Today was a lot, but I’m so grateful for the strength that faith has given me, even on the days where I feel defeated.
Saying that my gratitude is in abundance would be an understatement.
All I know is, life is precious and so is our time.
God Bless.
Mila. Xo
Societal pressures and the irony of so-called “encouragement” when it comes to being your authentic self is a lot for anyone.
Feeling out of place can weigh heavy on your mind. We’re told our differences make us unique, and that humanity is evolving and becoming more equal, but is it really?
The hypocrisy of it all. If I’m being completely honest, not much has changed.
Yes, there’s been improvements along the way, but we have a long way to go until the world is a more equal, kind place.
Toxicity is all around us; the places we work, the people we know. As much as I strive to be enthusiastic, there comes a time where you see it all for how it is.
It’s so confusing to live in a world where individuality is either praised or not accepted.
When all you want is to just be you, but other people make that so difficult.
The game of life is hard to play, you never know what’s going to happen next. All you can do is hope that it will all be okay.
One day, the puzzle pieces will fall into place and maybe, a bit of peace will come from that.
Who knows. Anyway, I hope I’m not rambling, although this was something I wanted to talk about today.
Hope you’re all doing well.
Mila. Xo
Writing used to be easier than this, the amount of times I’ve had writer’s block in the last few years is not great.
It went from constant inspiration at my fingertips, to barely being able to express myself in words at all.
Self-expression is an escape from the stresses of life, so is journaling, which I should do more of.
Being your own worst critic can be a blessing or a curse, maybe a little bit of both? A reason to do better, but at the same time, too much expectation leads to disappointment.
Hoping for more inspiration in the long run. We’ll see how the week goes.
Happy Monday 🙂
Mila. Xo
I almost forgot to write today, but thankfully I managed to remind myself in time.
A semi-productive day, with a few tasks to be accomplished yet. Got a lot of revision to do in the next few weeks, train tickets to book and much more.
Despite how unpredictable life has been for the longest time, I’m trying to remain on the optimistic side of things, as difficult as that may be at times.
The one thing I am looking forward to the most, is seeing family members for the first time in almost 18 months.
What I also look forward to is completing more work on this next poetry book of mine. Maybe I’ll complete it this year, or perhaps in the next year or so, we’ll see.
As always, I hope you all have a great day.
Mila. Xo
Another one of those nights where I seem to stay up writing in the last minute because not doing so would feel absurd.
Today’s blog entry might be a little short and more spontaneous, but I’m working on it as we speak.
Almost midnight, yet I’m finding it difficult to hibernate for the night. I’ll sleep soon, I promise.
The day has been relatively balanced, with hints of anxiety here and there, in which my inner response was: I had to simply concentrate on other things.
A clean slate for a new day, I tell myself.
My birthday is in two days, almost one if I think about it. It’s a strange feeling, getting older. You learn a lot, or at least in my own experiences.
The more my blog grows and blossoms, I can’t help but feel immense gratitude for the ones who have supported me along the way. It shows me that I’m doing something right, despite how small the achievement might look like currently.
So thank you, for being such a light in my life. And as always, have a beautiful day, or night, depending on where you are in the world.
Mila. Xo
In the last three years, I’ve had so much clarity about many things.
When you see things in a different light, from a perspective you never considered before, it can change you somewhat. It doesn’t happen overnight, but the little details make a big difference.
Hasn’t been an easy journey to take, yet I feel life has only just begun for me. Learning to set boundaries, being kinder to yourself and making decisions based on the data your mind has been collecting all this time. That’s what I want to continue with.
I used to worry so much about people’s opinion of me, tried to be the person they wanted me to be, and ultimately found myself lost in the depths of my insecurities.
Acceptance took a long time, plus you lose a lot of people in the process.
Despite the harsh reality of it all, you just have to face it. Gradually or all at once. It’s uncomfortable, scary, hard to tell which way it’s going to turn out.
We also need more kindness in the world, especially with all the hatred and chaos. Empathy is important, although it depends on the situation and the person, I know.
It all varies, that’s the very obvious thing in all of this. I can’t always find the right words for how I feel, which is okay. We discover new things every day, whether it’s about ourselves or others.
Honestly, I’m still learning and discovering. Where life will take me, and the path I’ll be on the next second, who knows. I don’t even think I’d want to know all the outcomes.
All I know is, I want to be kind, empathetic and I want my self-growth to continue to evolve and strengthen with time. Not sure if this all makes sense, but maybe some of it does.
Just some thoughts I had tonight, and as always, have a good night and I’ll be back tomorrow with another entry on the blog.
Mila. Xo
Do you ever hear or see something that leaves you in a deep train of thought for the rest of the evening? That’s so me tonight.
I think I’ve managed to navigate my emotions to a happier place, for the time being. How long that will last, who knows, but I appreciate it and try to embrace it.
Emotions can be so complex and hard to navigate, process and understand in a logical way. Truth be told, that has been me many times.
As I’m getting older, the appreciation for my strength during the darkest of times has only increased. It reminds me that life is a journey, and healing of any kind takes a lot of patience.
Wasn’t planning to talk about this, but I felt compelled to.
All I can say is: take your time, it’ll get better.
That’s all for today, stay safe.
Mila. Xo
It’s been a surprisingly good day.
Despite the fact that I’m absolutely exhausted from my walk earlier and so nervous about getting my exam result at some point next week, the hope is still there.
Was close to falling asleep before, so gathering some energy to write a quick post on here took a lot.
A long weekend, you can’t complain about that, can you?
My birthday is also getting closer by the hour and I’m still very conflicted.
Yes, getting older is great, you learn so much in a small space of time and I’m grateful.
It can be quite bittersweet sometimes, though.
All in all, happy Friday everyone!
Mila. Xo
Hello and happy Sunday to all of you reading.
I hope it’s been a wonderful day, and that the end of the weekend isn’t too bittersweet.
Apart from a few things to do, I’ve mainly just taken the time to unwind, clear my mind and focus on self-care for the most part.
There’s a few things that have plagued my thoughts in the last couple of days, but it should all be okay. Keeping yourself balanced can be difficult, especially if you have worries about someone or something.
Hope keeps me going, love keeps me grateful.
Mila. Xo
Sometimes, taking a moment to think before we do or say something is the difference between wrong and right choices in life. At times, I can find myself being impulsive, in terms of buying certain things or making a change somehow (hair bleach sessions included)
Almost bleached my hair earlier, funnily enough. Until I styled my hair in a different way, which made me appreciate my brunette, messy curls. Tomorrow is Easter Sunday, so I’m looking forward to that.
Faith is such a big part of my daily life, more so with each day that passes by. Makes me so grateful for the people in my life and the positive changes that have occurred in recent years. And I also believe it keeps me close to my late grandmother. In May, it’ll be the fifth anniversary of her passing and that’s so surreal.
I just hope I make her proud, on this complicated journey of life and experiences.
Mila. Xo
DAYDREAM MADNESS 
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