State Of Acceptance

Might be a blog post, or a rant, perhaps a poem that sounds out of sync. We’ll see…

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Hopeful Thinking

Thoughts all over the place, especially in the last week.

Despite the stresses of it all, I’m still trying to be hopeful. Proves difficult when you’re anxious about certain things, I must admit.

Was thinking to write more this weekend, but it doesn’t necessarily feel right.

Any kind of outlet in the written sense is good enough, for the time being.

I’ll be back tomorrow, but I truly hope everyone has a good evening, stay safe and take care.

Mila. Xo

Bliss Of Peaceful Sundays

Think I finally got the rest I needed today, which is great. We shall see if I go to sleep soon. Got a lot of revision to do, places to go on Tuesday, and an exam on the 25th.

I’m honestly nervous, because my memory has been so terrible in the last few weeks.

Studying definitely needs to be a priority, my brain needs to retain all that information.

All I want now is a creativity boost so I can write a bit more. Would love to work on stories later in life too.

But for now, this will be enough. I adore my blog. Hope you’re all doing okay. Have a great day!

Mila. Xo

A Busy Saturday

*This post was meant to be published yesterday, but due to a technical error, that did not happen.

Wanted to start this post off by saying that it’s going to be a busy day. I don’t know what to expect, yet I’m going to keep a hopeful outlook on things.

Aside from that, there is a lot of genuine excitement, which does not occur often.

Have a great day, everyone!

Mila. Xo

Wednesday Sunshine

Either I’m lacking ideas at the moment, or these last few days have really made me more exhausted than usual.

At least the sun was out today, the weather was on point and I’m not, what a shocker.

Honestly, thank goodness for mints and a comfy bed, two things I really appreciate right now.

Anyway, I’m only human. Sending love and positivity to anyone who needs it today.

Have a good Wednesday!

Mila. Xo

Lasting Memory Of You

Saying goodbye is the hardest thing, especially when the person does not recognize who you are anymore and you could not communicate due to a language barrier that once didn’t exist, not to mention the distance between you and I for the longest of time. That’s what happened in the months before you left this Earth.

Today marks five years without the most loving, compassionate, selfless grandmother a young woman could ever have wished for. It feels just like yesterday when I got the call no one wants to get.

As much as I tried to prepare myself for this moment to arrive because I understood that it was inevitable, it was still one of the most painful moments of my life. Talking about this woman in the past-tense never gets easier, the first few years of grieving the loss, I truly felt numb, crying felt impossible because I was so in denial.

To this day, I cherish our last conversation. You said my name in such a delicate tone, you asked me how my day was, and you said you loved me.

Whenever I have a moment of sadness, or just a tough day in general, I think of you and I smile. You showed me what it means to be strong, your bravery and strength through it all was powerful beyond words, you are truly my hero, my guardian angel above, alongside the other beautiful souls who are up there with you.

What has also made me feel closer to my late grandmother is one of middle names, which is hers and it is right next to my first name, I really find comfort in that. And I also find comfort in faith, because my grandmother kept it near and dear to her heart all her life, until the end.

Immensely grateful for the years I got to know you, you’ll always be so important to me and remembered for your kind heart, nurturing nature and a lot more.

Grief can be such a wake-up call, it makes you appreciate life, love and family more than ever. Of course, bear in mind, the complexity will always be there, regardless of time.

Cherish the ones you love, be kind, take care of you and others and God bless you all.

Mila. Xo

Nostalgia Hurts

I wasn’t sure if I felt like writing at all today, but I knew I’d feel better if I did. Tried my best to remain busy and productive, which I think I was successful with.

As the title states quite clearly: Nostalgia hurts.

Not always the case, might I add. But for me…it weighed heavy on my shoulders like a ton of bricks today, for a lot of reasons. There’s been a lot of personal development in terms of how I deal with this as it happens.

So, that’s at least one positive way to look at a complicated situation.

That being said, I’ve still felt struck by thoughts going a thousand miles per hour. If anything, it’s a lesson of life. Knowing how to explain this feeling in a structured manner proved difficult regardless.

Right now, I just want to focus on my writing, and enjoy the weekend to the best of my ability. Part of me wants to stay up late, the responsible part of me wants to rest and be up early in the morning.

Always a clash between the two, but I’ll leave it up to my intuition and see where it takes me. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend.

Mila. Xo

Productive Days Are Good

This will probably be a short blog entry for the time being, but I’m hoping to get an early start tomorrow morning and write more in depth, as well as get a lot of other things done too.

Can’t believe my birthday is in 16 days, not that I’m counting down, necessarily. Although, it is very strange at times. You’re only as young as you are in this moment, or so I’ve heard over the years.

It would be interesting to know what life would look like in the future, the not knowing part of it all does bother me, until I tend to ask myself this question: Do I really want to know my future?

Yes, and no.

I’m sure a lot of people are possibly curious about this type of thing, right?

It’s natural to think about it as you get older and wiser, life is a journey, after all. And life’s set of scenarios lead us down our own customized path.

Perhaps, it’s not up to us. I keep an open mind and heart when it comes to that, because all I want is peace of mind, above anything else, if I’m being completely blunt.

But to end this post on a positive note, I have learned so much in the last couple of years, and I just hope to keep learning, growing, blossoming into the person I was destined to be at the right time.

Have a great Tuesday and stay well!

Mila. Xo



Late Evening Thoughts

A nice day, yet entirely exhausting and having a migraine earlier was not very fun either.

I was planning to write more and do certain things in particular, but on days like this, you have to structure it slightly different.

Overall, the day was great, I just wish time didn’t go by so quick. Before you know it, the week is over and a new one is about to begin.

Hopefully, you’ve had a good day too.

Take care, be kind to you and others.

Mila. Xo

Sunday Solitude

After some needed rest, time to eat and unwind, I wanted to get on the blog and talk for a minute.

Writing late wasn’t what I had in mind for today, but at least I am writing.

I truly wish the weekend would last longer, it feels so short.

Sunday has still been good, cooking and gathering my thoughts ahead of the new week starting.

Got hair lightener in my hair currently, so going to bed is probably not going to happen anytime soon.

Been so nostalgic from music too, heard songs that reminded me of better times, a different space.

Listening to songs that you haven’t heard in years can be so bittersweet.

It’s even worse when it reminds you of people you don’t speak to anymore, and the places you used to live.

All that aside, life is a journey.

Have a good Sunday.

Mila. Xo