I have missed writing on here, with all my heart. Every week that passed by, this urge to write, but it was hard to. It’s a long story…
It’s been way too long since I’ve posted a blog post, and I’m sorry about that.
Let’s just say that, life has been hectic for the most part. There is a lot I could add, but I don’t want this to be all about my personal and non-personal issues etc.
But, in the near future, I might feel comfortable sharing a bit more. Anyway, it is SO good to be back writing and expressing my thoughts on DAYDREAM MADNESS.
A lot has been going on lately, or, as I like to describe my view of it…
“an unpredictable cycle, of impulse versus instinct”.
On the bright side, my new poetry book is out, I’m slowly (but surely) looking for work to pay more bills off, working on a third collection of poems or stories, to publish this year- or the next. As well as, trying to work on my self-esteem and confidence, because having anxiety over every little thing is a nightmare, when inside of your heart, you know what you want and need out of life, but you’re so lost in your own insecurities, that reaching a little bit higher on the cupboard of life is scary.
It’s not that I’m lazy or whatever else people like to call me or define me by. If anything, I’m an extrovert living in an introverted, insecure shell of thought. And it really doesn’t help when certain people define me as something I am not, or when they pile the bricks on, just to step on me further.
Why should different rules apply for different people?
Aren’t we equal human beings; some richer, some poorer. Some younger, some older. It certainly does get on my last nerve, when people drag you into the dirt, instead of reaching their hand out to help you out of it.
Society is the biggest hypocrite – and I’m a part of it, nonetheless. We feed the monster that confines us in our comfort zones and limited spaces. Perhaps not on purpose, but we certainly play a big part.
2018 has been quite a chaotic year, I must say. And it’s only March as of yet! I’m supposed to be releasing my second book of poetry in less than two months but I am so behind schedule with the completion of it, that it might all have to be postponed until further notice.
Although, being the person I am, I will try my hardest to stick with my deadline and publication date etc. Life can be so chaotic at times, honestly, and it’s not a nice feeling at all. Everyone deals with it for the most part, yet I am not the best at coping under pressure.
It’s been a while since my last blog post on here, but with everything that’s been going on, it is incredibly hard to think straight, let alone know what to do next. But in time, it’ll pass at some point.
Exactly two months from now, it’ll be the second anniversary of my grandmother’s passing too.
Still hard to deal with, me losing her was painful beyond words. Bravest person until the end though, an angel who gained her well-deserved wings in the sky above.
You never truly appreciate the time you have with people until you see them fade away in front of your eyes. What a brutal reality. I guess all you can do is try and make the most of every second you breathe.
Don’t waste your life away, it’s the only one you have; as yourself, anyway. Who knows what the afterlife has planned, or where your soul will end up next. Only time will tell.
Hello again, everyone! And to the new followers that have appeared recently: Welcome to DAYDREAM MADNESS, a place of honest, complex thoughts expressed by yours truly.
It’s the last day of the year. Wow, it feels so weird to say that. Don’t you think so?
But for those of you who are celebrating 2018 already, I hope it’s been wonderful!
You really do learn a lot over the course of 12 months. Time doesn’t stand still for anyone and that’s just one of those things. Which, of course, is why people should not waste their remaining hours, months, days. It’s all about making good use of your resources etc.
There are experiences to remember, challenges to face and obstacles to overcome.
Life isn’t meant to be perfect, and the sooner we acknowledge that, the better. We often confuse fake smiles for true, wealth for happiness, and love, as if to calculate our own value and place in this world.
Better things will occur, better people will arrive, better memories will happen.
The complexity of life is what makes it a journey, so don’t lose yourself in temporary clouds of mind. We all have moments of doubt, and that’s not a crime to feel.
I personally thank everyone who has ever supported me and this blog, my year has been so great and so inspiring because of you.
As I enter my third year of blogging soon, I hope to further develop my work, and keep writing to my heart’s content. May the next year be full of light, love and clarity.
Note to self: Leave your fears behind. You are capable of wonderful things.
Hi again! I am here to (finally) share with you, My 10 Resolutions For 2018. Enjoy!
Having time for your blog is sometimes not possible, and for the most part, it’s completely understandable; You have a life to live, stuff to do, people to see, chores to tick off your list.
There’s something truly magical about this time of year. We have a wonderful excuse to decorate our houses with everything gold, sparkly and shiny. It’s also another reason to spread some happiness and cheer with the people around us. Whether it’s family, close friends or new companions in life, it’s the memories we create that is of importance, not how long we know the person. But anyway, I’m excited for the remainder of 2017. I’ll likely cherish every moment, because I know it’s coming to an end soon, and it’s been quite a vital year for me, in terms of self-growth, independence, inner strength, love, and most of all: Happiness.
It’s been a little quiet on my blog and I’m sorry about that. Haven’t really had the time to post stuff on here, so it’s definitely not intentional. Also, I worked on a keepsake journal for most of October and November, which is in production right now, I’m really pleased about that. It’s not going to be listed for sale, I mainly just wanted to create something that is me and is my own little place to write down thoughts, I also included brand new poetry within this project, motivational pieces, and of course, some inspirational words of wisdom and clarity. It’s the journal for the journey, as I like to say.
It’s hard to believe I’ve now self-published two projects of mine. A poetry book and a self-help/care journal. Really proud of my accomplishments this year. My second book/collection of poetry will be out sometime in 2018. And it has a title…
A Cryptic Human Entity will be released in mid-2018 and will have approximately 50-75 pages and it’ll be my most personal collection to date. A carefully selected list of poetry with subjects such as lust, intense emotions, desire and passion. It’s still a work in progress as I write, but for this particular project, I really wanted to take my time in creating a preferred choice of depth, as well as a blank canvas for one’s truth to unveil. It is always important to write from the heart and to mean every word, and feel brave enough to open up about our darker, harder-to-reach emotions.
Even now, as I talk about my second book, it’s strange yet I am excited to complete my mission of honest creativity. In the past, I would have never considered doing something quite like this. Wouldn’t even have stuck to a blog like this. So, every little step is a new accomplishment in my eyes. Honestly grateful for all things I have witnessed and achieved in 2017. And I think next year will be even greater than the previous.
I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend, my next post will be up either tomorrow or Monday, depending on how inspired I am to write. Let’s hope my writer’s block doesn’t return for a while. xo
I have been meaning to update my blog for the longest amount of time, but a lot has been going on in life and I suppose a hiatus was necessary. Where does one begin? Got no idea.
Firstly, I’ve been to two concerts in the past month. With my little sister and on my own. Must admit, being alone made me such a nervous wreck, but fighting that fear is what I’m most proud of.
Writing for my book has been put on hold for the most part. I hope to resume writing at the start of December. It’s important not to stress yourself or force the creativity out of you, otherwise it’s not from the heart, but more of a complex situation of mind vs. expectations.
Being a perfectionist doesn’t help me. It just makes me loathe the writer’s block that stops me from being creative. Inspiration will hit, eventually, but when you lack the patience, it feels like eternity.
Anyway, I hope to keep my blog more frequently updated from the start of December, since November has been quite a month of events. Hope everyone is having a good Wednesday! Take care.