Heartfelt Times Of Us

Without the people who helped shape us, and the ones who continue to strengthen us, life wouldn’t be quite the same journey, and perhaps, that is the meaning of all this.

Being human is hard at times. Just learning to be patient challenges me on another level. Maintaining that balance of peace and madness.

After all, life isn’t meant to be perfect. Sometimes, it is hard to remember that since, we’re idealistic minds by nature.

Health And Book Update: A Late Entry

A late entry but, I finally published and made my second poetry book public via the incredible self-publishing company Blurb, who actually congratulated me also, which I thought was so wonderful!

I’ve been meaning to update my blog, just never got around to it because I took some time to relax because of my wisdom tooth extraction. Recovery is going well! It’s been approximately 4 days and I feel great, there’s been no complications or symptoms which I am relieved about.

The best part about it is, no more excruciating migraines at night. Although today, I feel slightly light-headed, but it’s been a warm day also.

On the 13th, it was the third anniversary of my blog, DAYDREAM MADNESS, too! Can’t believe I’ve had it for this long now. The same day, it was actually a whole year since I bought my domain name; one of the best decisions I’ve made for my blog so far.

 

Getting my new book done was also a big relief, because I was behind schedule, and there’s two different book types; softcover and hardcover. Everyone knows the title of it by now, since it’s been spoken about on numerous occasions.

 

But yes, “A Cryptic Human Entity” was an amazing project to work on, creativity wise.

 

The encouragement and support from my closest friends has been wonderful, especially since it was the second anniversary of my grandmother’s passing on the 19th and all events have been clashing with that.

And it’s also my 23rd birthday this Sunday! Usually not too optimistic about it, but I’ll be at a music festival surrounded by incredible music and good vibes, so I can’t complain.

Growing older is perhaps a blessing and a curse; we’re basically ticking clocks, losing time as we speak. It’s an inevitable fate for us all, but life and loss affects us just as much. The point is, we should cherish each moment like we’re about to lose it all. And we shouldn’t take loved ones for granted either.

You can find out more about my new poetry book, “A CRYPTIC HUMAN ENTITY” here: Blurb

Deadlines Are Not My Thing

I am a problematic soul, oh my. First of all, I’m supposed to be publishing my new book of poetry next month and I’m still writing material for it. Now, most people freak out about it, but me? This is nothing new. For some reason, I like the danger of possibly missing deadlines. At school, I did a lot of things last-minute or later than that.

And it’s not because I don’t have things to say. I do. Too many things, actually. From next month, I’m going to try and write a lot more on this blog too. Really want a camera as well, to capture things, or potential memories. Life has been hectic, not going to lie.

Truly grateful for the friends that have given me that extra ounce of support recently.

I have a dentist appointment tomorrow, which I am not looking forward to, but I do want to fix the little problems that have been bothering me for the past few years.

Again, if you follow my blog on here, I want to specifically say thank you and I promise to write more often shortly. It’s all a work in progress at the moment. Any views, comments and likes are highly appreciated by me, and it definitely motivates me to continue adding content on here.

Have a wonderful Wednesday, fellow writers and of course; awesome readers.

Mila.

Long Time, No Write!

2018 has been quite a chaotic year, I must say. And it’s only March as of yet! I’m supposed to be releasing my second book of poetry in less than two months but I am so behind schedule with the completion of it, that it might all have to be postponed until further notice.

Although, being the person I am, I will try my hardest to stick with my deadline and publication date etc. Life can be so chaotic at times, honestly, and it’s not a nice feeling at all. Everyone deals with it for the most part, yet I am not the best at coping under pressure.

It’s been a while since my last blog post on here, but with everything that’s been going on, it is incredibly hard to think straight, let alone know what to do next. But in time, it’ll pass at some point.

Exactly two months from now, it’ll be the second anniversary of my grandmother’s passing too.

Still hard to deal with, me losing her was painful beyond words. Bravest person until the end though, an angel who gained her well-deserved wings in the sky above.

You never truly appreciate the time you have with people until you see them fade away in front of your eyes. What a brutal reality. I guess all you can do is try and make the most of every second you breathe.

Don’t waste your life away, it’s the only one you have; as yourself, anyway. Who knows what the afterlife has planned, or where your soul will end up next. Only time will tell.

How It Pains Me To Feel Empty, A Poem

You could twist and turn it as much as you’d like, my darling
But the truth is, it wouldn’t change how it all feels on the inside

If one could paint their face happy, it’d be as easy as picking out
colorful pens and a clean, paper surface, or a new book to read

The mind is tragically overloaded, always heavy in thought 
And the heart, it is seemingly forever lost within, seeking a miracle

No amount of quick fixes could possibly alter your brain permanently, unless you’ve found a cure for misery, which I’m sure you haven’t, and a lot of people have tried, but failed


And it’s not a person’s first choice, do you really think their mind cares what advice or wisdom you might add to their list of manuals to read? No, of course it doesn’t

And it’s not because the person in mind doesn’t like seeing the care in front of them

It’s something deeper than just reading between their lines and transparent smiles 
Don’t worry, it pains them just as much as it pains you to see how it all is

How it pains me to feel empty, not knowing what I am worth as a person
Or what incredible things I could achieve if I just had a little bit of faith in myself
And my potential, not just for other people’s sake, but most of all, for my own closure


My heart is grateful, it always was and gratitude will show
As strength becomes a little easier to digest

But until that day comes, please, just be patient with me, I’m only human.

Heart Full Of Gratitude

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As many people know, I like to type as I think. That’s what makes this blog so complex and honest, because most of the posts are literally created within 15 minutes or less.

 

 

Depending on the content and editing, of course.

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Why December Is THE Month Of All Years

There’s something truly magical about this time of year. We have a wonderful excuse to decorate our houses with everything gold, sparkly and shiny. It’s also another reason to spread some happiness and cheer with the people around us. Whether it’s family, close friends or new companions in life, it’s the memories we create that is of importance, not how long we know the person. But anyway, I’m excited for the remainder of 2017. I’ll likely cherish every moment, because I know it’s coming to an end soon, and it’s been quite a vital year for me, in terms of self-growth, independence, inner strength, love, and most of all: Happiness.

It’s been a little quiet on my blog and I’m sorry about that. Haven’t really had the time to post stuff on here, so it’s definitely not intentional. Also, I worked on a keepsake journal for most of October and November, which is in production right now, I’m really pleased about that. It’s not going to be listed for sale, I mainly just wanted to create something that is me and is my own little place to write down thoughts, I also included brand new poetry within this project, motivational pieces, and of course, some inspirational words of wisdom and clarity. It’s the journal for the journey, as I like to say.

 

It’s hard to believe I’ve now self-published two projects of mine. A poetry book and a self-help/care journal. Really proud of my accomplishments this year. My second book/collection of poetry will be out sometime in 2018. And it has a title…

 

A Cryptic Human Entity will be released in mid-2018 and will have approximately 50-75 pages and it’ll be my most personal collection to date. A carefully selected list of poetry with subjects such as lust, intense emotions, desire and passion. It’s still a work in progress as I write, but for this particular project, I really wanted to take my time in creating a preferred choice of depth, as well as a blank canvas for one’s truth to unveil. It is always important to write from the heart and to mean every word, and feel brave enough to open up about our darker, harder-to-reach emotions.

Even now, as I talk about my second book, it’s strange yet I am excited to complete my mission of honest creativity. In the past, I would have never considered doing something quite like this. Wouldn’t even have stuck to a blog like this. So, every little step is a new accomplishment in my eyes. Honestly grateful for all things I have witnessed and achieved in 2017. And I think next year will be even greater than the previous.

 
I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend, my next post will be up either tomorrow or Monday, depending on how inspired I am to write. Let’s hope my writer’s block doesn’t return for a while. xo

 

 

Writer’s Block And Creative Hiatuses

I have been meaning to update my blog for the longest amount of time, but a lot has been going on in life and I suppose a hiatus was necessary. Where does one begin? Got no idea.

Firstly, I’ve been to two concerts in the past month. With my little sister and on my own. Must admit, being alone made me such a nervous wreck, but fighting that fear is what I’m most proud of.

Writing for my book has been put on hold for the most part. I hope to resume writing at the start of December. It’s important not to stress yourself or force the creativity out of you, otherwise it’s not from the heart, but more of a complex situation of mind vs. expectations.

Being a perfectionist doesn’t help me. It just makes me loathe the writer’s block that stops me from being creative. Inspiration will hit, eventually, but when you lack the patience, it feels like eternity.

 

Anyway, I hope to keep my blog more frequently updated from the start of December, since November has been quite a month of events. Hope everyone is having a good Wednesday! Take care.

 

 

Writing Session #31

So, the last Writing Session is being written as we speak. It’s been quite a journey in terms of sticking to a writing routine. Proud of myself for not giving up on what could have been, easily, a disaster.

But all that said, I have enjoyed the idea of posting every day, whether it’s meaningful, deeper thoughts or simply, a ramble of the moment. The variation keeps the mind at peace, which is a good thing, I suppose.

WHAT HAS IT TAUGHT ME ABOUT BLOGGING?

A lot, actually. It has made me appreciate my blog a lot more. And also, if anyone noticed, I recently changed themes. This one is more sleek and nicer than the previous. Wanted to make it different and finally, I found it. Nothing quite like a good blog makeover. Personally, I’m quite satisfied.

NEXT ON MY BLOG AGENDA:

 

  • Editing of older posts.
  • Buying a good camera.
  • Regular posts and quotes.

Writing Session #24

As my daily Writing Sessions will soon come to an end, I’m thinking of new ways to keep this blog updated with content. Whether it’s written, photographic or simply expressive, it’s always good to keep the motivation going. And, I enjoy writing so win-win.

It’s a sanctuary for thoughts, as well as food for thought, looking back on certain pieces can definitely open your eyes. Our emotions, like any, are either supressed or expressed.

Most of us conceal our true feelings, others have the courage to speak out. Which, in general, is incredibly inspiring for the less noticeable ones. It all goes to show the power in our words. How they shape and change our society.

 

My favorite motto right now is: “Don’t live in silence for all of eternity. Speak up.”