It Takes You Home

When I was little, I spent a lot of quality time with my grandmother.

She used to knit, whilst I cut up old pieces of clothing to sew together a little cotton bag for myself, or two.

Looking back on it now, it truly sinks in, the realization that you’re gone.

No longer do I see, the smile that lit up the room. Your loving words of encouragement as I began to blossom, like the butterflies in your garden.

Our moments, I cherish more than I ever knew my heart could. This is the reality of losing you.

Long Time, No Write!

2018 has been quite a chaotic year, I must say. And it’s only March as of yet! I’m supposed to be releasing my second book of poetry in less than two months but I am so behind schedule with the completion of it, that it might all have to be postponed until further notice.

Although, being the person I am, I will try my hardest to stick with my deadline and publication date etc. Life can be so chaotic at times, honestly, and it’s not a nice feeling at all. Everyone deals with it for the most part, yet I am not the best at coping under pressure.

It’s been a while since my last blog post on here, but with everything that’s been going on, it is incredibly hard to think straight, let alone know what to do next. But in time, it’ll pass at some point.

Exactly two months from now, it’ll be the second anniversary of my grandmother’s passing too.

Still hard to deal with, me losing her was painful beyond words. Bravest person until the end though, an angel who gained her well-deserved wings in the sky above.

You never truly appreciate the time you have with people until you see them fade away in front of your eyes. What a brutal reality. I guess all you can do is try and make the most of every second you breathe.

Don’t waste your life away, it’s the only one you have; as yourself, anyway. Who knows what the afterlife has planned, or where your soul will end up next. Only time will tell.

And It’s Back To The Blog!

Hello again, everyone! And to the new followers that have appeared recently: Welcome to DAYDREAM MADNESS, a place of honest, complex thoughts expressed by yours truly.

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It’s Not Me, It’s Obviously You

When people are so far into their own denial,
that they start putting the blame on you…

 

First of all, I’m not the one with the personal troubles, or the attitude,
I am not the one making others feel miserable just so you can feel better.

I am not the one in the wrong here.

 

For once, I wish people would just look at themselves in the mirror before immediately attacking someone else, just because they’re in denial of their actions, or their personal demons.

 

It’s like, what have I ever done to deserve your wrath?

Did I cause your pain? No, I did not. Nor am I the reason for your behavior.

 

Whichever personal experiences have changed you, they are not mine to judge. I will not judge you for that. But, I also will not tolerate accusations from you either.

 

How you wish to process that information, I do not know.
My words certainly aren’t flawed with bad intentions.

Poem For My Guardian Angel

Within my heart
Y
our soul can reside

You were an angel
Before your time

Yet there’s a difference now
You’ve gained your wings

So fly, my angel, fly high
May your soul be at peace

Writer’s Block And Creative Hiatuses

I have been meaning to update my blog for the longest amount of time, but a lot has been going on in life and I suppose a hiatus was necessary. Where does one begin? Got no idea.

Firstly, I’ve been to two concerts in the past month. With my little sister and on my own. Must admit, being alone made me such a nervous wreck, but fighting that fear is what I’m most proud of.

Writing for my book has been put on hold for the most part. I hope to resume writing at the start of December. It’s important not to stress yourself or force the creativity out of you, otherwise it’s not from the heart, but more of a complex situation of mind vs. expectations.

Being a perfectionist doesn’t help me. It just makes me loathe the writer’s block that stops me from being creative. Inspiration will hit, eventually, but when you lack the patience, it feels like eternity.

 

Anyway, I hope to keep my blog more frequently updated from the start of December, since November has been quite a month of events. Hope everyone is having a good Wednesday! Take care.

 

 

Writing Session #29

Clocks went back today. Good in terms of extra sleep, but having to be productive for another hour seemed like a chore. Thankfully, I got through it just enough to stay positive.

As 2017 slowly comes to an end, the idea of a new year is exciting but petrifying at the same time. It almost feels like you’ve outgrown your favorite shoes, or it’s a sigh of relief after what was a tough year. Either way, I’m thankful for the obstacles faced and people known. After all, our experiences should encourage us, not break us apart. More soon. xo

Writing Session #28

Halloween is in three days! I’m usually not excited, but I like the idea of wearing black and having quality time with family. Who doesn’t, really. To think that November is around the corner not only excites me but scares me also. It’s like, where has time gone?

Each day is never short of an adventure or an obstacle to face in person. How we all go about living our lives and discovering different parts of us is and always will be either unpredictable, or the opposite. It all varies, depending on who we are as individuals.

Well…that’s me signing off for today. I’ll be sure to write another post tomorrow and talk a little more. But until then, I wish you a beautiful night and happiness all around you.

Writing Session #25

Let me just say that I’ve really enjoyed today. One of the nicest times so far. It’s lovely how an evening with a good, dear friend can be so uplifting yet incredibly simple at the same time. Here’s to more times like that. Sometimes, we all need to have a little break.

 

This day has been wonderful, for a number of reasons. Here’s a listed few:

 

  • It’s officially a whole month since my poetry book was published. (What the…?)
  • A long-awaited reunion at the movies with one of my high school friends.
  • For the first time in a while, I’ve actually had plans. Like, seriously though.

    Time passes us by like the wind, we hardly notice it until something comes up on our calendar. Which makes me appreciate these moments a lot more than before. We should all have memories that will live on and not wilt away. xo