to be updating DAYDREAM MADNESS, with another (hopefully) interesting post.

A lot has happened, but I think writing about it all would take a whole book’s worth, so let’s keep it simple for now.

The sun is out and so is the positive energy surrounding me. I just love the idea of new scenery, the beauty of it all is so inspiring for the creative mind.

I’ve not completely abandoned my work or the progress in terms of my poetry book. In fact, two or three new and finished poems have been completed.

There’s just editing and development to take into consideration. So, this has been a great time for me on a creative level.

A lot needs to be done, although the progress so far has been greater than I could ever have imagined. Plus, with incredibly creative friends in my life, the cover will be just as exciting to see finished as the book has been to write.

I’ll be updating my blog more frequently from this point on. If not every day, then perhaps once every two or three days, depending on my phone’s battery level and the amount of time to put something together.

Well, I’ll be sure to keep you posted. Take care, have a beautiful day! Xo