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Past eleven in the evening now, and I’ve only just begun writing this up. There’s been a lot of conflicting thoughts in this last week about a lot of things.
As much as I love the weekend and being able to preserve my energy for the next week ahead, I can’t help but wonder how certain people are doing at this moment.
Haven’t heard from them in a while, which is out of character, regardless of circumstances. I just hope that they’re okay and reach out soon.
It’s tough being so far away from some people. I suppose, all you can do is stay positive, when possible.
But aside from that, I genuinely want to express my gratitude for the people in my life. They truly make my life better in many ways.
A peaceful day, hasn’t really consisted of much except cleaning and watching movies, but I’m cherishing every minute of it.
Sometimes you just need a day or two to get your energy back after a busy week.
It’s the simple yet rewarding moments of each day that I’m learning not to take for granted, because you never know when those will come to an end.
This is a bittersweet month for many reasons, and I’m definitely finding myself more emotional as the days go by. As the 19th marks five years without my grandmother; that’s one of the hardest things about May, and that date haunts me every month, it hurts despite knowing that she’s free of pain and suffering.
All that gives me comfort is that I have an incredible guardian angel in the sky, who looks after me from afar.
Nostalgia is a strange thing, emotions times ten.
After some needed rest, time to eat and unwind, I wanted to get on the blog and talk for a minute.
Writing late wasn’t what I had in mind for today, but at least I am writing.
I truly wish the weekend would last longer, it feels so short.
Sunday has still been good, cooking and gathering my thoughts ahead of the new week starting.
Got hair lightener in my hair currently, so going to bed is probably not going to happen anytime soon.
Been so nostalgic from music too, heard songs that reminded me of better times, a different space.
Listening to songs that you haven’t heard in years can be so bittersweet.
It’s even worse when it reminds you of people you don’t speak to anymore, and the places you used to live.
All that aside, life is a journey.
Have a good Sunday.
As much as I am grateful for life as it is today, I can’t help but wonder about what could have been in another outcome of events. I know, it’s kind of ridiculous at this point.
But sometimes, your mind just wants to know.
When you have to discuss certain parts of your life, I suppose the curious side of you emerges.
I’ve learned a lot about my past over the last few years or so. Suppressing your feelings about it is a temporary solution. Such a complex journey, yet I do believe that I have found closure as a result.
We can’t change our pasts, unfortunately. As tough as that is for someone like me in moments like this, all I can do is acknowledge it, process it to the best of my ability and accept it.
That’s easier said than done, ultimately.
As I get older, I do hope that things start to make a little more sense.
Well, maybe I’ll write a book about it, or perhaps a novel of some kind. That’s something I hope to do in my later years. We’ll see if it happens.
Stay safe, and I hope you all have a wonderful evening.
Halfway through the week and it’s mad how fast time seems to pass by.
Looking forward to a good night’s sleep, after I get some minor study done.
It’s been quite a bittersweet day, but all you can do is just keep certain people in your thoughts and hope they’re doing well.
I could go into further detail, but let’s keep it vague and not to mention, private. On a positive note, a sibling of mine has a birthday tomorrow so that’s something to quietly celebrate at home.
January went by quick, am I right? Lockdown and all the restrictions make most days seem identical, but all in all, as long as you’re staying safe and keeping yourselves protected, that’s the main thing at the moment.
Weather seems to be less cold today, which is nice. It’s dark outside by the time it’s 5pm, sometimes earlier than that. Hopefully, we get a bit of sunshine soon.
I’ll try and write tomorrow’s post a bit earlier in the day, if possible.
As always, stay safe and take care of yourself and others.
This week has been challenging and humbling, to say the least.
If there’s anything I take away from this, it’s that when life gives you lemons, either make lemonade or remain bitter. It can be tough seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, when it seems like things are heading towards one direction, and not the one you were hoping for.
Grateful in this moment for family, friends, and the ability to see beyond the lines, and also read between them when necessary too.