Simple Post For Tonight


I’m feeling quite anxious today, and I have to get up super early tomorrow morning to accomplish some uncomfortable tasks, mainly phone calls that I really don’t want to make, but I have to. It’s not necessarily a big deal, although my overthinking brain says otherwise.

Just want to get this over and done with, I know I’ll feel better once it’s sorted. For the rest of the evening, I’m just trying to unwind and relax, which is easier said than done, in my opinion.

Anyway, to end the post on a slight more positive note, I wanted to express my gratitude to my family and friends, who are the best support system a young woman could have in life.

Mila. Xo

March Is Almost Here (Again)

Another month is ending, how strange is that?

Lockdown is seemingly coming to an end soon, or so I hope, with the uncertainty that has been surrounding us all regarding this.

I’m personally kind of stressed right now, got a lot of stuff to do and sort out on Monday so I’m hoping that all goes well. My mind tends to overthink certain times, which can happen. Just hoping that these feelings will be put to rest once I accomplish what I set my mind to.

Life can be tricky sometimes, but I’m trying to take one day at a time, because thinking too far ahead can be a little too much.

Anyway, I’ll probably go to sleep after this, the peaceful day of Sunday is upon us until that Monday feeling comes again. And it’s March 1st on that day too, double trouble.

Take care of yourself, stay safe, be kind and God bless.


Mila. Xo

February Ends Soon


Only two days left of the month, I find it hard to believe at times.

Had a slight “break” from the healthy side of things, but I’m sure it’ll be back on track by Monday. It’s fine, these things happen.

Anyway, I feel like I’m falling asleep as we speak, but I didn’t want to lose my streak of writing on the blog.

To all the new followers, welcome, and thank you for your support.

As we welcome March into our lives, I’m just having this moment of gratitude for many things. Life can be complicated sometimes, but that’s part of the journey and experience.

Mila. Xo

Stressful Times


Going to keep this quite short, feeling quite tired and stressed, to be honest with you.

I hope tomorrow will be good, got a lot of stuff to sort out, it can be quite daunting for me. Daily prayers help, too.

Well, that’s all from me, I’ll try and sleep in a while. Take care.

Mila. Xo

Quick Write Tuesday


I’ll probably not write much tonight, but I just wanted to make a quick post on here because I always feel better when I write.

Feeling quite positive, which is a good start.

Got some stuff I need to get done tomorrow, trying not to overthink it, I’m hoping to wake up super early, although it’s already 11pm so my idea of early is different, perhaps.

Anyway, tomorrow is a new day, and it should be good.

I don’t know why, but making phone calls makes me nervous, and I stutter sometimes. It’s easier for me to express myself through prepared notes, than to just think of something straight away.

Depends on the day and what I need to do, but overall, I’m trying to get more used to it. Easier said than done, in my opinion. Let’s see how the rest of the week goes, I need to be optimistic, it is a work in progress though.

Might leave tonight’s post at that, but I will continue to keep writing these daily because I personally enjoy talking about various subjects and how I feel. Self-expression as an outlet is a blessing.


Mila. Xo

Staying Productive Is Hard


To be consistently productive is something I truly want to be, but for the past few days, I’ve been feeling quite the opposite. It might have to do with my overthinking, to some extent. However, it does vary depending on what I have to do on that particular day.

I’ve struggled with feeling anxious for a long time, although over the years, I do think that I have kept it under control for the most part. It all ties together with past trauma, life has always been slightly chaotic.

Getting older and finding peace within yourself definitely helps a lot, but there are moments where I do feel overwhelmed. We all have our good days and bad days.

This is something I’m honest about, always have been. Suppressing how you feel is not healthy, sometimes it is the only way to function properly.
All of these things are complex, but on a positive note, I genuinely feel like I am in a better mindset, overall. Things are not always easy, but nothing ever is.


Mila. Xo

Analysis Of The Healing Process

There’s a chance I might ramble tonight, my emotions have been all over the place, so bear with me. It’s been a rough day, in terms of lacking motivation and not feeling like myself.

One of those days, mother nature does not make things any easier, so there’s that. I managed to get it together later on in the day; did a 30 minute workout, took all my supplements, did my skincare, ate consistently throughout the day, got some new groceries in the morning.

So, all in all, I got through the worst of what I was feeling.

As much as sleeping all day and eating junk was an option, I decided to get on with my daily routine, and stay productive. I’m really glad I did, because I feel a lot better.

Not giving in to temptation is something I’m proud of. In the past, I thought the best way to feel better was to eat junk, distract myself with sleep or binge watch a show or two. All those things are okay to do in moderation, but it doesn’t solve the problem.

I’m trying to teach myself discipline, self-control in terms of food and what I consume on a regular basis. Working on these things is not easy, you don’t change habits overnight, but over time, it becomes easier to manage and keep under control.

You have to dig deep, when it comes to understanding why you do certain things, and the predictable patterns that arise as a result. Once you understand the root cause, that’s when you can properly begin the healing process.

Trauma of any kind is hard to process, and it can take a long time to face it, acknowledge it, be able to speak about it, and also, learn to heal from it and move forward.

Every person’s journey is different, and that’s something I always bear in mind when talking about my own experiences in life, what I’ve been through and how it made me the person I am today.

I think I’ll leave it at that for now, I might elaborate further in future posts on the blog. Excuse the essay tonight, it’s not often I get so invested in what I write, although that is the whole point of DAYDREAM MADNESS.

This is my sanctuary of thought, where I can speak openly and feel a sense of comfort. Writing has always been a powerful outlet for me, it helped me through some dark times, which I’ll be forever grateful for.

Have a good evening, take care of you, stay kind.


Mila. Xo

Living One Moment At A Time

The idea that you need to have your life together at a certain time, a certain age, it can all be too much to think about sometimes. We grow up with these idealistic views of what success looks like, what a perfect world entails.

At the young age of 25, I feel increasingly worried about the future. Have I done enough at this age? Am I the odd one out?

It’s not as easy as people think, becoming an overnight success, finding the perfect job, having a perfect forever home. As a whole, society’s standards are difficult to live up to.

Taught to be ourselves, yet persecuted for our differences, our insecurities used as a weapon, people don’t listen to understand, there’s a lack of equality despite all these supposed regulations put in place, to protect us from discrimination, bullying, sexism, racism and many more.

I understand life is not a straightforward experience for the majority of people, but when does it all become too much? And don’t even get me started on the stigma surrounding mental health and the simple yet complex task of asking for help when necessary.

Fake it ’til you make it, or so I’ve been told about a dozen times or more.

Turning a blind eye to your problems is a temporary fix, ignoring them won’t solve anything. Facing them is equally challenging, but the comfort you feel once you do so is a sense of relief, a burden off your shoulders.

Life will get tougher before it gets better, I’m sure.

I just hope the future is much brighter than it has been in these recent weeks, months, even years. After all, you never know what to expect.


Mila. Xo



Wednesday Inspiration

I really want to begin work on poetry book #3.

There’s a lot of ideas and thoughts going through my mind right now, and I trust my intuition when it comes to knowing the perfect time to sit down and create.

Which reminds me, I need to get a big dining table, would make it a lot easier to write, use my laptop and a lot of other things too.

I also have an urge to spruce up my home, interior wise. Been organizing the bedroom a lot in the last couple of days.

Simple changes to the bedding, or the curtains, that’s enough to bring new life into a room. Maybe I should buy some paint whilst I’m at it.

It’s the small details I pay attention to, and those bring me joy in the midst of all other circumstances.

2021 has been strange yet wonderful so far, and I hope the coming months will be more positive than the previous.

Hope you’re all well, stay safe.

Mila. Xo

Blessings In Disguise

Figured I would sit down and get this written up before I go to bed in a while. The day’s not been too bad, a little predictable at times, but that is to be expected.

Anyway, I feel hopeful about the week so far. Routine is pretty much the same each day, although I enjoy the structure of it. Brings some kind of joy to the current circumstances of life.

I do feel incredibly blessed for the ones I know, the people I have gotten to know better over the years, and the ones I have yet to encounter on this journey.

So fortunate for my faith, my continuous sense of hope despite everything that I’ve experienced. And I’m grateful for my guardian angels above, the maternal grandmother I knew and loved very much. And also, the paternal grandmother that I never got to meet.

Some people I prefer not to mention, for other reasons, but I’ll leave it at that. In recent years, I’ve tried my best to forgive and bear no grudges. All it does is weigh your soul down, and it’s not worth the inner sorrow.

If I could tell my younger self one thing, it would be this: trust in God.

Stay safe and well, be kind, and God bless you all.


Mila. Xo