January is almost coming to an end, it feels strange acknowledging that fact. Well, that and the fact that I have a lot of math study to do.
After writing this quick post, I’ll try and get some work done and hopefully go to sleep tonight. I wouldn’t recommend staying awake all night, the aftermath can be so awful, haha.
Regardless, the day hasn’t been too bad. I just find it hard to believe that the weekend is just around the corner, yet again. Lockdown makes every day seem either very abrupt or it drags on, every time you look at the clock.
Having a routine does help a lot, it keeps my mind from being cluttered with too many thoughts. I do want to start journaling and keeping track of my feelings and emotions. An offline diary of some kind, honestly.
I have messy handwriting, though. Apparently, that means you’re intelligent or something. But in all fairness, I’m just an intellectual who maybe thinks too much at times, and that ultimately gives me a lot to speak about.
This blog helps me with keeping it all balanced. Which I’m glad for.
Anyway, take care of you and stay safe today.
Here I am, trying to finish my bottles of water needed, in order to complete my intake goal. Also recently started intermittent fasting, so the hydration is very important during these vital hours.
Working on my health has been a priority, and it will continue to be on the agenda as the year goes on, and I become fitter and healthier, not to mention, more confident with my body.
Insecurities suck, but I’m trying to work on those things gradually, understand what has to be addressed and improved. It’s not just the physical aspect, but the psychological as well. It’ll take patience with myself, something I often don’t have.
A sensitive topic for many, I’m sure. To be clear, I’m simply expressing my own experiences with it, but the subject can be complicated for many different reasons. The stigma, the shaming, the unrealistic standards we deal with on a regular basis. It can be a lot for a person.
As we evolve and grow, become wiser and stronger, I am certain that these things will be more understood as time goes on. Hold on to that hope.
There’s nothing I love more than being able to express myself on this platform, whilst listening to my favorite music, audiobooks, podcasts.
Another thing that I’m really into at the moment is exercise, meditation too.
I also find immense comfort in my faith, and in connecting with my family, my friends, who are my second family unit. I’m so grateful for them all.
Taking my supplements and getting enough rest has also been on the top of my priorities. All these lockdowns have really opened my eyes to the importance of taking care of one’s self.
It can be challenging at times, because I am my own worst critic. Learning to be patient with yourself and not be so self-deprecating has been an interesting journey.
One step at a time, I tell myself each day. Eventually, the positive affirmations bloom from within your mind by default. At least, from my own experience.
Well, that brings this blog post to an end. I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe in these unpredictable times.
Less than a week into January, and I feel pretty good so far.
Fingers crossed that my next online course can happen this week.
If someone told me I’d be loving the complexity of mathematics, there’s a chance I would have laughed.
Who’d have thought a customer service course would be such a blessing in disguise. Anyway, I have a lot of revision to do, nonetheless.
December was such a busy month in general, so I’m excited to get back to basics with my routine and hopefully sort out my sleep schedule whilst I’m at it.
I think I’ll spend tomorrow decluttering the house, completing some household chores. Despite lockdown and the unpredictable chaos, this time around it feels different, or perhaps my mindset has improved a lot since last year. Feeling more like myself every day and I am so grateful.
Hello, and Happy New Year to each and every one of you.
It’s that time again, to make resolutions and stick with them.
To say 2020 was a nightmare, that’s an understatement.
In this blog post, my first of 2021, I wanted to include some of my own personal resolutions for the next 365 days ahead, but it’ll be a little different.
These resolutions of mine are more about learning to find balance and peace of mind with myself instead of overwhelming my brain with a list of things I probably attempt to accomplish every year.
I think I have about five things I want to focus on.
Here’s my (realistic) list of 5 resolutions for 2021:
#1. Work on being kinder to myself.
#2. Budget more.
#3. Get more sleep.
#4. Improve eating habits.
#5. Start writing for my next poetry book.
I’m sure I could list more, but let’s start with those for now.
Do let me know in a comment what your personal resolutions are for 2021.
Have a wonderful day/evening, all of you!
Writing for a week straight has really inspired me. I’ve never felt so good about it.
I don’t know where I’d be without my blog. This is my sanctuary, a place of freedom and space.
Living a complex life, it makes you understand the gift of simple things.
Whether it’s writing a poem, or just practicing mindfulness and focusing on your health.
It is so important to acknowledge your struggles, so that you can make room for better things to come.
We have our bad days and our good days. There will be tears, and laughter until our stomach is in knots.
Grateful for family, true friends and the guardian angels I have, watching over me and the ones I love and cherish the most.
Blessed in many ways.
It’s been way too long since I’ve posted a blog post, and I’m sorry about that.
Let’s just say that, life has been hectic for the most part. There is a lot I could add, but I don’t want this to be all about my personal and non-personal issues etc.
But, in the near future, I might feel comfortable sharing a bit more. Anyway, it is SO good to be back writing and expressing my thoughts on DAYDREAM MADNESS.
A lot has been going on lately, or, as I like to describe my view of it…
“an unpredictable cycle, of impulse versus instinct”.
On the bright side, my new poetry book is out, I’m slowly (but surely) looking for work to pay more bills off, working on a third collection of poems or stories, to publish this year- or the next. As well as, trying to work on my self-esteem and confidence, because having anxiety over every little thing is a nightmare, when inside of your heart, you know what you want and need out of life, but you’re so lost in your own insecurities, that reaching a little bit higher on the cupboard of life is scary.
It’s not that I’m lazy or whatever else people like to call me or define me by. If anything, I’m an extrovert living in an introverted, insecure shell of thought. And it really doesn’t help when certain people define me as something I am not, or when they pile the bricks on, just to step on me further.
Why should different rules apply for different people?
Aren’t we equal human beings; some richer, some poorer. Some younger, some older. It certainly does get on my last nerve, when people drag you into the dirt, instead of reaching their hand out to help you out of it.
Society is the biggest hypocrite – and I’m a part of it, nonetheless. We feed the monster that confines us in our comfort zones and limited spaces. Perhaps not on purpose, but we certainly play a big part.
A late entry but, I finally published and made my second poetry book public via the incredible self-publishing company Blurb, who actually congratulated me also, which I thought was so wonderful!
I’ve been meaning to update my blog, just never got around to it because I took some time to relax because of my wisdom tooth extraction. Recovery is going well! It’s been approximately 4 days and I feel great, there’s been no complications or symptoms which I am relieved about.
The best part about it is, no more excruciating migraines at night. Although today, I feel slightly light-headed, but it’s been a warm day also.
On the 13th, it was the third anniversary of my blog, DAYDREAM MADNESS, too! Can’t believe I’ve had it for this long now. The same day, it was actually a whole year since I bought my domain name; one of the best decisions I’ve made for my blog so far.
Getting my new book done was also a big relief, because I was behind schedule, and there’s two different book types; softcover and hardcover. Everyone knows the title of it by now, since it’s been spoken about on numerous occasions.
But yes, “A Cryptic Human Entity” was an amazing project to work on, creativity wise.
The encouragement and support from my closest friends has been wonderful, especially since it was the second anniversary of my grandmother’s passing on the 19th and all events have been clashing with that.
And it’s also my 23rd birthday this Sunday! Usually not too optimistic about it, but I’ll be at a music festival surrounded by incredible music and good vibes, so I can’t complain.
Growing older is perhaps a blessing and a curse; we’re basically ticking clocks, losing time as we speak. It’s an inevitable fate for us all, but life and loss affects us just as much. The point is, we should cherish each moment like we’re about to lose it all. And we shouldn’t take loved ones for granted either.
You can find out more about my new poetry book, “A CRYPTIC HUMAN ENTITY” here: Blurb
Hello again, everyone! And to the new followers that have appeared recently: Welcome to DAYDREAM MADNESS, a place of honest, complex thoughts expressed by yours truly.
You could twist and turn it as much as you’d like, my darling
But the truth is, it wouldn’t change how it all feels on the inside
If one could paint their face happy, it’d be as easy as picking out
colorful pens and a clean, paper surface, or a new book to read
The mind is tragically overloaded, always heavy in thought
And the heart, it is seemingly forever lost within, seeking a miracle
No amount of quick fixes could possibly alter your brain permanently, unless you’ve found a cure for misery, which I’m sure you haven’t, and a lot of people have tried, but failed
And it’s not a person’s first choice, do you really think their mind cares what advice or wisdom you might add to their list of manuals to read? No, of course it doesn’t
And it’s not because the person in mind doesn’t like seeing the care in front of them
It’s something deeper than just reading between their lines and transparent smiles
Don’t worry, it pains them just as much as it pains you to see how it all is
How it pains me to feel empty, not knowing what I am worth as a person
Or what incredible things I could achieve if I just had a little bit of faith in myself
And my potential, not just for other people’s sake, but most of all, for my own closure
My heart is grateful, it always was and gratitude will show
As strength becomes a little easier to digest
But until that day comes, please, just be patient with me, I’m only human.