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Gemini Season: A Time For Reflection

Happy belated 8th anniversary to my wonderful, little space on the internet: DAYDREAM MADNESS. It is now 8 years in the making as of yesterday, and life has certainly taken me on a wild journey of experiences, lessons and blessings. My heart feels immense gratitude for this blog, my sanctuary of thought, as I have always called it.

It has been a long time since I’ve wrote much of anything, but I do hope I have more time soon to write, think outside the box and just live my life to the fullest. Creativity has and always will have a special place in my heart, and my birthday is also around the corner, which is quite exciting.

On Tuesday, it’ll be five years since I self-published A Cryptic Human Entity, and I feel like it is finally time to start work on the next poetry collection. I already have a title in mind, with some previous hesitation, but it is now set in stone for me. I know I want it to be called this.

Expect to see more activity on DAYDREAM MADNESS shortly, and I look forward to starting this next chapter.

Mila. Xo

Six Months On: Life Update

What can I say? Another hiatus bites the dust, and I am so happy about it. Also, how has it been six months already?!

For the longest time, I didn’t feel motivated or inspired to write and it has been a nightmare, especially since writing has helped me through so many difficult moments in life, and helped me navigate through all the complex emotions we face each day as human beings. A lot has been going on, but my creative mind has just been a complete blank, when it came down to expressing this in words.

I’ve struggled with writer’s block many times before, as well as frequent self-critical thoughts, not thinking any of my work is good enough to put out there. It is a lot. Not sure if it’s imposter syndrome, or my need for perfection taking over and causing havoc.

Either way, I found myself wanting to write today and it is a good feeling. There has been a lot of life changes: I started a new job, my skin is improving, I am becoming physically healthier and less anxious. Whilst I am still a work in progress, I feel like acknowledging these things are my way of having gratitude and instinctly trusting that I am on the right track.

I am not sure how frequently I’ll update the blog, but I definitely want to write more and have some kind of consistency towards the end of 2022 and the beginning of 2023. Might even post a few poems at some point, I would love to further develop my progress with the third poetry collection I am working on.

Looking forward to the weekend, are you?

Mila. Xo

Back At It: Hiatus Over

Hello again, what a long time it has been since my last upload on the blog.

I wasn’t planning to have a hiatus of this length, but it is what it is and I am back with a vengeance.

Truthfully, I have struggled with writer’s block a lot for many months, even years at this point.

Life has been all over the place, so have my emotions. Not being able to convey or express how I’ve been feeling has affected me quite heavily.

I put a lot of pressure on myself in all aspect of life, whether it is my appearance or what my poems are about. The hunger for perfection is insatiable, to put it bluntly.

Creativity has always had a big place in my mind, heart and soul. So to feel like nothing I did was good enough was very taxing on my mental health and it still is, sometimes.

The goal is to take baby steps, and start off small and build my way back up the ladder once more. It might not always be consistent or on point, but it will be authentic to me and my journey of it all.

Just wanted to say a big thank you to anyone who has followed or just discovered my blog on here. Any engagement I receive is wholeheartedly appreciated. It truly means the world and encourages me to continue, even if I’m not feeling my best.

What are my plans for the months ahead?

As of now, I hope to update the blog at least once a week, if not more. It all depends on life’s schedule and God’s plan for me on this path.

I count my blessings every day that I have good health, a wonderful support system and an overall decent life.

That’s not to say that there won’t be challenges along the way, but I will take that on if the occasion arises.

For the time being, I want to remain present and in tune with the universe so a hiatus like the previous one is out of the question.

Balance is key, which an impatient person like me needs to be reminded of on a daily basis.

It is my hope that I can commence further work on my third poetry collection, and make progress with that as it has been four years since A Cryptic Human Entity.

Well, as of tomorrow it will be the 4th anniversary of that second poetry book and I still cannot fathom it.

The theme for the next book is still up for debate. I feel like a lot has changed and evolved since my initial concept for it, that I might do something completely different.

I have a lot that I want to share and heal from on an emotional level, timing is key too.

There’s a chance I might do a mini version of the next collection, and a full, extended edition of the poetry book next year. So excited to finally start this project in a proper way.

Until then, stay tuned for more updates as I go along. After all, we only have the life God gave us, we need to make every second count.

And also, happy belated 7th anniversary to my pride and joy, this little blog of mine, DAYDREAM MADNESS.

It’s also my birthday in 12 days, how exciting! But anyway, hope you all have an amazing rest of your weekend and I’ll speak to you soon.

Happy Sunday and God bless you all!

Yours truly,

Mila. Xo

Hello 2022: Happy New Year!

As the title says, 2022 is finally here.

Happy New Year to all of you, WordPressers!

I look forward to a year of consistent uploads, and I am sure you do too.

Made a promise to myself that 2022 would be the year that I focus on writing more, I also want to be more present on social media as well, and I am hoping to make some changes to DAYDREAM MADNESS in terms of layout, change things up a bit, so definitely stay tuned for that over the next few months or so.

Starting work on poetry book #3 is also going to be a priority this year, it has been almost 4 years since my last project was created, so this is long overdue, in my opinion.

I can honestly not believe it has been so long since Lay Your Hands Bare (2017) & A Cryptic Human Entity (2018) were made public for the first time.

With each collection, I want to challenge myself and learn to express my emotions and thoughts in a balanced way, especially the ones that are attached to trauma.

I have a long way to go until the healing process is anywhere near complete, or accomplished in some way, shall we say. I am very grateful for the wisdom and clarity that has been brought into my life in the last few years.

Getting older has taught me so much about myself, as well as other people and their intentions.

And I just wanted to say thank you for the almost 500 followers I’ve managed to get on here since 2015, it truly means the world.

Despite the inconsistencies and hiatuses, you’ve always given me a reason to stick with the blog, regardless of how much or little I might post.

Being an introvert, it can be tricky knowing how to step outside the box for once. It can be awkward a lot of the time, truthfully.

But writing is therapy, it is an outlet for those very difficult thoughts and feelings. I’m not planning to share everything about my life, but I do want to be more open and confident in myself.

Insecurities can get the best of you sometimes, I know that all too well.

So, be kind to yourself and others, take one day at a time and just know that life is a complex journey, but it’ll be okay. You will be okay, no matter how tough it might be right now.

Love,

Mila. Xo

Life Changes & Inner Peace: Resolutions For 2022

Hello again, fellow writers and blog readers.

Christmas is now over, and everyone is slowly preparing for their NYE festivities, whatever that may look like. It’s also that time of year where we all reflect on the current year before it ends, and what we hope to discover in the next.

Personally, I love making these types of lists. But, I do want these resolutions to matter in the long run. Life changes don’t just have to happen every January onwards.

I’ll probably have my fair share of moments where I don’t sleep well, or meditate enough, things like that. But to be honest, I’m human and nothing is ever perfect.

Learning to be mindful and living in the present moment is important, to balance out the discipline and expectations we all have/expect of ourselves.

Without further delay, here are my top 5 (or 10, haha) resolutions/life changes that I want to incorporate into my daily routine and improve my current lifestyle.

1. To sleep better
2. Eat more mindfully
3. Read more books
4. Save more, spend less
5. Prioritize my mental health

Another five, because why not?

6. Declutter the house/wardrobe
7. Write more consistently
8. Start work on poetry book #3
9. Get more active
10. Meditate/journal

These are in no particular order, might I add.

I had many more I could mention, but these are the most relevant to my life at this moment. It doesn’t matter if I don’t successfully achieve all these things, as long as I am aware of my goals and at least trying to be the best version of myself. A journey like this is not always straightforward, but it is possible when the timing is right.

Would love to hear about what your own resolutions are for 2022. Or if you’ve decided not to participate in it this year, it’s fine either way.

This might be my last post of 2021, although I probably will post something on NYE as a farewell to what has been a strange year, to say the least.

Love,

Mila. Xo

Inner Harmony For A Minute

Happy Friday.

Gosh, it feels so weird to be using my main laptop again, after what feels like a lifetime and more…

Dodgy keyboard though, makes me understand why I struggled to use this for a long time. But, it now means I can explore artwork ideas for my next book of poetry, so I am excited!

Nice to have a laptop with space on the hard drive.

Hopefully going to be a creative weekend.

Mila. Xo