Break Of Hiatus: Society’s A Hypocrite

 

It’s been way too long since I’ve posted a blog post, and I’m sorry about that.

Let’s just say that, life has been hectic for the most part. There is a lot I could add, but I don’t want this to be all about my personal and non-personal issues etc.

But, in the near future, I might feel comfortable sharing a bit more. Anyway, it is SO good to be back writing and expressing my thoughts on DAYDREAM MADNESS.

 

A lot has been going on lately, or, as I like to describe my view of it…

 

an unpredictable cycle, of impulse versus instinct”.

 

On the bright side, my new poetry book is out, I’m slowly (but surely) looking for work to pay more bills off, working on a third collection of poems or stories, to publish this year- or the next. As well as, trying to work on my self-esteem and confidence, because having anxiety over every little thing is a nightmare, when inside of your heart, you know what you want and need out of life, but you’re so lost in your own insecurities, that reaching a little bit higher on the cupboard of life is scary.

 

It’s not that I’m lazy or whatever else people like to call me or define me by. If anything, I’m an extrovert living in an introverted, insecure shell of thought. And it really doesn’t help when certain people define me as something I am not, or when they pile the bricks on, just to step on me further.

 

Why should different rules apply for different people?

 

Aren’t we equal human beings; some richer, some poorer. Some younger, some older. It certainly does get on my last nerve, when people drag you into the dirt, instead of reaching their hand out to help you out of it.

 

Society is the biggest hypocrite – and I’m a part of it, nonetheless. We feed the monster that confines us in our comfort zones and limited spaces. Perhaps not on purpose, but we certainly play a big part.

 

 

 

A Journal For A Journey

There’s a few things I changed my mind on. The first is, the publication date/year of my book.

At first, it felt perfect to have it ready before Christmas, but then, after enough consideration, I decided to ultimately not rush anything and take my time with it all. It’s my most personal project to date, emotively.

So why the need to finish it sooner? I suppose the lack of patience. I mean, there are thousands of pieces written, but this book will be all new material, so that’s going to be exciting.

To compile a set of newly felt and expressed thoughts and emotions, it’s going to be a lot nicer to showcase, rather than dwelling on the previous ghosts in my heart, although, there’s always a special place in my heart for them, always will be.

Certain poetic favorites of mine might still make an appearance, but there’s a chance I’ll shorten them or simply create a new version etc. Not because I don’t like them, but because, when I wrote them, I guess I was quite sad, or mad, perhaps a little too attached to the idea of the person. But that’s not always a bad thing, to be honest. Sometimes we all need an outlet of some sort.

It’s all about letting yourself be open about taboo subjects, intense emotions, cryptic and flawed intentions. Bought myself a couple of new journals to write poetry and other stuff in. Feels like I’m going back to basics in terms of writing. Where not every piece was typed up on a computer. You could simply note down what it was that made you feel alive, or what made you feel sad. A shoulder to cry on, when opening up to a person simply wasn’t an option.

Writing is such an important part of my life now. Couldn’t really see myself without this blog, or any of the other writing sites I have found myself enjoying over the years. I kind of miss anonymously writing about certain topics, but it’s nice to feel comfortable for the first time in my life. I’m sure most people can understand that aspect of this. Well, I hope.

Self-expression is sometimes more than just a hobby. For me, it’s a chance to show people what I am capable of creating, and to also challenge myself. To think outside the box, take chances, take a few risks now and then. What might seem terrible to you could be loved by the next person. It’s all about not letting critics and your own self-critical thoughts take over. Embrace your flaws, know that you can’t produce perfection, but you can keep going until you feel satisfied. Practice and patience are key. As well as self-encouragement, positive thinking. Motivation and inspiration is great for keeping you on track too.

Don’t get lost in the madness of self-loathing. Take care of yourself. Nurture your soul/art. When there’s heartache, write it out. Do you feel lonely? Pick up a pen and let your heart speak. If someone makes your day, or makes you feel happy, write it down, share it with a friend. After all, we only have one life. Why not live in the moment?

Hello, November – Second Book Thoughts

Well, well, well. Hello November, my dear friend. I’ve been anticipating your arrival for a while now and it’s so great to see you again. As much as the previous months have been a journey of self and reflection, I think this month will be my most exciting one yet. Here’s why…

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Writing Session #31

So, the last Writing Session is being written as we speak. It’s been quite a journey in terms of sticking to a writing routine. Proud of myself for not giving up on what could have been, easily, a disaster.

But all that said, I have enjoyed the idea of posting every day, whether it’s meaningful, deeper thoughts or simply, a ramble of the moment. The variation keeps the mind at peace, which is a good thing, I suppose.

WHAT HAS IT TAUGHT ME ABOUT BLOGGING?

A lot, actually. It has made me appreciate my blog a lot more. And also, if anyone noticed, I recently changed themes. This one is more sleek and nicer than the previous. Wanted to make it different and finally, I found it. Nothing quite like a good blog makeover. Personally, I’m quite satisfied.

NEXT ON MY BLOG AGENDA:

 

  • Editing of older posts.
  • Buying a good camera.
  • Regular posts and quotes.

Writing Session #30

Tomorrow’s night going to be fun. Not as bold or exciting for me personally, but for many others, I am sure. Regardless of what celebration, I’m content with my books and poetry. Writing for my second book too, and I need all the inspiration I can get when it comes to it. A title has been set, which I’ll be announcing next month, as well as the explanation behind what it represents as a whole. There’s a cover design this time, which a dear friend is going to help me with. I swear, I have the best people in my life right now.

So, all credit due goes to her, and the other muses that have inspired me in these last few years (or even longer than that). Some friendships get stronger and better with time. I’m grateful for the ones who have remained true to our bond, and even for the ones who ultimately let go. I don’t necessarily blame them. We sometimes drift apart, it’s human nature, a natural part of life. What might have worked before just didn’t work now and that’s okay.

For this post, I wanted to write a more lengthy piece. But, that’s the great thing about personal blogs. We speak and talk about whatever, and whenever we feel the need to. I try and not be unrealistic in terms of my blog. This is my sanctuary, my happy place and if at least one person likes what I have to say, awesome. Don’t let numbers and statistics ruin you too much.

Halloween is tomorrow, um. Personally, I’ll just be at home, there’s a chance I’ll open the bottle of wine that’s been in my bedroom for what feels like forever. Not necessarily much of a drinker, neither do I have time or a taste for it.  The occasional drink or two is enough for me. Can’t say the same about my coffee habit. A little hypocritical, but, I’m a complex human, don’t judge me! Haha. Well, until next time, which is tomorrow. My last Writing Session will be posted quite early. If anyone has any ideas on what I should do next, feel free to send a message or a comment on here. I’d like to hear from you!

Writing Session #29

Clocks went back today. Good in terms of extra sleep, but having to be productive for another hour seemed like a chore. Thankfully, I got through it just enough to stay positive.

As 2017 slowly comes to an end, the idea of a new year is exciting but petrifying at the same time. It almost feels like you’ve outgrown your favorite shoes, or it’s a sigh of relief after what was a tough year. Either way, I’m thankful for the obstacles faced and people known. After all, our experiences should encourage us, not break us apart. More soon. xo

Writing Session #28

Halloween is in three days! I’m usually not excited, but I like the idea of wearing black and having quality time with family. Who doesn’t, really. To think that November is around the corner not only excites me but scares me also. It’s like, where has time gone?

Each day is never short of an adventure or an obstacle to face in person. How we all go about living our lives and discovering different parts of us is and always will be either unpredictable, or the opposite. It all varies, depending on who we are as individuals.

Well…that’s me signing off for today. I’ll be sure to write another post tomorrow and talk a little more. But until then, I wish you a beautiful night and happiness all around you.