Temporary Distractions

Nostalgia and apathy, contradictory mix of the mind’s emotional response, and lack thereof. Workouts and staying productive takes the edge off to some extent.

I don’t know what’s worse, suppression of this reality or accepting that these thoughts and feelings exist?

Both are equally hard to navigate. If only I could articulate them into words and make art of it all. I always find it easier to write about darker subjects, or so it used to be.

Might look into writing submissions and story competitions, get my creativity in shape, as silly as that may sound. I understand you have to go with the flow, but my impatience can make that very difficult.

On a lighter note, I just realized that tomorrow marks three years since I published my second poetry collection via Blurb, A Cryptic Human Entity.

I can’t believe it, honestly. Three whole years tomorrow.

Will post a link to it on the next post, to commemorate this beautiful, precious moment in time. You can also find it quite easily online.

I do regret the lack of promotion when it first was published, but again, there was a lot going on in life the first months of it being out for the world to see.

That being said, I’ll always be proud of my work, regardless of who buys it or what happens next. For me, just holding the book in my hands was incredible and emotional.

Writing has always been a part of my life, something I hold near and dear to my heart and soul. I’m not the best at it, but I’ve still got a lot of learning and growing to do. My story is still being written as we speak.

It has gotten me through a lot of difficult times, so has this blog of mine too. It’s not just self-expression or art in written form, it’s therapy, a sanctuary.

Mila. Xo





Gloomy Wednesday

Despite the unfortunate weather, and the mixed emotions of the day, it wasn’t all too unbearable. It’s safe to say that I’ll be asleep sooner rather than later.

Already mid-week again, I don’t necessarily mind it because I get to do Math and take my mind off things (Who even am I anymore? haha)

It’s been a constant mix of apathy and motivation for me today.

Had the motivation to get things done, yet at the same time, there were elements of apathetic moments throughout the day as well.

On the bright side, my new exercise bike has been a great addition to the house. It makes me want to spend more time in the living room for once.

All the other stuff aside, I just wanted to say that it’s important to look after yourself. That’s something I’ve tried to keep a priority, regardless of how my day is going to be.

Not the most interesting post I’ve ever made on this blog, but perhaps tomorrow will inspire me further? Until then, have a great Wednesday.

Mila. Xo