Back At It: Hiatus Over

Hello again, what a long time it has been since my last upload on the blog.

I wasn’t planning to have a hiatus of this length, but it is what it is and I am back with a vengeance.

Truthfully, I have struggled with writer’s block a lot for many months, even years at this point.

Life has been all over the place, so have my emotions. Not being able to convey or express how I’ve been feeling has affected me quite heavily.

I put a lot of pressure on myself in all aspect of life, whether it is my appearance or what my poems are about. The hunger for perfection is insatiable, to put it bluntly.

Creativity has always had a big place in my mind, heart and soul. So to feel like nothing I did was good enough was very taxing on my mental health and it still is, sometimes.

The goal is to take baby steps, and start off small and build my way back up the ladder once more. It might not always be consistent or on point, but it will be authentic to me and my journey of it all.

Just wanted to say a big thank you to anyone who has followed or just discovered my blog on here. Any engagement I receive is wholeheartedly appreciated. It truly means the world and encourages me to continue, even if I’m not feeling my best.

What are my plans for the months ahead?

As of now, I hope to update the blog at least once a week, if not more. It all depends on life’s schedule and God’s plan for me on this path.

I count my blessings every day that I have good health, a wonderful support system and an overall decent life.

That’s not to say that there won’t be challenges along the way, but I will take that on if the occasion arises.

For the time being, I want to remain present and in tune with the universe so a hiatus like the previous one is out of the question.

Balance is key, which an impatient person like me needs to be reminded of on a daily basis.

It is my hope that I can commence further work on my third poetry collection, and make progress with that as it has been four years since A Cryptic Human Entity.

Well, as of tomorrow it will be the 4th anniversary of that second poetry book and I still cannot fathom it.

The theme for the next book is still up for debate. I feel like a lot has changed and evolved since my initial concept for it, that I might do something completely different.

I have a lot that I want to share and heal from on an emotional level, timing is key too.

There’s a chance I might do a mini version of the next collection, and a full, extended edition of the poetry book next year. So excited to finally start this project in a proper way.

Until then, stay tuned for more updates as I go along. After all, we only have the life God gave us, we need to make every second count.

And also, happy belated 7th anniversary to my pride and joy, this little blog of mine, DAYDREAM MADNESS.

It’s also my birthday in 12 days, how exciting! But anyway, hope you all have an amazing rest of your weekend and I’ll speak to you soon.

Happy Sunday and God bless you all!

Yours truly,

Mila. Xo

First Day Of 26

One of the best things about celebrating birthdays as an adult is not presents, although any you receive are always appreciated – at least by most.

What I truly love the most is, the people you get to spend time with, the joy in the room. The last year or so has impacted a lot of people’s lives, mentally, emotionally and physically. And my heart goes out to all of those who have lost loved ones and continue to navigate life in these strange and difficult times.

So grateful for the birthday wishes yesterday, and any belated ones I might receive in the days to come.

Bank Holiday weekend is here and I hope you all have a wonderful Friday.

God bless you all and stay safe.

Mila. Xo

Happy Birthday To Me

Despite the difficult start to the day, it was surprisingly good.

I was going to write a blog post earlier on in the day, but I was trying to be productive for the most part.

Birthdays as an adult can be so weird, and not as fun as it was when you were an adult.

Nonetheless, happy 26th to me.

Mila. Xo

25 Has Been Good

In less than half an hour, I’ll be turning 26. One of those awkward, in-between milestone numbers.

As much as I don’t make too big of a deal of mine, it is a little fun at times, something to look forward to.

25 has been good, and I’m sure 26 will be just as unpredictable and full of surprises.

Have a wonderful evening, God bless.

Mila. Xo

Hello Again, May

Happy 1st of May, everyone.

Starting a new month on the weekend is always fun, yet strange in the way that you almost lose track of which day it is.

Nonetheless, I’m trying to appreciate the time I have to destress and get stuff done. Luckily, there’s not much to do, a very positive thing if I must say say so myself.

Plus, it’s a Bank Holiday weekend, so three days instead of two.

This is one of those months where I’m kind of stuck in the middle, emotionally. Many great things to be grateful for, although I miss my late grandmother terribly during this time.

For that reason, the 19th hurts to think about. And my birthday is a week and a day later, so celebrating that feels awkward, but I know my grandmother is in a better place, and she lived a long and unique life, one of the most inspiring women I have ever known to exist, in my eyes.

Grief is hard to navigate, even now, almost five years on.

Our guardian angels are protecting us from above, I know that much by now. And so is the Lord, he works in mysterious ways to guide us and strengthen us.

Have a wonderful Saturday.

Mila. Xo

Plans For The Weekend

It’s been a surprisingly good day.

Despite the fact that I’m absolutely exhausted from my walk earlier and so nervous about getting my exam result at some point next week, the hope is still there.

Was close to falling asleep before, so gathering some energy to write a quick post on here took a lot.

A long weekend, you can’t complain about that, can you?

My birthday is also getting closer by the hour and I’m still very conflicted.

Yes, getting older is great, you learn so much in a small space of time and I’m grateful.

It can be quite bittersweet sometimes, though.

All in all, happy Friday everyone!

Mila. Xo