Late Bloomer’s Anthem: That Girl In The Corner

Although I’ve been writing every day, updating the blog on a regular basis turned out to be less ideal. Told myself it’s okay to not write constantly.

Despite my brain working hard, and barely thinking straight, I’ve kept myself calm and collected.

Having such an anxious mind can be a challenge. People will look at you, and think you’re a mess for it. I’m personally tired of criticizing myself.

For a long time, I was treated horribly by many people. Telling people no made me feel guilt on the highest degree, taking the time to heal felt like too much to ask for.

Learning to accept yourself and embrace the person you are, that’s a long process in itself. In the end, you’ll be grateful for the tough journey.

In the last six months, I’ve discovered strength within, that I never knew I had.

Found out the real meaning behind life, what it means to be living.

I’m only now starting to experience life in all its glory. Better a late bloomer than none at all. Soon enough, I’ll become the version of me I was destined to be, all along.

No, it doesn’t make me any less or any more. If anything, what didn’t kill my hope, it only strengthens mine with time.

There are things I have yet to improve, and I’m fully aware as it is.

Being weak in the flesh is nothing new. We’re perfectly imperfect, and sometimes you just have to keep moving forward.

Hoping 2019 brings love, happiness and so much more, to each and every one of you.

Obstacles…Where Do I Begin?

Hi all!

It’s Mila here, with a new blog post to share, finally.

Haven’t been posting a lot in recent months, I try and not clog up your feeds with too much emotive rambling, or heavy ranting…although, I have been tempted enough times.

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The Broken People Are Still Worthy

People have strong points and weaknesses. It’s not a crime to feel happy or sad and it’s not wrong to feel the emotion that we do.

This is what makes us human, even vulnerable at times. But it should never define you as a person.

Often enough, people like to point out that I don’t have a job, even though there’s a personal reason why, that my anxiety was and still is just another word for “lazy”, and that my depressive tendencies were an excuse to stay locked inside my own thoughts.

But the truth is, some people find a twisted pleasure in my failed attempts of independence. When something goes wrong or I personally feel terrible, it’s their joy in life.

I’m a known introvert, perhaps a social outcast, definitely a loser in some people’s eyes. But, there’s always a reason for my melancholy state of mind. Of course, it’s easier to judge me than display compassion.

All I can say is, a person’s pain is not something to laugh at. We all have different situations and complicated lives.

Listen to your family, cherish the loyal friends in your life, have long talks with the ones you know and love. Don’t abuse trust for a minute of gossip.

the pros and cons of being a people pleaser

People often say that being selfless is good, as long as you’re not being taken advantage of. Most times, people are grateful and that’s all fine and dandy for the majority.

But soon enough, you start to see a pattern of change in the ones who have become quite accustomed to the idea of you always lending a hand, which brings me to say…

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window of opportunity

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Created my first CV today, and it’s a bittersweet feeling because 1. I don’t like the fact that I’m getting older, although the freedom and independence is of course delightful, and 2. because I don’t have a long employment history due to me helping my family out a lot.

It’s not that I’m lacking the skills, well maybe, but more lacking the overall experience of being in full-time work. As someone who has tried but failed to keep a job, most times because of my anxiety, attention to detail or the boss’ idealistic demands, that means it’s a little scary applying for jobs, let alone creating a list of my accomplishments and so forth.

From an early age, I’ve always been an intellectual person, someone who takes pride in what she achieves in life and takes the bad and transforms it into something of good use and that’s how I have coped with tough situations, obstacles, learning curbs etc.

Hopefully as I get older, work and stability comes easier in life.

save your pennies, girl!

January is the buzz-kill season of all months…

Christmas is over and done with, you’re paying the price for the aftermath
and that leaves you in a bit of a messy situation, money wise.

The bills are stacking up and it leaves you thinking “can I even afford this coffee?”

It’s a self-made problem, but I’m trying to curb my spending habits.

Perhaps I should stick to a less expensive option…maybe.
Note to self in the future: please save your pennies, girl!

words and more words

Don’t know what is worse, emotional pain, verbal or physical? They’re all pretty disheartening for a person to bear, let alone feel. At some points, it feels like it will never go away and other times, you think you’re getting better but it’s all an illusion of sorts.

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ego’s in the sand

Two blog posts in a short time, never thought it would happen in 2016 but hello.
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a poem for the soul

In life, it feels like the superficial reality of it poisons our system
I never understood what seemed wonderful about lying to yourself.

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