Ignited Feelings Of Worry

When it comes to fear, or the stresses of certain situations, I often try to analyze and accept what I’m feeling at that particular moment.

Sometimes, it’s not always so easy.

My mind is slightly complex, the same yet different to everyone else’s.

I used to feel shame at getting overwhelmed over some things, it felt like I was the only one at times. (bear in mind, I’ve come a long way and it’s not as bad as it used to be)

To be honest, talking about it shouldn’t have to feel awkward. Everyone has their own struggles and worries, some are just more manageable than others.

And that’s okay, something I often tell myself in notes, diary entries etc.

Life has been a strange and complicated journey, but I’m grateful and blessed in many ways, and I’ve got a good support system.

I’m writing this currently on my phone because I have no energy to use my laptop. Got a few things to do tomorrow, nothing special.

Just hoping that it’ll be okay and I’ll have my peace of mind restored in no time.

This brings us to the end of another blog entry.

I’ll be back tomorrow to share yet another day of thoughts. This is truly a sanctuary for my mind.

God bless you all, and stay safe.

Mila. Xo

Unforeseen Chaos

Started the day off pretty well, ended it with a malfunctioning boiler.

It’s honestly the last thing you need when the weather is as cold as it is in the UK.

Need to get an early start tomorrow, slightly anxious about it all, but I’m sure I’ll get through this.

Laying in bed, feeling thankful for my warm duvet.

Hope you’re all staying safe and well tonight.

Mila. Xo

Sunday Thoughts



Today was a lot, I honestly didn’t feel too great earlier, but after some pain relief, things were okay again. No, it wasn’t cold related, it was simply a case of temporary, yet uncomfortable stomach pains that subsided; to my relief.

I’ve got my energy back too, which is a good sign.

Sunday is here once more, and a new week is about to begin shortly.

Every week feels the same, in my opinion, and I am sure a lot of people feel this way about it too. Having a routine helps a lot, keeps me occupied and on track.

Going to bed soon, but I wanted to share some of my thoughts, and also get some studies completed in the meantime. I enjoy online lessons, don’t get me wrong, but you can’t beat in-person communication and learning.

If only 15 year old me had felt that way ten years ago. Times have changed.

A lot to be grateful for, such as my health, my family and friends, and all of the people I have come to know through the blog and other social media.

Think I’ll end the post for tonight, and get the other things done before I head off to sleep. Hope you’re all staying safe, and talk to you soon.


Mila. Xo

Different Day, Same Goals


Productivity continues to thrive and that’s been the highlight of my week.

As far as other things go, I’m not too sure. The next week is going to be a busy one, which should be good for the most part. Feeling positive, enlightened to some extent too.

Just very focused on what I want to achieve, despite the complexity of circumstances surrounding everyday life and beyond. All you can do is try and move forward, no matter what.

Writing every day has been so comforting to me, it really helps a lot if you think a lot like me. My brain never seems to completely at peace with life, but I don’t mind a challenge.

Over the weekend, I do hope to begin writing for the next book. I have a clear idea of what I want the project to express, but it’s all a work in progress. There’s so many ideas I have right now, I need to narrow it down to a few, if at all possible.

We’ll see if I’m feeling inspired enough tomorrow! 🙂


Mila. Xo

Clarity To Mind



Felt more calm recently and I appreciate that a lot, to be honest.

I don’t necessarily handle stress all too well, and it shows, despite how much I try and hide it behind a smile or laugh. These days, the amount of gratitude I have in my heart for each day now is crazy. But, of course, in a good way.

Waking up each day, with clarity and peace of mind, that’s something to feel good about. Positivity despite the chaos life might bring, and the obstacles we have to overcome to see the beacon of hope.

Life is not meant to be easy, I know that. I suppose, it’s human of me to sometimes wish it was.

All in all, there’s a lot of blessings to be thankful for, and even difficult moments, the ones that made me a stronger, wiser, better version of me.


Mila. Xo

Creative Sessions



Tonight, I’ll attempt to get started on my next writing project. In May, it’ll be three years since I independently released my second collection of poetry, A Cryptic Human Entity.

For the longest amount of time, I’ve wanted to begin this process, but a lot has occurred since the last collection and my writing was put on hold indefinitely.

I must admit, the passion to create was lost for a while. I had no particular interest anymore, and it took me a long time to feel like myself again. Writer’s block and personal stress did nothing to help the situation either.

During the first two lockdowns, I found myself prioritizing sleep a lot, right now it’s kind of the opposite because my sleep schedule is out of sync.

I suppose, this time around, it’s the time to focus on my written work.

There’s a lot of ideas and artistic concepts that are running wild in my mind right now and I’m really excited to see what comes out of this. I wish I could draw, if anything. For some reason, I miss painting too. Longing to do it again.

A few titles I have in mind, also. Which one I’ll go with, I have no idea, as of yet. I will trust my instinct on that one. I’ve always been very invested in poem titles and painting a picture.

If I get anywhere with it, I’ll most definitely add some thoughts to the blog tomorrow. Would be great to get used to talking about it all more, as I embark on this journey of expression, saying hello to a new era.

Until then, I’ll leave it at that. Take care, all of you.


Mila. Xo

Caged Dreams, Hidden Ambitions

To have an ambitious heart, full of hopes and dreams, it is a pity that I’m full of these fears about the future.

As obvious as it might be, trying to distance yourself from them is a lot harder than meets the eye.

The easy way would probably be to blank them out until the denial kicks in, and you believe your own misguided words.

Or, to acknowledge the way you feel and how these fears make you feel or react – equally petrifying, in my opinion.

The Peace That Comes With Age

As I near my 25th birthday, there’s a lot of emotions running wild inside my brain right now. Let me tell you, adult life is not as incredible as young me used to think. If you’re in a rush to be of age, don’t fret about it all too much.

There’s a difference between wanting to be older, and being it. Sure, many great opportunities and memories will come your way. Well, all our experiences won’t be the same, or any less complex, but I suppose, that’s the beauty of not knowing what the universe has in store for all of us.

Whilst the year is still in bloom, I’ll most likely do my best to ensure I don’t get lost in the resolutions I will inevitably break, the weight that’ll shed as slow as a turtle makes their way, and the poetry book that won’t be finished until the end of the year or beyond.

I try to be patient with myself, and the journey that life has brought me on. Although, it never does get easier. Being able to express my thoughts again has definitely been the light at the end of this dark tunnel of worry.

In The Archive

I promised myself that I would update this blog every day in 2020, and I am determined to see it through.

Every thought has a meaning of some kind, I suppose. Always did have a fascination for the mind, and how it works.

For now, I’ll drift off to sleep with dreams in mind. Who knows, maybe I’ll find something.

Take care, have a beautiful evening.

Love, Mila. Xo

Gratitude Hour

More so than ever, I have found myself on this journey of acceptance and discovery.

I had to learn how to let go, understand that there are many things I cannot change, no matter how much it pains me, to know this very crucial information.

Above all, it opened my eyes to clarity, inspiration and commitment. Not only to myself, but the ones who need me.

A wonderful day spent, indeed.