Fragile Aspects Of Life

Life is nothing like we envisioned, as little children. We’ve been taught to believe that we’re just a puzzle piece to place, another foundation to lay.

Our state of mind crumbles, as we see the world for what it is. Disguised as a flaw, seen as a weakness.

Instead of encouraging one another, we have been programmed to function, in a different manner.

We’re motivated by our greed, the pressure to succeed is inevitably a weight on our shoulders.

If only some of us had the voice or the courage to break the stigma, once and for all. But of course, talking about taboo subjects is another challenge, in place.

Anyone who does, I’m forever intrigued and inspired by you.

Hours That Follow, A Poem Draft From Book #3

There’s something about the midnight hour, I can’t understand how it works, or if it calms my soul enough to heal my battle wounds.

Either way, it builds my core, to the point of nausea. You push yourself to the edge and somehow recover, just to fall back on your word again.

It’s a continuous cycle, the same routine of thought, as time leads you on a journey.

You can either hide in denial, or confront your darkest personality traits in depth.

To cut ties with fear of abandonment, a need for approval; Am I losing touch with reality or am I too aware of my own weaknesses and destructive mindset?

It takes a lot to admit defeat, and admit that you’re a broken individual.

So for the time being, love your fellow entities that surround the halls of your mind. For the present hour, cherish the hours that follow.

Be fearless, love the obstacles that test you. Kill the fear that haunts your path.

Free the mind, cure the anxiety of not knowing what’s going to happen next.

Stepping Back Into It: Perfectionist Issues

Taking the time to sit down and write something each day is refreshing, to say the very least. For most of last year, I found it impossible to put my ideas into perspective.

As someone who has written for most of her life, I am constantly looking for ways to improve my work, and I definitely found myself editing my words more than usual, rarely satisfied or content with the end result. Maybe, I’m just a perfectionist.

I am hoping that 2019 will put my mind at ease, a little bit. To not worry about people’s opinions so much, and to remember that I am just a human being who is trying to bring herself joy through self-expression as a whole.

This blog has helped me in many ways, which I am forever grateful for. And I met some incredible souls because of it. Can you believe it’s been almost 4 years since I started? Neither can I.

May you all have an amazing year ahead of you.

Breaking The Ice: Heavy Thoughts & Resolutions 2019

Hello, world. I am finally back on the blog, just in time
for my annual resolutions post for the coming New Year.

You have NO idea, just how much I have missed updating-and expressing my thoughts on this platform of mine. For months on end,
I have seen others create incredible content, and envied the fact that their hearts were so inspired and motivated to do so. Keep it up, you inspire me!

Good To Be Writing Again

It’s been a rollercoaster of emotion, bittersweet encounters, and endless obstacles. But through it all, I have kept my composure and sanity in tact.

The same really can’t be said for others, however. I have experienced more betrayal and disloyalty this year, than any other. And to this day, I still can’t wrap my head around it entirely. Truth be told, I gave them enough chances.

A Struggle To Express

For weeks, I have been trying to put together this post as a whole, it was a lot harder than I anticipated. If it wasn’t for the love and support of my family and friends, I would have felt differently about 99% of 2018’s life experiences and unfortunate events. God truly blessed me in that way.

It Was A Tough Year

Ever since the year began, cracks surfaced. Things escalated to the point of no return. The damage has been done, but the strength within, it continues to thrive.

Keep Your Hope Alive

I also found myself closer to religion and faith, which I truly believe has saved me, in more ways than one. When you open your eyes to the truth, you see things from a new perspective. It helps you grow as a person, stay connected to your core beliefs and values.

Reflection & Acceptance

We are not without flaws as human beings, but having the maturity to reflect and learn from our life lessons is so important. You can only dwell on your denial for a certain amount of time, before it all collapses.

You’re Only Human

Sure, a lot of us will keep making tiny mistakes every once in a while, and we’ll most likely never learn entirely, but that’s okay too. Just because you fall once, it doesn’t mean you’re not going to get back up again.

Stay True To You

As long as you’re conscious of what is happening around you, and you’re acknowledging the root causes and accepting it for what it is, that’s a good start. We aren’t perfect, which is what makes us human. Some of us are more reserved, some of us, more outspoken. Individually complex.

For 2019’s resolutions, I wanted to keep it simple and straightforward.

Here’s my tiny list:

  • submit a lot of poetry submissions
  • write for my third book of poems
  • become a healthier person (body, mind etc)
  • read the whole Bible in its entirety
  • upgrade the blog again

What are your resolutions for the New Year?

Obstacles…Where Do I Begin?

Hi all!

It’s Mila here, with a new blog post to share, finally.

Haven’t been posting a lot in recent months, I try and not clog up your feeds with too much emotive rambling, or heavy ranting…although, I have been tempted enough times.

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Actions Really Do Speak Louder Than Words

If there is anything life has taught me over the past few years, it’s that actions really do speak louder than words. This is not ideal for most of us, but for the majority, it’s a vital part of self-growth, a test of our strength as an individual, but sometimes we really need a good wake-up call in order to move forward in our lives.

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Peace In Finding The Right Words

It’s been a little easier to write and talk since that previous blog post, or should I dare say; my open letter to “you”.

Although it took a while to find the right words, my heart feels more at ease now. Sometimes you just have to be honest, it’s never healthy to suppress what is bothering you.

And in the end, once the storm has passed, you ultimately feel a little stronger.

That’s just life, I guess. A continuous cycle of scenarios, obstacles, challenges and bittersweet moments. But there’s also a lot of wonderful experiences that somehow coincide with the madness of it all.

Life is complex, but also worthwhile once you’re on the right path. It doesn’t happen overnight, yet change is constant, whether we notice it or simply ignore it. We simply have to make the best of our remaining time and presence.

Writing seemed easier today for some reason, so I took the time to update the blog as well as give you an insight into the thoughts of a complex human with good intentions.

Hard to believe I’ve been blogging on here for almost three years, where has the time gone?!

Anyway, I sincerely hope you all have a great Saturday! Take care and see you soon.

Mila.

How It Pains Me To Feel Empty, A Poem

You could twist and turn it as much as you’d like, my darling
But the truth is, it wouldn’t change how it all feels on the inside

If one could paint their face happy, it’d be as easy as picking out
colorful pens and a clean, paper surface, or a new book to read

The mind is tragically overloaded, always heavy in thought 
And the heart, it is seemingly forever lost within, seeking a miracle

No amount of quick fixes could possibly alter your brain permanently, unless you’ve found a cure for misery, which I’m sure you haven’t, and a lot of people have tried, but failed


And it’s not a person’s first choice, do you really think their mind cares what advice or wisdom you might add to their list of manuals to read? No, of course it doesn’t

And it’s not because the person in mind doesn’t like seeing the care in front of them

It’s something deeper than just reading between their lines and transparent smiles 
Don’t worry, it pains them just as much as it pains you to see how it all is

How it pains me to feel empty, not knowing what I am worth as a person
Or what incredible things I could achieve if I just had a little bit of faith in myself
And my potential, not just for other people’s sake, but most of all, for my own closure


My heart is grateful, it always was and gratitude will show
As strength becomes a little easier to digest

But until that day comes, please, just be patient with me, I’m only human.

Stress, Poor Health & Milestones (250 Followers!)

Hello again! It’s been a while. Sorry for my lack of activity in the past week. 

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Quit Your Ego, It Does Not Make You Look Good

Now, I honestly like people with strong personalities. If you can be honest, consistent, straight to the point and still have a good heart, that’s always a wonderful thing, in my book.

 

That’s something I will always admire and respect. However, there’s some people who quite clearly don’t know the difference between a bold personality and having an ego.

 

Material assets might make you successful and wealthy, but if you have an ugly attitude and no respect for other people, then all of that means nothing to me and we’ll never be able to get along with one another.

 

Don’t bring others down just because you’re in need of an ego boost.

 

Encourage your peers, support your friends, love your family and appreciate what you have because you never know when you’re going to lose it all. Time is precious, so don’t waste yours.