Over the years, a lot has changed and evolved. But at the same time, it is not entirely different.
Maturity and wisdom has definitely helped shape my current mindset, as well as providing me with the necessary tools to navigate my path, help me understand and come to terms with things that I didn’t have the words for before, or the feelings and emotions that have found their way through this journey of life.
Looking back, being kind to myself was the last thing on the agenda, if at all important. Insecurities were heavily on my mind, they still are at times. Learning how to combat those hasn’t been easy.
Even now, despite being more at peace with myself, there are days where I think too much, or I don’t feel any particular way or it’s harder to articulate, and that’s okay.
So, in the years since I’ve focused on my wellbeing a lot more, and had time to reflect, what have I grown to love or embrace about life or myself? This is an interesting question indeed.
In fact, there’s quite a substantial list. For example, I love having my hair up, which is a small detail to some, but having a rounder face can make it complicated.
Also, another thing I’ve grown to love is short hair, or perhaps shoulder-length hair in particular. Growing up, I truly think I used my hair to hide my face and how round I thought it was. Once, I had a very evident bleach fail, where a lot of it broke off, so I cut off a lot of hair at the sides and dyed it electric blue. At the time, I didn’t appreciate it as much as I should have.
Would I dye my hair blue again? Absolutely.
Another thing I love now, is wearing no make-up. If my face has problems, I try and help/ease them with skincare, following a routine has done wonders, although I am more flexible with that these days.
Getting older has definitely helped me embrace my flaws, and to be grateful for my health and so much more. This will always be a journey, and I just want to be the best version of myself.
This post is longer than I usually write, but in my opinion, that means I’m feeling inspired and motivated, so I’ll take it.
Over the next few weeks, I’ve got this vision of changes I want to make, when it comes to the blog. Not entirely sure what these will be at the moment, but it’s good to have subtle changes from time to time, right?
I feel like this is long overdue, we’ll see what occurs shortly as I try and figure all of this out. Anyway, going to bed in a bit, my sleep schedule is very off right now and that needs to be fixed.
Might write in more detail at some point this week, I don’t know yet though.
Have a wonderful evening and I’ll be here tomorrow night, take care.
Looked at old notes earlier, that I previously wrote and saved to my phone and it’s kind of bittersweet. It’s not very often that I do that, mainly because I end up missing certain people.
Nostalgia is tough sometimes, some memories leave a lasting impression on your mind. Whether that’s good or bad, I don’t know.
Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all. That’s something I was told a while back, and it’s very true, at least for me.
Although, I do wish I had been slightly more mature than I was years ago, maybe it would have changed how things turned out. The “what if” still haunts me to this day.
Earlier tonight, I found myself wanting to reach out to someone in particular, who I haven’t spoken to in about three years, and a part of me has always wanted that person back in my life.
They were one of my closest friends, we had a complicated connection from the start, but I’ve always been curious about how things would be now, if we had remained close, especially since we’re both older and wiser.
Perhaps, in the near future, we’ll be able to reconnect.
Time definitely heals a lot, but not everything, as much as we would like for that to be reality. I feel like I’m starting to lose my train of thought now, so maybe I should leave it at this for the moment.
Need to get some sleep, but I’ll be back with another post tomorrow afternoon or late evening. Tomorrow is Friday, so glad.
I was hoping to write this earlier in the day, but had quite a lot to do and that was tiring. As I write this, I can hear the sound of rain on my bedroom window tonight and it definitely has a calming effect on me.
Hopefully I fall asleep shortly, after posting this and completing a few things first. My annual WordPress subscription got renewed today, which means I don’t have to worry about that for another year now. I just have to renew the domain name in April.
As much as I don’t like the price of the subscription, the premium themes are so worth it. The simplicity of my current theme is wonderful, to say the least.
Minor changes might be made soon, but nothing too outrageous.
Tomorrow is going to be a little busy, but it should be fine, as long as I stay on target with what I need to get done. I often try and make lists the night before, it’s very motivating when you need some positive encouragement.
Anyway, before I ramble too much, I’ll leave it at that until the end of tomorrow.
Stay safe, take care of you and others and be kind.
Found it a little difficult knowing what to write, but I want to keep this streak of writing alive for the time being. After all, this is a personal blog.
I’ve been meaning to start work on my next book of poetry, although it’s still a work in progress. A lot is going on, but I’m feeling positive so far.
Focusing on my health is a priority at the moment, as well as other things alongside that. I am determined to stick to my resolutions this year, in a healthy and gradual way. I try not to call it ‘dieting’ as it can trigger unhealthy eating habits.
Being the impatient young woman I am, it can feel like this whole process is taking a long time, yet I do understand that it’s not an overnight change.
Anyway, I hope you’re all having a wonderful weekend.
So, another day, another blog post that is uploaded late.
I would go to bed, but it’s the weekend and I have a lot of energy. Might binge watch something on Netflix and write a bit of poetic material.
Feeling quite inspired, although I feel a bit strange after eating some junk food yesterday evening. Can’t wait to get back to my health based journey, which is right now. I’ve tried to reassure myself that it’s okay to have a cheat day once in a while.
Anyway, I do hope everyone is staying safe and well. Have a wonderful weekend and take care.
The weather is really cold these days, and now there’s snow.
January has been such a weird month, like many of the previous ones in the last year or so. As much as I don’t mind cold days or nights, it still manages to get on my last nerve sometimes.
It can also make it difficult to get out of bed in the mornings too, having to wear many layers around the house is interesting, I do keep the heating on a lot, but with that being so expensive, as it can be for many people, I try and keep it on mainly at night.
So glad I have my fleece blanket, as well as my normal duvet. I am thinking of getting more winter type bedding and things like that, but I’m really prioritizing other bills and expenses.
Got a lot of math study to catch up on, which I’ll probably do some of it tomorrow morning. I am determined to wake up early, plus I enjoy cleaning the house. It’s very therapeutic, comforting and I count it as exercise, depending on the household chores I do over the course of the day.
Another thing I also love beyond words is cooking. I could spend hours upon hours making dishes from scratch, it’s something I hope to do more of as well, sometimes there’s not a lot of time and you just want something quick and simple, that’s pretty great too.
Anyway, long story short, I’m off to bed soon. Take care and stay safe!
Today was meant to be Blue Monday, and for the first time in years I can honestly say, it really wasn’t too bad. Start of the week can be a bit slow and tiring, although that’s not unusual.
Been quite productive too, which I’m pleased about. Got up early, took my supplements, all that fun, morning routine stuff. I’ve tried to keep myself organized and punctual, so I don’t forget anything important.
Weather’s quite cold, it seems like it’s raining all the time during the night, either that or the wind is howling. Either way, none of that has impacted my routine so far.
My first online lesson went okay, although I think there was an issue with the audio on my end of the line. I’ve got some things I need to do before Thursday, which is something I am looking forward to a lot.
Almost reached my water intake goal for the day also, still not entirely keen on it, but I have noticed a difference in my skin, although the hyperpigmentation is something I need to sort out at some point.
Been watching a lot of videos about skincare and I have learned a lot since then. Knowing these key ingredients and what they help with has been incredibly beneficial and it helps me understand my own skin a lot more, and how to protect it well.
I’m hoping to fall asleep soon, fingers crossed. Stay safe, everyone.