January is almost coming to an end, it feels strange acknowledging that fact. Well, that and the fact that I have a lot of math study to do.
After writing this quick post, I’ll try and get some work done and hopefully go to sleep tonight. I wouldn’t recommend staying awake all night, the aftermath can be so awful, haha.
Regardless, the day hasn’t been too bad. I just find it hard to believe that the weekend is just around the corner, yet again. Lockdown makes every day seem either very abrupt or it drags on, every time you look at the clock.
Having a routine does help a lot, it keeps my mind from being cluttered with too many thoughts. I do want to start journaling and keeping track of my feelings and emotions. An offline diary of some kind, honestly.
I have messy handwriting, though. Apparently, that means you’re intelligent or something. But in all fairness, I’m just an intellectual who maybe thinks too much at times, and that ultimately gives me a lot to speak about.
This blog helps me with keeping it all balanced. Which I’m glad for.
Anyway, take care of you and stay safe today.
What a chaotic day in the world, to be honest.
Violence is never the answer, and that’s something I truly stand by, in times of great difficulty and turmoil. That being said, there are people with good intentions, and people with bad intentions. Sometimes, it can be hard to distinguish one from the other.
It only shows the true colors of society, humanity as we know it is on thin ice. It’s 2021 and there’s still a lot to accomplish until we can honestly say that change has occurred. Until then, only time will tell what happens next.
At times, I’m glad I often refrain from reading every article out there, all the fear and pain of the world can be a lot to bear on one’s shoulders. Hopefully, as we evolve as human beings, society’s thoughts and views will too.
The toxicity of social media can be very damaging, a limited amount is just enough to go about your daily life. Of course, there are many pros and cons to any platform or website: censorship (we all know there needs to be boundaries but too much is too much), algorithms that are flawed, news that is not always as great as it could be. I could go on, but I’m sure everyone knows what I mean.
I’ve never understood the ones who are submerged in the waters of their online presence. Of course, there are many great things and people that have emerged from the digital world, but there’s also a lot of negativity, unnecessary hatred, bullying, discrimination and lack of equality.
We need more love and kindness in the world. Empathy lacks and so does accountability and gratitude. Tomorrow is never guaranteed, which makes today even more important to appreciate. Better late than never, I say.
I wish all of you nothing but the best and I hope you’re staying safe.
Hello, and Happy New Year to each and every one of you.
It’s that time again, to make resolutions and stick with them.
To say 2020 was a nightmare, that’s an understatement.
In this blog post, my first of 2021, I wanted to include some of my own personal resolutions for the next 365 days ahead, but it’ll be a little different.
These resolutions of mine are more about learning to find balance and peace of mind with myself instead of overwhelming my brain with a list of things I probably attempt to accomplish every year.
I think I have about five things I want to focus on.
Here’s my (realistic) list of 5 resolutions for 2021:
#1. Work on being kinder to myself.
#2. Budget more.
#3. Get more sleep.
#4. Improve eating habits.
#5. Start writing for my next poetry book.
I’m sure I could list more, but let’s start with those for now.
Do let me know in a comment what your personal resolutions are for 2021.
Have a wonderful day/evening, all of you!
Hello again, blogging universe.
I am finally back with a new blog post, after what feels like a lifetime of not being able to express my thoughts out in the open.
It’s less than an hour until midnight, and my birthday is around the corner. Yes, the big 2-5. I know, not as special as someone’s 21st or 30th and so forth, but I wanted to get back into writing again, and tonight felt like the right time to do so.
To say that I have been creatively blocked is an understatement. In fact, I have found it increasingly difficult to express myself in the written form.
To whoever reads my post, thank you for sticking around. I plan to make an effort in the months to come. My third poetry book is still a work in progress, I’m working on a lot of things at the moment, much of it has to do with learning to find balance and peace.
But, as I’m sure most poeple know, it can be hard. The older I get, the more I have gratitude for the small things that make life so wonderful. The good, bad and ugly.
With time, you definitely learn to see things from a different perspective, the clarity can be very bittersweet at times, but that’s a part of our journey.
I am so grateful for the people who are in my life at this moment. You are truly magnificent.
Anyway, excuse my rambling on. I’m just thrilled to be here. My beloved blog recently turned 5, on the 13th of May and I often find it strange how fast time has gone by.
I’ll end this post by saying: take care of yourself, and have a wonderful day/night.
Although I’ve been writing every day, updating the blog on a regular basis turned out to be less ideal. Told myself it’s okay to not write constantly.
Despite my brain working hard, and barely thinking straight, I’ve kept myself calm and collected.
Having such an anxious mind can be a challenge. People will look at you, and think you’re a mess for it. I’m personally tired of criticizing myself.
For a long time, I was treated horribly by many people. Telling people no made me feel guilt on the highest degree, taking the time to heal felt like too much to ask for.
Learning to accept yourself and embrace the person you are, that’s a long process in itself. In the end, you’ll be grateful for the tough journey.
In the last six months, I’ve discovered strength within, that I never knew I had.
Found out the real meaning behind life, what it means to be living.
I’m only now starting to experience life in all its glory. Better a late bloomer than none at all. Soon enough, I’ll become the version of me I was destined to be, all along.
No, it doesn’t make me any less or any more. If anything, what didn’t kill my hope, it only strengthens mine with time.
There are things I have yet to improve, and I’m fully aware as it is.
Being weak in the flesh is nothing new. We’re perfectly imperfect, and sometimes you just have to keep moving forward.
Hoping 2019 brings love, happiness and so much more, to each and every one of you.
We’re almost halfway through October already, but that’s not always a bad thing Continue reading “Writing Session #14”
Yet another writing session. I’m sorry for the lack of depth within my writing as of late. Personally, I have a lot to say but knowing how to put those feelings into words is tough at times. Life is better than it’s ever been, which keeps me content about my own self-critique.
Being truly satisfied will always be a cloud too far in the sky of thought. You can try to perhaps succeed. Most times, it’ll do. Just don’t expect too much. It’s better this way, you will find.
Forever grateful for this platform, and for the ones who have followed me on this journey. Certainly inspiring. Well, stay tuned for the next one. I may have more to add in the next coming 24 hours. Take care. xo
Like many writers, I strive for perfection each time I create a new piece of work, and whenever inspiration hits. But, as we all know, there’s no such thing. As much as we work hard to produce great results, the more we push ourselves to achieve, the more it can damage our health and lives. Which, in turn, doesn’t do much good for our minds either.
There’s a difference between progression and utter exhaustion, I can say that now.
Be passionate about your ambitions, but also keep in mind, the importance of a balanced life. We often forget how important it actually is. Often enough, people get caught up in the chaos of life and ultimately, it leads to a build-up of stress, anxiety, depression etc.
After all, we’re human and it’s okay not to be. Keep your head up.
Remember that working hard is a good thing, as long as you take a break when it’s needed. Working yourself to the bone is not helpful, if anything, it stops you from reaching your full potential.
And you have a lot of potential in this world.
Being mentally well and emotionally well are important parts of a personal equation.
During the first year of my blog being active (under a different title at the time) I often found myself under pressure. Felt like I had to impress people with my work, which caused my anxiety to go through the roof.
It was partly the reason for a blog hiatus in the early days of DAYDREAM MADNESS being put together. The inspiration, as well as the motivation to write, it simply wasn’t there and I was struggling to cope most days. In the end, I’m quite glad I took that time to reflect and work on myself, emotionally.
Now, I actually have a good mindset, which does help a lot when you’re writing and constantly creating new material. Of course, we all have bad days from time to time, but it doesn’t affect me as much. Time really does make all the difference!
Patience is a virtue. Self-care is a necessity. Believe in yourself.
Talking to yourself is somewhat therapeutic for the soul.
Even in the darkest of times, you’ll always have yourself.
Often enough, I am my own commentary genius. Well, in my mind.
People can define it as they choose, but nothing keeps me more down-to-earth than a few wise words from yours truly.
In the end, you know yourself best. Or perhaps, as close to it as can be. That’s just my personal opinion.
Have a wonderful night, take care of you.
What is the best advice you’ve ever given to yourself?
After years of wishing to be present at this place, I’m finally here, in what seemed like the longest mission.
But the sad part is, you’re not part of the equation. You’d probably freak out if you knew, or perhaps that’s just me worrying about your reaction.
Being here is odd, wonderful yet strange. We haven’t spoken in over a year, calling you would probably be a bad idea, so I’m pushing my feelings aside and spilling my emotions here instead.
To be honest or just keep thoughts closed, the question spinning inside my mind.
I want to say what I feel, but at the same time, talking on impulse is never a good scenario when your emotions are on full speed.
People always did say that I was a little too vocal about this dear heart of mine, and without too much thought, ended up alienating myself from the ones I cared about the most.
Ultimately, the person on the wrong side of things was me, despite my denials and trials.
Because of my personal insecurities and stupid ways, I lost an important person in my life, someone who stood by me during the hardest moments, not because I deserved it, but because they cared unconditionally.
That’s what I regret the most, losing you.
And it’s not that I desire things to be back to how they were, or how they should have been, but I cannot deny the fact that I miss the friend I knew and loved, and still do.
PS: You’re a bright star in a dim world.