It feels like half of my recent blog entries are often not as interesting as they could be and I do apologize about that. Since it’s a personal blog of sorts, yet very open and transparent, I do feel like it’s a strange mix of the two.
Although, I’m always so grateful to anyone who reads any of it. Definitely encourages me and inspires me to keep going. This blog has been a big part of my journey as a person and that is incredible.
Next month marks six years of this blog (many name changes but we’ll ignore that)
Hard to believe that I’ve kept this active for so long, I never stuck to any other blog or website like this. I’m dedicated, for sure.
Where this will lead further into the future, I’m not sure.
The only way is forward, with time.
I spent most of the day focused on studying for this exam, which is a big achievement for me as I usually don’t like it at all. However, failing would honestly disappoint me, so there’s that.
Will try and find an interesting topic to discuss tomorrow, if my schedule will allow an early post.
I’m also waiting for a piece of furniture to be delivered, plus there’s phone calls to be made, a webinar to access at 11am, a lot of math revision because I will try my hardest not to fail this exam on Friday.
That being said, I hope you all have a good rest of Tuesday.
May is around the corner, and I don’t quite know what to make of this fact.
It’s a bittersweet month, for many reasons. I both dread and look forward to it, if that makes sense at all?
Complicated person over here, trying to work all of life out, one step/day at a time. Honestly glad the weekend is here though, I can sleep a lot, eat good food and hopefully write more poems and blog posts.
All I’ve managed to collect and write down is titles for things, creatively speaking. Got a lot on my mind, so that doesn’t help.
I have a complicated relationship with many things in life, which has been a struggle and a half, sometimes. The mind is a strange part of you.
To say emotions are complex is an understatement, understanding them can take a lifetime. In my own experience, it’s very confusing and there’s mixed signals all over.
As you navigate through life, expectations and comparisons arise, more so than ever, which in itself can be daunting. This definitely lives rent-free in my mind, truth be told.
What also becomes evidently obvious is that, we live in a society that puts a timeframe on all achievements, and you’re the odd one out if things aren’t according to schedule.
In my opinion, planning ahead seems pointless at times. We don’t ever have our lives entirely figured out, and if we do, will that last? Maybe, or not.
The older I get, the more I try to shake off that idealistic image of how things should be, to appreciate the scenery in front of me, and the people I get to share these moments with.
Expectations beyond the realistic is a recipe for disaster, it’s not anywhere near sustainable in the long run. That being said, the opinion of this will vary from person to person, as it should.
Anyway, excuse the deep and emotive post tonight, I honestly didn’t know what to write about in the beginning. However, getting back to basics and talking more about these subjects is something that I am aiming to do on this blog of mine.
When I look back on older posts, I do miss being able to express myself in such an honest way. Of course, there’s boundaries and ways to talk about it all in a constructive and structured manner.
I’ll be talking about more light-hearted topics tomorrow, I just needed to get it off my chest, to be honest.
All in all, I’ll leave it at that and I hope you’re all having a great Wednesday!
Emotions can be complicated, it can also be a difficult thing to talk about when you’re overwhelmed as it is. However, in some ironic way, sometimes that’s the only way I can write. And it’s important to not suppress how you feel either.
I’m currently in the process of writing for the next poetry book, although at this point, when this will be unveiled or released, not too sure.
However, despite feeling less than ideal, I wanted to come on here and just distract myself from my thoughts for a moment. Writing has always been such a good outlet, in many ways.
Anyway, I’ll probably end the post at this for now, until tomorrow.
Take care, stay safe, be kind to yourself and others.
Organizing the house can be so good, especially when you have a break from other things in life.
As much as I love sleep, relaxing and not doing much, I definitely have days where all I do is clean the house, wash the dishes, vacuum all the rooms. Things like that do bring me a lot of joy, it’s also beneficial for my mental health on days where motivating myself is just difficult.
Finding a good balance helps. It’s not always easy, but in time, you can do it.
Each journey of life is different, might I add. As always, I only speak for myself, and sharing my experiences and thoughts is comforting, very therapeutic too. That being said, I’ll end this post here.
Sometimes, taking a moment to think before we do or say something is the difference between wrong and right choices in life. At times, I can find myself being impulsive, in terms of buying certain things or making a change somehow (hair bleach sessions included)
Almost bleached my hair earlier, funnily enough. Until I styled my hair in a different way, which made me appreciate my brunette, messy curls. Tomorrow is Easter Sunday, so I’m looking forward to that.
Faith is such a big part of my daily life, more so with each day that passes by. Makes me so grateful for the people in my life and the positive changes that have occurred in recent years. And I also believe it keeps me close to my late grandmother. In May, it’ll be the fifth anniversary of her passing and that’s so surreal.
I just hope I make her proud, on this complicated journey of life and experiences.
It’s April 1st and today is not any different, in my opinion.
The only fun part is the 4 day weekend, but it would have been more entertaining if current circumstances weren’t happening, I’m sure.
Hard to believe my birthday is next month, it doesn’t feel like it at all.
Time went by so quick, I often wonder if it’s just me thinking so or something else. Another month is here, nonetheless. The weather has been wonderful here, so that’s a positive.
Been in such an organizing mood recently, it’s just a shame certain furniture can be so expensive. I’m not picky, but I enjoy various aesthetics, whilst sticking to affordable prices. The more deals and ways to save money, the better.
Since the beginning of 2021, I’ve been so into saving money and tried to better with money as a whole.
That aside, I’m ready for the weekend to begin. Bring it on.