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Six Months On: Life Update



What can I say? Another hiatus bites the dust, and I am so happy about it. Also, how has it been six months already?!


For the longest time, I didn’t feel motivated or inspired to write and it has been a nightmare, especially since writing has helped me through so many difficult moments in life, and helped me navigate through all the complex emotions we face each day as human beings. A lot has been going on, but my creative mind has just been a complete blank, when it came down to expressing this in words.

I’ve struggled with writer’s block many times before, as well as frequent self-critical thoughts, not thinking any of my work is good enough to put out there. It is a lot. Not sure if it’s imposter syndrome, or my need for perfection taking over and causing havoc.

Either way, I found myself wanting to write today and it is a good feeling. There has been a lot of life changes: I started a new job, my skin is improving, I am becoming physically healthier and less anxious. Whilst I am still a work in progress, I feel like acknowledging these things are my way of having gratitude and instinctly trusting that I am on the right track.

I am not sure how frequently I’ll update the blog, but I definitely want to write more and have some kind of consistency towards the end of 2022 and the beginning of 2023. Might even post a few poems at some point, I would love to further develop my progress with the third poetry collection I am working on.

Looking forward to the weekend, are you?


Mila. Xo

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Hello 2022: Happy New Year!

As the title says, 2022 is finally here.

Happy New Year to all of you, WordPressers!

I look forward to a year of consistent uploads, and I am sure you do too.

Made a promise to myself that 2022 would be the year that I focus on writing more, I also want to be more present on social media as well, and I am hoping to make some changes to DAYDREAM MADNESS in terms of layout, change things up a bit, so definitely stay tuned for that over the next few months or so.

Starting work on poetry book #3 is also going to be a priority this year, it has been almost 4 years since my last project was created, so this is long overdue, in my opinion.

I can honestly not believe it has been so long since Lay Your Hands Bare (2017) & A Cryptic Human Entity (2018) were made public for the first time.

With each collection, I want to challenge myself and learn to express my emotions and thoughts in a balanced way, especially the ones that are attached to trauma.

I have a long way to go until the healing process is anywhere near complete, or accomplished in some way, shall we say. I am very grateful for the wisdom and clarity that has been brought into my life in the last few years.

Getting older has taught me so much about myself, as well as other people and their intentions.

And I just wanted to say thank you for the almost 500 followers I’ve managed to get on here since 2015, it truly means the world.

Despite the inconsistencies and hiatuses, you’ve always given me a reason to stick with the blog, regardless of how much or little I might post.

Being an introvert, it can be tricky knowing how to step outside the box for once. It can be awkward a lot of the time, truthfully.

But writing is therapy, it is an outlet for those very difficult thoughts and feelings. I’m not planning to share everything about my life, but I do want to be more open and confident in myself.

Insecurities can get the best of you sometimes, I know that all too well.

So, be kind to yourself and others, take one day at a time and just know that life is a complex journey, but it’ll be okay. You will be okay, no matter how tough it might be right now.


Love,

Mila. Xo


Life Changes & Inner Peace: Resolutions For 2022

Hello again, fellow writers and blog readers.

Christmas is now over, and everyone is slowly preparing for their NYE festivities, whatever that may look like. It’s also that time of year where we all reflect on the current year before it ends, and what we hope to discover in the next.

Personally, I love making these types of lists. But, I do want these resolutions to matter in the long run. Life changes don’t just have to happen every January onwards.

I’ll probably have my fair share of moments where I don’t sleep well, or meditate enough, things like that. But to be honest, I’m human and nothing is ever perfect.

Learning to be mindful and living in the present moment is important, to balance out the discipline and expectations we all have/expect of ourselves.

Without further delay, here are my top 5 (or 10, haha) resolutions/life changes that I want to incorporate into my daily routine and improve my current lifestyle.

1. To sleep better
2. Eat more mindfully
3. Read more books
4. Save more, spend less
5. Prioritize my mental health

Another five, because why not?

6. Declutter the house/wardrobe
7. Write more consistently
8. Start work on poetry book #3
9. Get more active
10. Meditate/journal

These are in no particular order, might I add.

I had many more I could mention, but these are the most relevant to my life at this moment. It doesn’t matter if I don’t successfully achieve all these things, as long as I am aware of my goals and at least trying to be the best version of myself. A journey like this is not always straightforward, but it is possible when the timing is right.

Would love to hear about what your own resolutions are for 2022. Or if you’ve decided not to participate in it this year, it’s fine either way.

This might be my last post of 2021, although I probably will post something on NYE as a farewell to what has been a strange year, to say the least.

Love,

Mila. Xo

Peace With Time

Despite the initial idea of wanting to write longer posts and such things, I honestly feel too exhausted for it. Sometimes, you just have to slow down for the sake of rest.

Found myself listening to podcasts a lot, I also really want to start reading books more. Might watch a movie tonight, honestly. Self-care is such an important part of my routine these days.

Anyway, I might add to this at a later date, but for now, I’ll probably just lay in bed and take my mind off some things. Have a wonderful evening.

Mila. Xo

Picking Up The Pieces


Despite previous hesitation, I’ve decided to follow my instinct and go with my initial vision for poetry book number three. The book title was chosen all the way back in 2019, if I can remember correctly.

At first, I was planning to change the entire concept, but after today’s strange events and the analysis it triggered, it felt right, more than ever, to bring the first vision of this book to life.

I wanted this next project to be centered around healing, the positive changes that arise during a time of self-restoration and the importance of stepping away from unhealthy situations, people, your own personal insecurities and all of the other issues that we face as individuals.

However, in escaping my own comfort zone and talking about the more heavier, less idealistic scenarios and understanding the emotions that come along with it all, I now can feel a sense of peace in the fact that talking about it is part of my healing process and my way of moving forward.

I’m excited to go on this journey again, it’s been a while.

Knowing where to start is a different story, do I start writing first or constructing a book cover? Only time will tell.

Nonetheless, it feels like the right moment in time to begin, and I can’t wait to see what the final outcome of this will look like in the near future.


Mila. Xo




Rainy Days In February



I was hoping to write this earlier in the day, but had quite a lot to do and that was tiring. As I write this, I can hear the sound of rain on my bedroom window tonight and it definitely has a calming effect on me.

Hopefully I fall asleep shortly, after posting this and completing a few things first. My annual WordPress subscription got renewed today, which means I don’t have to worry about that for another year now. I just have to renew the domain name in April.

As much as I don’t like the price of the subscription, the premium themes are so worth it. The simplicity of my current theme is wonderful, to say the least.

Minor changes might be made soon, but nothing too outrageous.

Tomorrow is going to be a little busy, but it should be fine, as long as I stay on target with what I need to get done. I often try and make lists the night before, it’s very motivating when you need some positive encouragement.

Anyway, before I ramble too much, I’ll leave it at that until the end of tomorrow.

Stay safe, take care of you and others and be kind.


Mila. Xo

The Writing Streak Continues

An early addition, for me anyway.


Hello readers, bloggers and human beings.

Found it a little difficult knowing what to write, but I want to keep this streak of writing alive for the time being. After all, this is a personal blog.

I’ve been meaning to start work on my next book of poetry, although it’s still a work in progress. A lot is going on, but I’m feeling positive so far.

Focusing on my health is a priority at the moment, as well as other things alongside that. I am determined to stick to my resolutions this year, in a healthy and gradual way. I try not to call it ‘dieting’ as it can trigger unhealthy eating habits.

Being the impatient young woman I am, it can feel like this whole process is taking a long time, yet I do understand that it’s not an overnight change.

Anyway, I hope you’re all having a wonderful weekend.

Stay safe, take care, be kind.


Mila. Xo

Emotive Tuesday



Slightly mixed feelings about today.

Certain things have changed, which I only found out via a brief phone call.

Lack of communication can be incredibly frustrating, but I suppose that’s how it is sometimes. That said, I do still have hope. How much of it I’ll have left as time goes on, only time will tell. For the time being, I remain neutral on the subject.

I doubt I’ll sleep much, so I’ll probably be writing, possibly be checking my emails and completing math work for my online course, take my mind off the stress.

Remaining positive is the main objective, although it can be difficult when your emotions are all over the place. What usually helps me is music, writing on the blog and staying hydrated. (In my case, it’s water)

What I listen to is very much influenced by how I feel, as it is for most people, right? Anyway, I still have a lot to be grateful for, and mindful of.

Remember to take a deep breath, be kind to yourself and others.

Have a safe and wonderful Tuesday.


Mila. Xo



Reflection Hour: Tiny Steps For Change



I promised myself I would write each day on the blog, not because I have anything in particular to express, but with 2020 being such an inactive year on DAYDREAM MADNESS, I wanted 2021 to be different.

The comfort it brings, a very precious gift. As the nights get colder, my mind seems to be all over the place. It is nice to simply feel calm and at peace.

Being kind to yourself and taking life one step at a time is vital sometimes.


Mila. Xo