Ignited Feelings Of Worry

When it comes to fear, or the stresses of certain situations, I often try to analyze and accept what I’m feeling at that particular moment.

Sometimes, it’s not always so easy.

My mind is slightly complex, the same yet different to everyone else’s.

I used to feel shame at getting overwhelmed over some things, it felt like I was the only one at times. (bear in mind, I’ve come a long way and it’s not as bad as it used to be)

To be honest, talking about it shouldn’t have to feel awkward. Everyone has their own struggles and worries, some are just more manageable than others.

And that’s okay, something I often tell myself in notes, diary entries etc.

Life has been a strange and complicated journey, but I’m grateful and blessed in many ways, and I’ve got a good support system.

I’m writing this currently on my phone because I have no energy to use my laptop. Got a few things to do tomorrow, nothing special.

Just hoping that it’ll be okay and I’ll have my peace of mind restored in no time.

This brings us to the end of another blog entry.

I’ll be back tomorrow to share yet another day of thoughts. This is truly a sanctuary for my mind.

God bless you all, and stay safe.

Mila. Xo

Late Additions

I honestly feel like I’m going to fall asleep soon, but before I even think of doing so, another blog post needs to be uploaded. Focusing on my writing should be more of a priority than it is.

Finally got my heating/hot water issue sorted earlier today, and I’m really thankful because the weather is incredibly cold tonight.

We’ll see if sleep is on the horizon, or whether insomnia will keep me company until the late hours.

I always say I’ll rest early, then I do the exact opposite. On a positive note, I did get up at a reasonable time in the morning, so that was good yet exhausting by the end of the day.

Might have a browse through other blogs/websites to figure out my topics for the weekend onwards. Fingers crossed that my energy levels will be sufficient, as well as my concentration. I feel it’s been lacking recently.

Anyway, I’ll end it at that. Until tomorrow’s post.


Mila. Xo

Unforeseen Chaos

Started the day off pretty well, ended it with a malfunctioning boiler.

It’s honestly the last thing you need when the weather is as cold as it is in the UK.

Need to get an early start tomorrow, slightly anxious about it all, but I’m sure I’ll get through this.

Laying in bed, feeling thankful for my warm duvet.

Hope you’re all staying safe and well tonight.

Mila. Xo

Inspired Wednesday


Despite a late start to the day, I completed what I had to do, and that was good enough for me. The cold weather doesn’t really help either, especially in the last week.

I might have been born in a cold place, but I’m not too fond of it.

For the first years of my life, I was born and raised in Scandinavia (Northern Sweden to be exact)

Anyway, I’ve always been proud of my background, and it’s an important part of my identity, who I am. As well as the experiences that have shaped me into the current version of myself.

I think I’m beginning to ramble now, ever so slightly.

Think it’s time to sleep soon, since I stayed awake a bit too late the previous night. Stay safe and stay warm this evening.

Simple Accomplishments

Another day, another blog post on DAYDREAM MADNESS.


I was going to write this earlier in the day, but lost track of time and better late than never, in my opinion.

Got my whole list ticked off before 8pm, so that was a nice feeling.

Started some new supplements today, which really helped my energy levels. I’ve become quite interested in all things health, nutrition and more.

To be honest, I’ve never felt better. I truly wish I had found this motivation sooner than I did, but I lost interest many times in the past.

As I got older, I definitely appreciated myself a lot more, took the time to better my life for me and no one else. Every person’s journey is different, and mine has always been imbalanced as of recent years.

More than ever, I’m determined to stay on track and find balance.

Easier said than done, but I think it’s going pretty well so far.

Going to sleep rather soon, I need all the rest I can get for tomorrow’s long day ahead. Wishing you all well, take care of yourselves and stay safe.


Mila. Xo

Outlet For The Mind



A highly productive day, if I do say so myself.

Got everyone by 8pm, which is very rare, as I often get quite distracted from too many tasks at one time. Hoping tomorrow will be equally as rewarding.

I honestly want to start work on the new book project, but I have no idea where to begin. It’s been a while since I created the last collection, so I’m currently stuck on what theme I have in mind.

A part of me wants to stick with the original concept, but I feel like I’ve outgrown the subject matter, in a way.

For some reason, the darker things were easier to express on paper, when no one could see any of it. There’s so much I have left to say, about many things in particular. How I word these feelings will be interesting.

It’s all a work in progress, but I do want this year to be creatively productive and I do want to challenge myself. This comfort zone of mine doesn’t help much.

With poetry, or any kind of writing, there’s a lot to consider.

I’ll probably go into more detail in the next few days or so, but in the meantime, I hope you’re all doing well and staying safe.


Mila. Xo

Sunday Thoughts



Today was a lot, I honestly didn’t feel too great earlier, but after some pain relief, things were okay again. No, it wasn’t cold related, it was simply a case of temporary, yet uncomfortable stomach pains that subsided; to my relief.

I’ve got my energy back too, which is a good sign.

Sunday is here once more, and a new week is about to begin shortly.

Every week feels the same, in my opinion, and I am sure a lot of people feel this way about it too. Having a routine helps a lot, keeps me occupied and on track.

Going to bed soon, but I wanted to share some of my thoughts, and also get some studies completed in the meantime. I enjoy online lessons, don’t get me wrong, but you can’t beat in-person communication and learning.

If only 15 year old me had felt that way ten years ago. Times have changed.

A lot to be grateful for, such as my health, my family and friends, and all of the people I have come to know through the blog and other social media.

Think I’ll end the post for tonight, and get the other things done before I head off to sleep. Hope you’re all staying safe, and talk to you soon.


Mila. Xo

Slow Night For Motivation



Feeling slightly under the weather tonight, but I don’t want to let my strange mood affect my writing. Plus, it might make me feel better to write something.

Might be a good idea to complete a workout as well, boost my energy a little and feel good. Usually, I tend to sleep it off, but this time around, I really wanted to remain productive.

The mind is a complex one, most times. Found it difficult to know what to write or think.

I should take my writing more seriously, the outlet is a blessing to have.

Hard to believe it’s been nearly three years since I published my second book of poetry, A Cryptic Human Entity. I often read through it and I can’t believe that it’s my own.

Being introverted and a keen writer isn’t entirely a great thing. I do try and embrace both, equally. With the unpredictability of the world right now, who could even blame me for feeling this way?

I do need to try and schedule posts ahead of time, or at least plan them better. Perhaps browsing other blogs might help me find some inspiration for my next posts. If anyone has any favorites, please do let me know.

According to my stats today, DAYDREAM MADNESS had over 300+ views today, which is incredible and I thank you with all my heart.

I’m grateful for any engagements I receive as a result of me posting on here, it does really inspire me to keep going. If there’s any particular topics you think might suit the personal feel of this blog, all suggestions would be great.

Now, I’m not the best at this type of thing, I have simply done this for years out of creative drive and passion. Would it be my dream to write full-time?
Absolutely. You do to have to be realistic about it, of course, that’s reality.

The next book I eventually publish/create, I’ll definitely make sure to talk about it and promote it accordingly. I am always learning as a person.

Hope you’re all safe and well, I’ll speak to you shortly.


Mila. Xo

Retail Therapy: Analysis


Retail therapy can be fun, although your wallet might say otherwise.

I’ve definitely had my fair share of impulse buys, last-minute emergency purchases and those “why did I buy that?” moments in my life.

The older I get, the more conscious I become of my spending habits.

And it’s not because I’m frugal, or I always choose the cheaper option.
Sometimes, retail therapy can be slightly addicting, like most things in our daily lives if not in moderation.

To be honest, I used to be quite reckless with money, but over the years, I’ve found some balance with it all. Just making sure all the bills are up-to-date is enough to leave me content.

I often watch these couponing shows, and it’s so interesting how much you could save on the most random items in your household. And also, how much you could save on the things you like or prefer the most.

Budgeting is quite a fun activity for me, as I love to write lists and keep it all organized in my notebook. Ticking off bills is a relief, not everyone has that chance. Life a few years ago was quite different to how it is now, and I truly am grateful for all that I have, and I accept what I can not own, to some extent.

Materialistic items might seem great to own, but in the end, the things that truly matter, you’ll cherish more, sentimental pieces that reflect who you are and what you love.

There’s a lot of people who aren’t fortunate to have those things, a tough reality for many. If I’m able to help someone in need, I try to do so.

Gratitude is something that keeps me humble, and at peace.

Especially in these unpredictable times we’re living in now.
It makes you appreciate what you have, and the ones you love.

This was something I wanted to talk about today, I’m not entirely sure why, but it’s often a subject I think about, when I see adverts online and outside, when emails spam my inbox, asking me to buy new things and get nice deals in the process.

Since I’m currently on this health journey of mine this year, I made a promise not to buy new clothes, because there’s simply no need.

Well, not at the moment anyway.

I’m hoping to save more and spend less as the year progresses, and I’m hopeful that I’ll be able to do that, with my mind focused on more important matters.

This is become quite a lengthy post, so I think I’ll leave it at that for now.

I’ll be writing a daily post on the blog until further notice, and if you’ve made it this far, thank you. Have a blessed Friday, take care & stay safe.


Mila. Xo

Life Lesson: Bittersweet Outcomes



As much as I am grateful for life as it is today, I can’t help but wonder about what could have been in another outcome of events. I know, it’s kind of ridiculous at this point.

But sometimes, your mind just wants to know.

When you have to discuss certain parts of your life, I suppose the curious side of you emerges.

I’ve learned a lot about my past over the last few years or so. Suppressing your feelings about it is a temporary solution. Such a complex journey, yet I do believe that I have found closure as a result.

We can’t change our pasts, unfortunately. As tough as that is for someone like me in moments like this, all I can do is acknowledge it, process it to the best of my ability and accept it.

That’s easier said than done, ultimately.

As I get older, I do hope that things start to make a little more sense.

Well, maybe I’ll write a book about it, or perhaps a novel of some kind. That’s something I hope to do in my later years. We’ll see if it happens.


Stay safe, and I hope you all have a wonderful evening.